Memories of the Wind.

Mesmerised.

Been immersing myself in the wonderful world of words. All beautifully crafted words strung together in an extravagant piece of art to form a novel.

"Of mice and men" was really nice and thanks pui for lending it to me. I am now torn and tormented by Dr Henry's life rocking decision to give away his new born daughter as she got "down's syndrome" in "The MemoryKeeper's daughter."

Decsions which adversely affect your life is hard to make, especially so if you are probably going to be scarred for the rest of it. Time is a irreversible forward moving engine and people so often get caught in its tales and sometimes lies. Before they knew it, a big part of their life has passed so inconspicuously.

I know that 2 of my friends have been reading my blog archives recently and they were caught on in such an intense and consistent pace that they have covered more than half. I suppose my theory last time is proven so much to be true. People read blogs more often in the face of exams.

Due to their mighty efforts, I have been influenced to go through some of them too. Seems like people do change despite the adage that the leopard never changes its spots. My viewpoint deviates and it is interesting to see it in the form of my own writing. I am getting more serious and less blatant with lameness.

Anyway, it has been quite long since I started this blog and it was simply amazing to have blogged 500+ posts. However, I have to admit I was getting weary at one point of time and I simply wanted to delete this blog away at a single hint of impetuousness.

Despite the internal stife, that did not materialise as I love this blog. It has formed part of my attachment in life. I always try to blog with honesty and sincerity without the intent of making it a means to gain popularity with the masses and ultimately, raking in money. Doubters, please be at ease.


忠于自己。

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Friday nite is the mood for love.

给我最深爱的人：

有些话如果要当面对你说出口的话，
我想过了一千个世纪也无法表达我想要表达的。
毕竟我思维慢，
说话又蠢，
也不动听，
只懂得弄你生气。

但是，我想了想。
或许在这世界里，
我比很多很多人，
都希望你能永远幸福快乐。

I think and pray for you, every minute, everyday, hoping that you will be fine and well.

就因为如此，
我得到了一个结论。
如果真的想为你好，
我必须舍弃自己的虚荣心，
和有一天你会被我感动的奢望。

要不然，
总觉得这样的关系只会在朋友面前造成困扰和压力。
我们之间将会隔着一面无形的墙。

那么，你会不快乐。
我也不会快乐。

总之，我还是会一直守护着你。

你一定一定要快乐。。

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Anyway, there is no need to be too inflexible with things. If the next step that you are going to take brings you off the cliff, just stop in your track. If there is no possibility in things, just take a step back. You will realise that you left a lot behind your trail.

当你下一步将踏下悬崖时，
何苦再执著下去。
退一步海阔天空！


There is a enlightened hokkien saying：“bo hee, heh ma hou."

And it means even if there is no fish in the offering, prawns are not a bad subsitute.

It just takes time to let the theory sinks in. Being content with what you have is one of the most important things in life. If not, you will spend so much time crying over what you do not have and leave no time for what you have.

All in the pursuit of happiness.
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I guess this is the end of this post. I will really like to thank everyone for walking this path with me. New friends, old friends, I am really grateful to whoever is in my life. It has been great fun with this "Fri nite is the mood for love" too and I know most people do enjoy reading this and that motivates me to write too.

After all these posts, I guess I finally start to understand what Love really is all about.

I am a slow starter after all.


Friday nite is the mood for love.

Labels: Fri nite is the mood for love.

Blogging has been fun the past year and once again, I have chosen some of my most liked posts to share with all of you.

The positions are irregardless of rank and are shown according to date, the oldest post being the first.

Though, it is a pity that most posts are written in Chinese. Sorry for English readers out there. Please bear with me. ( The [E] at the end of the description stands for English post and the [C] stands for Chinese post.)

1. Beni's rock Concert

This one is in the list simply because it is a stupid video of me. Watch it to be convinced. [E]

2. The sad bear post.

This is about sad bear. In English and Chinese. [C and E]

3. Love is love.

Can we stop playing the hide cat cat game (hide and seek)?? I love the cute little pictures in the post. [C]

4. Thinking of you.

Can day and night be together?? [C]

5. A dedication.

Listen to the dedication by my dear friends. Laugh at my dear expense. However, the dedication is in Chinese. [C]

6. story of little stone.

Little stone is unloved. But he still finds his worth in living. [C]

7. The same steps.

No matter the difference in steps, people still can walk together in the same speed. [C]

8. Rose Coloured Glass.

A post written by Shaowei.. In loving memory of my mum.. [E]

9. Bubbles.

The fate of Bubbles are bad as they are destined to burst. Where shall they fly off to then? [C]

10. Whitey Chan.

Enjoy the story of Whitey Chan, a cute little dog as he goes wandering. [E]

11. Fri nite is the mood for love.

One of my fri nite posts. You got only one chance to live. Do not live with regrets. [E and C]

12.Fri nite is the mood for love 2.

Another of my fri nite posts. They do not express love openly. Yet they love you all the same. [E and C]

13. The broken bridge.

Can loneliness ever be bridged? Can the black n white keys of the piano find each other? [C]

14. The paper crane.

A real story. An old man folds paper crane at 2 little kids' block downstairs. He does not give them directly but put it at a higher corner. They had to tiptoe to reach it. [C]

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That's about it. 14. My favourite number.

Time to end it off here.

Please leave comments to tell me which one is your most liked post. Please vote.

Please~

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一起牵过的手,
数过的星星,
许下的承诺.
是你粗心大意,
还是刻意忘记?

水上的倒影，
依旧不切实际。
回首谈何容易。

想回家画快乐，
却寻到了悲伤的颜色。
想回家迷上童话，
却恋上安徒生的风格。

我的心总是有个填不完的缺口，
仿佛我的孤单，
与这城市的落寞，
都是黑夜里受伤的野兽。

我迷路在大街上，
凤有一点凉。
忽略了现在转身，
其实并不太晚。

Labels: Chinese Writes, The Emo Club.

appi appi appi =))

Haa. I am a super copycat. The above was found in Felicia Chin's blog and it means Happy Happy Happy!

What makes me so happy?

The picture below speaks a thousand words. Which explains why I do not put a thousand happies in this blog. 3 is enough. I lost my sense the day I took a photo with her.




!!!! She must be so happy to take a photo with me. Look at her smile. She is so sweet!!

It must have been her lucky day.

...

Well, I was joking. I am the lucky man instead.


Anyway, watch out for Friday nite is the mood for love. Do not hold high expectations though. I am unable to churn out anything nice nowadays.

Off I go~

Labels: happiness, pictures

"You have grown thinner." or "Gosh, are u on a diet?" or "Whatever happened to you?"

Lines like that are a common trend recently.

I received similar comments from a couple of people the last 2 months and I came to conclude that there is a certain element of truth in these lines. Today, my brother's soon to be mother in law who has only seen me in a couple of meetings mentioned in a off remark that I have slimmed down.

As a matter of fact, I have shed several pounds and I am now able to slip into tigher pants. 28 inch jeans fit with a bit of space left..

A thought sunk in. Will I shrink and shrink, shrink and shrink till I vanish from this world?

Frequent stomach pains and strange sounds coming from my abdomen remind me of my mum's agony last time. It was a familiar source of worry when I see her suffering often at night but I could only watch helplessly.

It is a source of familarity for me to ponder.. I cannot procrastinate anymore. My stomach is giving me some trouble even now. I will see a doctor come next week.

And I keep on visualising myself at my death bed. I have bad vibes about this. However, it is a fact that life ends with death.

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Sometimes, I just need to be convinced that I am not alone.


At the very least, I know I am not.

Labels: musings, note, strange

I puked. All because of a movie.

Cloverfield.

It was filmed like "Blair Witch Project". First person's perspective using a camcorder. It was pretty lucky that I did not vomit a lot.

It was the first time that I puked because of a movie. And I hoped it will be the last time.

Now the next thing that I want to do is listen to someone sing Fish Leong's 暖暖 to me.

"我想说其实你很好,
你自己却不知道,
真心地对我好,
不要求回报.
爱一个人希望他过更好,
打从心里暖暖的,
你比自己更重要."

Hinting at KTV soon. Lol.

After a few drinks with my brother and his friends, we decided that it was time to snug comfortably in bed and we headed for home. A friend drove us back.

However, if you think this is a continual of the previous post, you will be grossly disappointed.

This is just a lame post.

LOL!!

I was in the mood for plenty of lame jokes and I put on my lame thinking cap. Jay Chou was my inspiration. I remembered him due to his concert today.

We were in the car when we drove past a police post.

Me :" What if I suddenly went into a police post now and started pleading guilty??

"Dear mr constable, I am so so so guilty. Look, I walked like Mr Jay Chou a couple of times today."

-_-''' Jaywalked.....


One added:"THe policeman might just take out his baton n beat you for ur lameness."

I replied:" Since the police post is 24 hours, I will then say I am born in the year of the goat.

警察局24 小时不 打烊(beat goat)。


Gosh.. I think if I really do that, the policeman will really break my legs.

LOL. Then I am truly lame.

Labels: joke, lame, random

A fight of the century could have been fought.

The exciting and totally rude exchange of vulgarities were an ominous sign of bloodshed and violence. It could have spurred 2 hot headed men to grab at each other's throats and spill blood. However, it simply ended with a few glasses of beer for one of the man and his companions.

That man was my brother.

We were playing soccer at Fico which was an indoor turf soccer court near Jurong West today at 10pm with a group of friend's friends. As a matter of fact, that meant strangers. My brother was involved in a slight tussle with a pockmarked guy donning a Man Utd jersey. My brother had shrugged off his attention and the guy fell to the ground in a more than legitimate challenge.

Any referee would have let play go on for a harder challenge.

The pockmarked guy reacted as if someone had hurt that small, oblivious part of his innate pride. He ranted off like a mad dog on the loose and was incredulous that my brother did not apologize for that challenge on him.

However, he did not really give my bro a chance. The guy was up on his feet in an instant and how do u expect a sane human being to react when a mad man started shooting with his verbal AK47 from point blank range.

If a man starts shooting at you, u either run, or shoot back.

My brother chose the latter.

Angry words ensued, but my brother was the calmer one.

The guy got so angry that fists were raised and we had to seperate them.

The guy finally said" I do not want to play with you."

Words formed in my head. "Childish little fool."

My brother shouted back and said fine. He left the court which was enclosed in a net. Our team followed suit. 5 of us just sat outside to rest for a while. Another team who was waiting for their turn outside went to play and one of them who was about to go into the court told my brother not to mind that guy and the pockmarked guy overheard that. The kind hearted guy got a load of verbal attacks from his pockmarked friend because of that.

Intermediate conclusion: The pockmarked guy is really ... bla bla bla..

The most ridiculous thing is.. After 3minutes or so, the pockmarked guy in the court began his rubbish again.

He ranted:" Since you are not interested in playing and want to leave, why are you still here?"

Gosh.. I could hear something break. I think it is my brother's temper. My bro got totally obscene. Anyway, the rest of us were quite exasperated since we had the right to rest a while first.

Hmm, the human mind is complex. Has the mechanism in the pockmarked guy gone awry?

Final conclusion: Let's just leave.

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ps: It was lucky that I managed to calm my brother by listing the undesirable consequences of assault. He really wanted to beat the daylights out of that guy.

Really, what is the point.

Labels: anger, note, soccer

有一天，安娜发现鱼缸死了一条金鱼。

她用了渔网，把金鱼捞了起来，然后随后丢进垃圾桶。

鱼缸里的其它金鱼应该不会悲伤吧。

毕竟，金鱼只有三秒钟的记忆。

And I am starting to feel like a goldfish.

One day, I will be gone, and whatever I left behind will be gone with the wind as days passed.. months passed... years passed.... n decades, centuries, eons.

Our life on earth is so insignificant compared to the masteries of time.

Aren't we so much like goldfishes then?

Ahh. At least, even the goldfish has their own significance during their life.

Labels: Chinese Writes, The Emo Club.

2007 年过了。
我的灵感好像也变质了。。

唉，这一季的雨下完了。。
我的悲伤却无法收场。

一个人，
呆呆地坐在空荡荡的房间，
没有雨的吵杂声。

很安静。

我聆听着自己呼吸的心跳.
它的急促,
快令我窒息.
镜子里看到的微笑,
对我是那么的残酷.

右边窗外的天空飘着气球和风筝.
五彩缤纷的气球和风筝在风里鼓舞着.

外边的风,
有着优美的节奏.

这里的风..
有一点停滞不前..

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我真的很寂寞,却又不是那么的寂寞.

这,

也是遗憾吧?

Labels: Chinese Writes, note, The Emo Club.

I attempted suicide.

I flung myself down few storeys high. Over and over again. But I knew I couldn't die. And I wouldn't want to die.

I was in a dream.

I woke up almost immediately due to fear of heights.. And I whimpered like a wimp, minus the sobbing sounds.

From "Dreambook" in Facebook:

Suicide:

To dream that you commit suicide, denotes that conditions in your life is so frustrating that you are no longer willing to cope with a situation or relationship in the same way as you did in the past. Alternatively, you may be unable to overcome feelings of guilt and thus turning the aggression on yourself. On a more positive note, it may suggest that you are saying good-bye to one aspect of yourself or character that your have been carrying around.

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There are a number of issues bugging me. But I know I will be okay. No worries. Perhaps, as the last part suggests, I might be saying goodbye to a loathsome part of me.

Goodbye. ^^

I stepped on a rusty nail today while playing soccer. And I cancelled tuition to see a doctor in order to get a vaccine against tetanus.

Long ago, I would have dismissed it as something small. I valued my life more now.

I also found myself falling prey to sad movies. Not last time. Are all these signs of aging?

Soon.. I will be retreating to my shell too.

Hmmm.. at least that is what I like to do once in a blue moon.

Shells are safe.

She sells seashells at the seashore. And I am the buyer.

I do not understand why.

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This post has long been overdue. Wanted to post this since a month ago but I am finding it hard to express myself..

I need to talk, but I could not mouth the words the way they want to come out. Everyone is either busy, or the setting simply isn't right.

At the very least, Ph offered me respite recently.

I learnt something very important from his lesson.

Never expect too much or anything from people in return, not even your close friends or your other half. One often take close friends for granted but that shouldn't be the case. Friends care for one another, but when you really need someone to talk to, you should not safely expect shoulders for you to lean on.

Mostly, you are on your own. Just make sure you are always in control of yourself.

ps: that above for a whole month??.. I am really getting rusty in blogging... most of the time, I forgot wat I want to write anyway..

Labels: random