Memories of the Wind.

Saturday, July 29, 2006

I need slaps!

Its disastrous when SK can actually compile a list of my scandals cum crushes and the number hits a staggering double figure. 11 in less den a year. Wat am i doin? Am i intending to form a soccer team or more ambitiously the 26 alphabets? I muz be really emotionally unstable sia. Things must not go on like this. I cant be sure of my feelings anymore, they seem to switch on and off like a flickering lightbulb which is on the brink of spoilage. Pls slap mi hard on my face. I need a dozen of tight slaps. *OUcH*

I think. iF dere's really really a person i like now, she wun even hav the slightest hint at all. I hope so.


当你开始向左走时,而我偏偏向右走,我们是否还会在原点相遇呢?

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Friday, July 28, 2006

Sweet Greetings, anyone?

Some pple greet the mornin wif a sweet smile or a smelly scowl. I hate things when it turn bad, so i choose the former. I dun throw smelly socks at pple, i dish out sweet messages instead. Good mornin to the wind, clouds, sun and YOU. Hehe

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Thursday, July 27, 2006

A dedication to buddy

Today, one of my colleagues who was from china sprung mi a qn. Have i really loved someone dearly before? A special fren called him from Japan last nite, someone whom he hasn't contacted for 2 years. As he told mi about his story, one person immediately sprang to my mind. My buddy.

Haa.. i realise i am veri fond of her in the past. But tat was in the past. I love her even more now. But in a different manner thou. =) We never questioned why we become close frenz, but it seems the reasons why we become close frenz are neva answered too.

I juz wanna dedicate this post purely to my buddy. Who can forget my first call to ya. It was rather awkard but u took it in ur stride. And i am glad tat u told mi u were amiable towards mi as compared to the others who called. And our basketball and badmintion games together? That seems eons ago.

I remembered ur joy when u received my little poem about u, i am gratified that u like it. The little presents tat i gave were inexpensive, like the mashi maro, but i am relieved to put a smile in a pretty face, right where it belongs.
And u gave mi lots to rejoice over too. My doraemon comics can sit pretty in my cabinet, becuz u were the one who sweated to help mi wrap dem nicely. All 45 volumes in less den 4 days. Ur sweet sweet stuff tat u gave mi to eat sometimes when we meet sweetens my heart too.

And u happen to be the privelleged few to know some of my dark, private secrets. (sorry cokty, mayb when there is a better place to tell, i will share..) I am a keeper of ur souls too. I like sittin down wif u, juz to share our burdens and stories.. Whenever we eat together, we alwiz like to share our food, and u alwiz throw urs to mi. i seem to be ur rubbish dump lo. Its oso my honour to send u safely back home, it juz boosts my inexhaustible male ego. Haa.

I think i could go on and on. Too much to say, . i think tat goes a bit to answer why we managed to become buddies ba. I shall end it here. Feelin zzz.. My sweetest word to ya, buddy. Thank you.

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Tuesday, July 25, 2006

一点点就够了。

悲伤少了一点点,快乐多了一点点。

渴望少了一点点,杯子的水就多了一点点。

埋怨少了一点点,笑容多了一点点。

相处少了一点点,想念多了一点点。

暧昧少了一点点,亲切多了一点点。

睡眠少了一点点,钱是多了一点点。

做梦也少了一点点,实际上是多了更多点。(白日梦也算!!)

虽然写了一点点,我的满足感却到了极点。

(希望读者能得到一点点的娱乐。。。)


ps: Oh Dear! Please tell mi. I wan to be lucky no. 5!!!

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Saturday, July 22, 2006

It ends happily ever after.

Haa. Saw a funny incident on the mrt todae. A guy was fast asleep and he was slowly leanin and "pivotin" towards a gal sittin on his right. The gal was lookin so dejected and forlorn that she may juz burst out to tears as she tried to distance herself from the man, manoeuverin and inchin her way away. The man, oblivious to his surrounding, was swayin like a pendulum but he was gettin closer to the gal's shoulder exactly like how a plant would lean towards sunlight.

I dun mean to be mean, but i was tryin hard to stifle my laughter when i saw the desperate look on the gal's face. As i turned around, there were several onlookers who were smiling wryly too. We were waitin for the climax, anticipatin, as if we were spectators viewin a circus act which involved a clown puttin his head into the lion's mouth where its gleamin teeth lies amidst.

Well, i decided to act the hero. I went up to tap the man on his lap and told him tat he was gettin into someone's way. The gal never even realised tat she was safe momentarily as she was lowerin her head and probably closin her eyes and sayin a silent prayer. But she did realise seconds later and she shot mi a glance. issit a thank you? haha i wun be able to find out since i was reachin my stop.

As i was about to alight, the gal glanced at mi again, with eyes that seemed to send out sos. The man was fast asleep again and turnin veggie. Noo more interference from mi. i juz smiled widely. I am not any prince charmin. i probably look more like Michael Jackson wif tat smile. Bye Cinderella. NITE PEEPS!!

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Friday, July 21, 2006

Never a dull moment

Back to happier moments..

I dunno bein sad can create such a uproar,, den i rather spread some of my happiness around ba. Hee. WHoOO

I am happy smilin and being crazy. Tat includes money crazy. =)

I am happy to see cokty pple comin down to see wats wrong wif mi, u guys rox. Plus meow ling too. Did i really look better after i washed my hair? =)

I am happy to play wif the cat downstairs a moment ago. I hope it wun hav nightmares. Sweet dreams to u. =)

I am happy to see mich and mei mendin fences tgt. Do u need mi down to paint the fences? Hurray =)

I am happy to be back in Earth. I dun wanna live in Mars thou i enjoy the stay. =)

I am happy bloggin and losin plenty of sleep. =)

I am happy to have a wonderful tuition kid. Soccer lame to u eh boi? =)

I am happy to be goin back to study. Textbooks are fun =)

I am happy to hav a ah bu, a dear, a mei plus lao da lao san. Many many more We ar a happy family! =)

I am happy playin soccer. I am sensitive to balls. =)

I am happy juz to think wat makes mi happy. (crazy fellow) =)

I am happy tat Yishun is startin soon. Get ur Readin stars =)

I am happy to belong. I am not frm planet ZQ245g3vvt. =)

I am happy to count the stars in the sky. yesterdae was 1734, today was 991.344. Wait.. Arent they supposed to be whole numbers? =)

I am happy wif myself. Ok.. Satisfied. ER.. Ok.. Wat should i say? bet u cant name anything bad about mi. haha =)

I am happy tryin to write lame stuff to attempt to make pple laugh along wif mi. Laugh and the whole world laughs wif u. =)

I am happy to cuddle wif my bears. Sounds sissy?? I dare u to pick a fight wif mi. =)

I am happy to see many huggies. I feel hugged. =)

I am happy to see my frenz gg overseas. they are happy and i am happy. Presents for mi! =)

I am happy being single. Gals, ar u listenin? =)

I am happy to see my old frenz from 2b. Yay. to be or not to be =)

I am happy tat this post is gg to be longer den the prev post. I am cheeful, lovely and adorable. wahaha =)

I am happy to announce my time of sleep. 1am. Gd nite peeps. =)


Pls continue to walk the pathway wif mi. Guided by the wind.

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Tuesday, July 18, 2006

It hurts..

Sometimes, we are juz too hurt.

It hurts to hide my feelings since young. I got terrible secrets..

It hurts that i do not consider myself to have a father..

It hurts when i beat my elder bro when i was young usin the cane becuz i was mean..

It hurts when they call mi fatso when i was young. cuz i was really fat..

It hurts that the teacher in pri sch chose to scold mi based on my looks when i did something wrong..

It hurts that i used my water bottle to hit a gal on her head in pri sch. i am veri sorry for tat..

It hurts tat e gal in sec sch liked my buddies instead of mi. i was so sad..

It hurts that my mum is sick..

It hurts that my pseudo dad is oso sick..

It hurts when my grandma went to heaven. I cried..

It hurts when i unwittingly hurt others becuz i didnt think before i talked..

It hurts when i have to be the bad guy, but i tink i am..

It hurts to see my mei and mich's relationship so strained. I feel useless..

It hurts that i am driftin further and further apart from my best fren. Where ar u now?..

It hurts to be alone. I feel very insecure. But i like to be alone..

It hurts that i alwiz break promises like vases. It is soo fragile..

It hurts that my hug counter is not jumpin. Hav i done something wrong?..

It hurts when i alwiz dun listen to sincere advice. ps: sorry mei that i havent sleep yet..

It hurts when i am losin sleep. i am doin that now..

It hurts It hurts It hurts..

zzz. Tml hurts.

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Sunday, July 16, 2006

地球和火星

Er. . Sometimes it takes other pple to let mi realise where my heart points to. I am so oblivious to my subconcious, probably my inner self is showing signs of rejection right from the start. Convincing mi convincingly that i shouldnt develop any emotional attachments since i may find myself bangin my head onto the wall. Well i still did.

當地球要撞上火星時,
是否意味著你我的相遇,
代表著世界末日?

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Thats the way it should be.

Can challenge ended up well yesterdae. Can wasnt really tat fun compared to the one last week but we managed to zi high our way thr. Mi and quek were playin wif e BMI machine. Haa. Whenever we step on it, it starts its welcome message. And Cheryl and liming were bz singin the "where i belong". mei tryin to convince another potential victim to believe tat she is demure but quek didnt fall for it. Wahaha.

After can was 2B gathering. I was worried that the turnout wun be good initally cuz i was only expectin 10 but siao siao ah, there was 13. Thanks for the effort in comin down, i really appreciate it. And special thanks to Jax. we dirtied ur place and u were so shacked after ur union camp but still stayed wif us. Ur doggies ar cute. King Kong may b small but it got a big name. haha.
I noe my plannin sux, but tat cant really be helped when i was workin throughout the week and i got only one week to settle things. Hehe. our sentosa gathering 2 weeks later would be fun. this i promise.

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Promise

I promise to be punctual.

I promise not to be so lazy.

I promise to study hard.

I promise not to be so scandalous.

I promise to be filial.

I promise to think before i sleep.

I promise to love myself more.

I promise to think more for others.

I promise to find time for my friends.

I promise to try and deliver my promises.

THE END

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Saturday, July 15, 2006

當流星劃過天際時,
仿佛是在對全世界的人說,
''瞧,許愿的煙火來了!''
可惜的是, 它們還沒公佈自己的來臨就坠落了.

當彩虹掛在半天邊時,
仿佛是座巨大的缤紛滑梯.
只是美麗的它只共艷羨的人欣賞,
卻小氣的不讓人坐在上面.

當太陽升起來時,
仿佛是一位親切的大叔,
伸著懶腰,然後声若洪鍾地高声吶喊
'' 該開工了!"

當黑夜來臨時,
仿佛是只紅寶石鳥,
悄悄地在你我的窗口吻了一下,
讓黑夜無声無息地走進來.

紅寶石鳥呢?
當然是回到好心的銅像王子生邊了..

sleepy.... sleep.

~峰先生~

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Ecstasy

Your Personality Is Like Ecstasy

You're usually feeling the love for the world around you - you want to hug everyone.
And while you're usually content to sit back and view the world with wonder...
Sometimes you're world becomes very overwhelming and a little scary.
What Drug Is Your Personality Like?


Haha i guess soo.. as much as i wan to love everyone, i suddenly get withdrawn into my own world. One moment lively and happy, one moment dark and glommy. Splitted Beni.

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Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Rubbish



WOrked for an event company as a usherer yesterday at suntec city, the Rock. Its one of the easiest job i hav ever done. Haa. I guess doin a bit of usherin, helpin to clear food from the buffet tray into my mouth, and being told to relax by our supervisor when we were alr slackin in one corner is a bit too much. The toughest thing was to wake up soo early to report for work at 630am. Esp when mi and junli slept late tgt beforehand at my hse, playin games and den engagin in serious man talk till 3am in the mornin.

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Den today was fun at sentosa. I muz really go and figure out volley ball. a marvel at how the ball spins in the air. Lihui's killer serves is somethin to take note of. Luge was fun too. a pity the ride is so short. 5 dollars is wasted faster den i could imagine. Hope to see the pics soon. And and and... gayin is fun. enjoyed the rxn of the gals when they find mi gay. bleahs.

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Monday, July 10, 2006

Was it fun, or was it mi?

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It was really fun at project can on Sunday. Dunno knockin at doors would provide so much light hearted moments for mi. It doesnt matter that some pple dun bother to open their door or was so indifferent towards us, cuz its the rest who gave tat made our day. It so warmed my heart that the residents gave so generously and with great sincerity. Receiving cans of abalone delighted mi but it was really the extent to how some would actually go downstairs and purchase cans and cans of food when they heard about our donation drive.

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Right after can, my grp went for dinner at pepper lunch in hougang mall. Glad that yeow chong joined us for dinner too. And ya, happy birthday! its ur 22nd birthdae. pity i cant sing tao ze's song 22 for u. Haa. . Xinyi was so adamant that my voodoo mini is not fittin for a guy. She didnt find it cute.



But its cute rite? Cant understand the sterotype that guys shouldnt like such cutie things. Junli would agree wif mi too. But mine is seriously cuter den his. full stop.

And edwin bought bua gua for his mum's bdae which happened to fall on the same day as yeow chong's bdae. Its my mei's mei's bdae too. And once again, xinyi couldnt fanthom the logic behind buyin bua gua for his mum's bdae. She thinks the idea is off, but we guys tink it rox!! Practical rite? Er.. i dun mind receivin bua guas on my bdae at all. really.

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happy that michelle likes the cd and my lyrics. At least my effort was warmly received and rightly "applauded". Thanks thanks.

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The world cup ended wif some controversies and a ungraceful highlight. Zizou actually crashed out of the international scene wif an ugly display of head rammin, so powerfully executed like a ragin bull onto the welcomin chest of Materrazzi. I am a great fan of Z's footwork and i was a tad disappointed to see him bow out in such an ungodly manner. Haizz.

Italy. World cup winners 2006. Bleahs. Stupid penalties. And my first world cup final wif cokty. Qn to cokty fanz: Muz we really change our name? Bleahs twice.

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Friday, July 07, 2006

2 tough questions.

I saw this on peifen's blog. It was one of her old entries and bored mi was lookin thr some of her old entries. I found it quite meaningful and decided to share wif everyone.

TWO TOUGH QUESTIONS

Question 1: If you knew a woman who was pregnant, who had 8 kids already, three who were deaf, two who were blind, one mentally retarded, and she had syphilis, would you recommend that she have an abortion?

Read the next question before looking at the response for this one.

Question 2: It is time to elect a new world leader, and only your vote counts. Here are the facts about the three candidates.

Candidate A: Associates with crooked politicians, and consults with astrologists. He's had two mistresses. He also chain smokes and drinks 8 to 10 martinis a day.

Candidate B: He was kicked out of office twice, sleeps until noon, used opium in college and drinks a quart of whiskey every evening.

Candidate C: He is a decorated war hero. He's a vegetarian, doesn't smoke, drinks an occasional beer and never cheated on his wife.

Which of these candidates would be your choice? Decide first... no peeking, then scroll down for the response.



























Candidate A is Franklin D. Roosevelt.
Candidate B is Winston Churchill.
Candidate C is Adolph Hitler.
And, by the way, on your answer to the abortion question: If you said YES . . . you just killed Beethoven.
Pretty interesting isn't it? Makes a person think before judging someone.

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Thursday, July 06, 2006

Art? nah. juz random doodling in sec sch.

Haa. I decided to post some drawings in my blog. Its not for mi to zi high or to impress other people. I think otherwise though. All these drawings are done by mi and some of my frenz during upper sec. i suppose it reflects the level of maturity that we hav, or rather the lack of it during the teenage days. But we can safely say that we outgrow that age, well i suppose we do..



This was done by ZongWei. He is fantastic at drawin. Need i say more?



I did this. I was feelin way bored and decided to draw one of my classmates in class. this is how she looked like from the back view. haa.



Haha this was done by mi too. decided to draw a combination of cartoon or animae characters.



This big bear was done by Gerald. Haha gerald is a real funny guy. And super nice!



This drawing of several gals was done by Huiyu if my memory serves mi well. Normally it doesnt thou. haha i think she drew this cuz she was in dance.



This weird lookin creature was drawn by mi. A hell monster??



I attempted to draw the animae character "Hero" from Gundam wing. I supposed it got some resemblance ba. haha.



Zongwei's boobs creature. haha.



I like this one. haha. cuz it was drawn by mi. wasted a lot of ink for this one.



Hehe all these made possible due to my new handphone. Yea! =)

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Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Ahh idiotic bastard.

I find myself to be an emotional baby sometimes. I get upset easily, my tantrums workin overtime and my emotions overclockin. It isnt a good feelin to undergo "intense charging" everytime when i feel strongly about something. I suppose i do get extreme in exceptional cases. Haha. . (ever been described so many times as silly boi by frenz)

Either that or i find myself sorely lackin in emotions . How can that be? an emotional baby not feelin anythin when someone of lesser inclinations to tearin would let their tears fall like the Nigara Falls? Haa. Its my split personality at its wicked work again. .

I aM eiTher an emotional idiot or bastard. YEa

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Monday, July 03, 2006

Happiness has just left.

Why is it so difficult to communicate with one another even though we are speaking the same language? Does a "yes" from mi sounds like a rejection to another party? ITS so easy to say what we want, but soo difficult to get the message through. Haa. Cynical me is sure that none who's goin to read this would ever comprehend what i am conveyin here. . I supposed that i dun even noe what i wanted to write at first. I caNt read my own mind either. . .

It seems that happiness is ever so fleetin, and so deceivin. It makes me so afraid of approaching it. I try to hold out my fingers gingerly and delicately to grasp hold of it, but the more care that i take, it just burst like bubbles at the slightest touch. And therefore i took a giant swipe at wat's left, hopin to use babarian methods to conquer it, and it jus slipped through my fingers once more. In the end, my bubbly feelin just burst. I realise i got more sad times than happy times.

Depression is in now. How often do i get the sick feelin of takin a knife and give myself a multitude of cuts. Its alwiz so near and dangerous. Makes me dun wanna stay at home. And i really start to get the idea in my head that i do not need anyone, cuz the world dun need me. Oh dear wat a terrible thought to endure. Lucky for mi that this was only substained in my mind for a short period of time. I noe that i need you all out there. But now, Family and frenz, all that i need is jus some peace of time.

Blah blah blah bla. . i tink everythin up there is jus my split personality wreakin havoc in my head. ALL the little voices. Pls dun believe mi. Wahahahahahaha. . . .

Haiz.

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