Memories of the Wind.

最重要的小事. Minding too much?

果然， 做朋友始终最好。

不会为了一句话，一个叹气而太在意。

我实在不太适合去搞怪。

Labels: Chinese Writes

I was telling sk the other day that by now, things should have pretty ended.

And I finally put a stop to all the monkey business yesterday night. It is proven to be better fun to remain as friends rather than monkeying around.

<>

Been having a couple of emotional nights while lying in bed and surprisingly, I felt numb yesterday after drawing a conclusion. Strangely, and I just dreamed.

Woke up heaving a massive sigh of relief and I felt incredibly great.

*punches my fist in the air*

Today is an important day. Start of something new.

Heh heh.

Labels: note

Ran at night today, which was not routine at all for me. And hell of a run. Boy, this is one of the faster timings I ever recorded running this route. 42min. Judging from the speed which I am taking off, I probably clocked around 11min for every 2.4km. Which means...

Er...

Well, my brain is too dead to do any other possible calculations due to the sheer exhaustion suffered through the agony of a test and tuition today. It is way too complicated to work out how much distance I actually covered every run.

Dots..

Anyway, it was a really relaxing run with the cool breeze blowing against you and the tranquility that the night offers. And there was nothing to be afraid of when you ran at night. ...

Except.

~Scary music playing in the background~

Well, I got a bit freaked out during the last bit of my run. And I frankly think I am such a wimp.
While running on a well lit street nearing Queensway Sec, I spotted this petite Malay girl with a faint tattoo on her back about 10 metres in front of me. She was lashing out at the tree on her left by attempting to hit the leaves which were just at her eye level. As I passed her, I turned to look at her and she glared at me with almost bloodshot eyes.

She was obviously displeased with my interruption.

~heart lets out a bloodcurdling scream~

It was scary to be gazed upon by such hateful eyes. I still could faintly remember that look. Or am I simply too imaginative?

Anyway, I "sped" away with full speed after passing her, and my goose pimples broke out like nervous creatures escaping at random from a fire.

After speeding away from her for quite a long distance, I kept thinking if she might suddenly be just behind me if I turned around.

Totally freaked out by my own thoughts.

Am I thinking too much?

Labels: My spooky tales-, runs, strange

Saw this on someone's blog.

~~~~~~

努力不一定會成功，

但成功卻永遠需要努力。



從小聽到大的故事「龜兔賽跑」，




總是以為，現實生活裏，

絕對不會有人像兔子般，

因為貪睡而輸給烏龜。

長大後漸漸發現「其實有成就的人，

不是靠能力而是靠努力」。



有些人的成就，

是你的十倍、百倍、千倍、萬倍，

但是他的能力

卻不一定是你的十倍、百倍、千倍、萬倍。

不是他比你聰明，而是他笨笨的，

去做一些你所不願去做的事。



在人生中，

聰明的人，常常在最後，變笨了；

而笨的人，卻常常在最後，變聰了。



遇到寒冷酷熱，聰明的人逃開了；

笨的人，卻傻傻的去親身嘗試，

意外的在寒冷酷熱中成長。

因為笨的人都知道：「努力不一定會

成功，但成功卻永遠需要努力。」

~~~~~~



好想做一回笨的人。

也不错啊。

er... What I am hinting here?

LOL.

Labels: Chinese Writes

Saw this on mayi's blog. Haa. and these are the results. Think the webbie is quite cool de. Do try it. =)

Labels: quizzes

OooOOo~~ This week is polo tee week.

Today is my 3rd consecutive day wearing polo tee.

White, Black, Orange striped.

Tomorrow will be yet another polo tee day.

White, black, orange striped, followed by blue or red or white and striped?

~~
An assortment of colours.

I really need to vary myself more.

Ya. ANd April is approaching. Which means, the dear exams are visiting yet again.. though they are super unwelcome in any students' life.

Ya. April is approaching. Where's Michaelangelo, Donatello, Raphael and Leonardo? Give me a break.

Haa. Incessant crap. Which reminds me of Splinter. I got a small piece of splinted wood from a wooden chopsticks which I was using during lunch stuck in my right middle finger from yesterday. Painful reminder.

Shucks, I really do not know what I am blogging about. I am in the same state of mind when I was studying fluids of mechanics earlier on.

Just let my words flow. Hopefully, my answers for fluids test tomorrow will flow fluently like this freaking post, minus the crap.

BaHhhHH~BaHhhHH~BaHhhHH~BaHhhHH~

Labels: lame, random

Everyday, my greatest joy is to hear the lecturer for the last lesson says:" That's all for today."

...
Cranky nuts.
...

At the rate I am eating, my whole body will be soon made up of chocolates.

Labels: lame, note, random

~ooooooo~~~

I got a cute doraemon sitting nicely on my bed now. And doraemon is going to accompany me whenever I sleep.

=)

Who needs superman when I got xiao ding dang.

Thanks. U deserve one big hug~~~



。。。。。。。

Btw, I am feeling a bit flurry.

~~~~毛毛~~~~

Labels: lame, note

While on the bus home today, I spotted an old Chinese uncle sitting by the window who seemed to be rather apprehensive or cagey. You will have thought he was probably going to set off a bomb on the bus.

Well, he was constantly chewing on his right index finger like an aggressive puppy who is playing on its favourite toy bone. When he paused a while to enjoy the sensation of his little bite, he will wipe his finger which is full of saliva on his neck. After the deed is done, he proceeds to chew on it again.

Eh.. I was half wondering if he washed his hands if he did use the toilet earlier on.

~~~

Haa.. Guess old habits die hard. Maybe he was already a finger abuser since young. Oh. If that is the case, I can foresee myself saying lame jokes even when I have wispy white hair.

LOL~

Labels: lame, random

I realise that the number of hits to my blog increases when the exam period is nearing. This means more people are frequenting my blog. What is the reason for that?

Figuring it out..


Instead of figuring the complicated equations in my notes.

Well, when exam nears, I rather not play due to guilt. Yet I can't seem to motivate myself to study either. For me, blogging absolves some guilt even though I am not touching my clean notes.

Yes, I think I am going to blog more frequently these few weeks.



How about you?

Labels: note

Random writings. Heee.

<<小风的巧克力甜点>>

喝着空的汽水罐
我心情却装很满
能不能把灵魂窗里的积水
滴进空的汽水罐？

我暂时只想把心情交换
遗忘了拉环在小指留下的伤。

可我却忘不了你留在汽水罐上的口吻香。

。。。

在夜光的照耀下，
只剩下数不清的空罐，
丢弃在充斥着垃圾臭的小巷口。

。。。

Work work.

Labels: Chinese Writes, musings, random, The Emo Club.

Keep on meeting strange people nowadays.

Well. The one I met today wasn't just strange. He is sick.

I was studying in Queenstown library with Mingzhi today morning when I had a slight tummy ache. Of course, the cure for it is to go to the toilet.

Well.. what was I thinking? I couldn't possibly go to a cafe right?

Er...

Anyway, there were 2 cubicles in the toilet but only the first one was usable. I could hear strange sounds coming out from the first one, which was apparently occupied. The person inside was muttering some strange things and he was constantly tearing toilet paper. And he was rubbing or wiping the paper against something and sometimes giving out strange aahs.

I keep on hearing something that sounds like "fantastic" or "1030" too.

All these according to my superb sense of hearing.

(Eh .. dumb. the toilet was quiet except for the mysterious person inside)

Then I heard the flushing of the toilet and the strange person was about to be unveiled.

He was a middle aged Indian man.

I got a shock when he came out. He did not have his pants on and he came straight up to me, his breath so close that I could probably see his nostril hairs. Then he said something that I could not make out at all and jerked his lower body back and front. Total shock!!
I retreated two steps back due to the dangerous state that I was in. Well, before I could marvel at my lightning reflexes, he commanded me in a firm voice to go into the toilet.

I meekly obliged, as if I were a poor private obeying a fearsome army commander. It was of course a stupidest decison. Don't you ever know? Do not follow instructions blindly. I felt as if I were commiting suicide.

I started to fear for my privacy and life as I was trapped in the 4 uncomforting walls of the toilet cubicle. The sicko? Outside the cubicle and rambling on. He kept on pressing the tap and left the water on while he tried to entertain me and possibly his only audience.

Haa. The clearest thing I heard was "Chelsea has many star players. One of the star players is~~~~

Drogbra."

That was stupid. I was peering towards the front, ears cocking in alert, wondering if he might just jump up and cling onto the toilet door to visually rape me.

In what seemed like eternity, I finally cleared my bowels.

*please heave a sign of relief for me*

Alas, my torment was yet to be over.

When I came out, the guy was apparently still playing with the taps. At least he got his pants on already, fortunately. I positioned myself farthest from him, as he was using the furthest tap on the right.

As I could not stand my curiosity, I turned my head slightly to observe him. This freak was so alert that he looked up at me and jumped a bit in his standing position. Then he started jerking his lower body forwards and backwards yet again.

THAT was the last straw.

I quickly went out of the toilet, and there was this chinese man who was about to go into the toilet too. He looked incredulous when he saw my face. He must have thought I had seen a ghost.

What a toilet outing.

Labels: strange

Today, while waiting outside NCC for a cab, mama fell down.

She went head first, her legs giving way, while I happened to turn my back away from her for a moment.

Shock and fear gripped me for that split second.

Haix..

She just sat down on the ground as I lifted her upper body off the floor. She's light. Reduced to bones and nothing much. She was spilling blood and she just spitted out her upper dentures. I almost got into a frenzy seeing her mouth full of blood. It was an awful and hurting sight..

Count it lucky..

She only cut her lips, and a spoilt dentures. It is definitely a stern reminder for her not to be climbing anywhere in the house now.

Things gonna be all right. Somehow.

What will be, will be.

Labels: note

I saw the ridiculous new town sec guy again on the bus. No entertainment from him though. Not that I need any of his clown acts.

And today, my mum returns. Sad to say that I got into a needless and heated argument with my aunt. I do not want to make my mama unhappy but things have to turn out that way. My aunt is seriously limited in sensitivity. I can only keep mum.

Accompanying her tomorrow. *prays.*

Down..

And down..

And terribly down...

Turned into a landslide at night.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Friendship requires trust, I acknowledge that.

And you probably thought that I do not care about how you feel, yet.. have you ever put yourself in my shoes and consider my concerns?

Even if I am in the wrong. Even if things are not due to that.

We do not understand each other. Different sides to a jigsaw. Different parts of the world. Different planets. Different planetary systems. Different universe??

Lets stop at that.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Labels: musings, strange

If you keep on thinking of ways to be happy and try to fulfill them, you find yourself stuck in the middle of nowhere, and that makes you sad.

Rather, just tell yourself you do not want to be sad no matter what the situation is, and you find yourself happy..

I am glad to be a normal person and stay contented with what I have.
...

There are plenty of strange people out there. Anyway, how do u gauge whether a person is strange? You measure his strangeness by your own yardstick or the norm right? At least for me. Because I believe I am strictly normal. Yet, I seem to find so many strange people out there that I am starting to believe I am the abnormal one.

..

Today, while on the bus, this upper sec male student from new town keep on turning his head to look at me. He was making ridiculous gestures and wildly throbbing his hands about in a bizarre fashion. When he realised that he captured my attention, he was visibly pleased and increased his speed of playing with his own hands in air.

Diaoz. Is that normal?

Labels: musings, strange

I am freaking tired.

Too little hours of sleep. Time spent doing nothing much really.

Haiz...

I want to hibernate like a bear. If I can hibernate, I will make sure I get a week of sleep before I say "Good morning" to anyone anytime.

But there are too many things to be done.

Nothing can wait.

Sleep has to wait.

Labels: random

The Emo Club.

I am strange.

I do not like drinking coffee, yet sometimes, I find myself sinking into the rich aroma of a cup of coffee, cupping my hands around gratefully, and reveling in the tranquility that a cafe provides.

Personally, I prefer tea to coffee. Though, caffeine is not my cup of tea.

Dots.. Strange person saying strange things. Haa..

...

The magnetic needle in my compass loves to point to the opposite direction, taking an attraction to things that I should not like. A strange phenomenon in my magnetic field, which normally just repel whatever enemy forces in the radar. Though, I welcome intrusions.

Makes my life more interesting.

Or is it the jigsaw theory that lao da has mentioned in her blog? Maybe I have other sides in me that is not discovered yet.





The Emo Club.

Labels: The Emo Club.

Having a voracious appetite nowadays. I do not feel happy to make my stomach feel all out of sorts, yet I am choosing a most natural way to ease my tensed up emotions.

Last Saturday, I ate 4 bowls of rice. Don't know what's wrong with me.

And today,I went for supper with Sk, Pek and Joa.

That was after a hair cut with Sk, Jun, Pek and Guanyu.

When I reached home, my mum forced me to eat yet again. She left food for my brother but he worked late and was adjudged not to come back for dinner. Hence she wanted me to eat the vegetables.

She almost went hysterical and burst into tears when I do not want to eat simply because I am too full.

And as the food goes down into my stomach, tears rolled down into the stomach as woeful companions.

Did that make her happier somewhat??

....

She's irritable nowadays.

Me too.

Dun mess with me.

Because I will be having bad hair days for long. The hairdresser did quite a bad job with my hair.

Of cause, there's more to that.

Labels: anger, musings

I have been singing so many different tunes in my heart that I have forgotten what I want in the first place.

Alas..

Been harping on the same song forever and I feel it is time to move on, especially when I keep going out of tune.

Currently belting out soulful base notes in its rich melancholy. Yet they do not sound right too.

=(

... Wide awake now..

My eyes are full of vigor that they could almost burst into flames.

Precisely. This is the problem.

I do not need to feel what I am feeling now.

All out of tune.

Labels: musings, random, The Emo Club.

<<小峰的巧克力甜点>>

孩子，

就像是天使来到了人间。

我们必须呵护他们天真无邪的笑容，

不让他们受到伤害。

因为，

在他们蜕变成大人时，

他们那隐形的翅膀会慢慢枯萎而消失不见。

所以我们更加要让他们抱有一颗善良的心。

。。。。

~~~
There's a need to explain what is <<小峰的巧克力甜点>>. It was intended to be a story. However, as I was busy with work, that thought will be postponed till late. Instead, the 巧克力甜点 now refers to my 思维. It is my space in which I work out my thoughts. As the name suggests, 小峰 is me.

Labels: Chinese Writes, musings

Commitment.

This is the word that correctly expresses my feelings when I go to Yishun Reading Stars as a volunteer every Friday night.

Really find myself being less motivated this semester to go there. Tons of work, a hectic Friday schedule and most importantly, my brethren are slowly disappearing from the Yishun scene.

However, I shall continue.

The love factor is compelling. I go there for my kid, Wee Chou. He's a really cute kid. You almost cant see his eyes when he breaks into a wide grin. Good natured and rather helpful too.

I remembered the 4th session when I asked him whether he feels that he has behaved well during the particular session or not. He replied sheepishly that he hasn't really. Yet, he promised that he will behave better the coming session.

In addition, he actually remembered the 5 basic rules when hinted. (Be attentive, ask for permission, take turns, be polite, raise your hand)

*Touched*

Though the improvements are not drastic the coming session, he did relatively well. He helped to carry the chairs used for the reading session back to where it belongs and then come back to me with his usual cheery grin.

Tears rolled down my eyes. Eh. Joking.

Though he has faults, his goodness I see far surpasses the little glitches. And Mabel commented the last session that Wee Chou loves me. Yeah.

*Flies up to the sky*

...

At the end of the previous session, I asked my kid how many stars he deserve. He conceded he only deserve one. Well, true. He knew himself. He wasn't behaving. So I gave him only one. Still, his smile never fades.

One thing I absolutely adore about him is that he never argues for more and is happy go lucky. Easily contented? Ya. He never lets his disappointment gets the better of him. And at that time, Xiqian, who was sitting in front, turned back and asked for a pen from me. Wee Chou immediately took out one to lend him.

That deserved another star and I promptly applauded and rewarded him for his nice gesture. Tell me. How can I not like him?

That made him break into a wider grin.

Hee ^^

Labels: school, yishun

Fly and fall.

曾经写过。。

虽然沉浸在幸福的捆绑当中，

可是。。

我奢望的是不敢想太多的自由。

Let me fly, and reach for the unreachable stars in the skies,

for the night says everything will be fine.

Wings will guide me through.

Though,

a percent of what they say come what may,

i shall fall.


Let no wicked stars chuckle when they see me fall,

because I am afraid.

Instead, shine on me.

I shall not be afraid.

~~~~

Bleahs.. Random and crazy writing. Hahaaha.

Labels: Chinese Writes, poetry, The Emo Club.

The Emo Club.
情感俱乐部。

From 《〈小峰的巧克力甜点〉〉

“呃。。听说你们这里有卖幸福小罐头？”

“对。”

“幸福小罐头里面真的装了幸福吗？”

“里面可能装的是喜，也可能是悲。不一定。”

“huh. 那还叫什么幸福？”

“人本该在伤心时哭，快乐时笑。经过许许多多悲伤和喜悦，才能尝到幸福的真正滋味。。你还要买吗？”

“。。。谢谢你。我知道去哪里寻找幸福了。 =) ”


I do not know which is the real me. The happy one which you see everyday, or the one which u read about.

Perhaps, I am a thorough mix of both.

Anyway, I believe that happiness is always around us, though fleeting.

As long as we look ahead and smile no matter the outcome, happiness stays.

We are the one who determine whether we are happy.

A smile makes me happy.

A song makes me happy.

Friends make me happy.

You make me happy.


Signing off, The Chairperson of The Emo Club.
情感俱乐部。

Labels: The Emo Club.

Something terrible could have happened, yet what could catapult into a mess ends up only with 4 little scars on the left hand. And I am grateful for that.

Morbid thoughts like suicide should not be entertained, yet sometimes people are so caught up with their own depressing thoughts that we somehow forget the value of life. Emotions bottle up and the mind gives way to cowardly acts.

I guess this teaches me to treasure life more. Emotional pain, much nore than physical pain serves as a stern reminder..

...

Especially when happiness is there, though fleeting.

It never goes away.

Sooo...

Love ~~ your ~~ life.

=) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =)

Labels: anger, The Emo Club.

What's the definition of space to you?

To me, I love the private space of sitting on the bus by the side of the window alone.

However, it is strange that I enjoyed the company of a stranger sitting beside me. Normally I would find it a serious act of intrusion into my privacy. My private space in a public place.

Hell no, if you might be thinking that the stranger is a pretty girl, though you got half of it spot on.

Just wanted some warmth from someone.

Call it insecurity, whatever you want. I am prefectly fine with myself.

Hee. Enjoying a small denial.

No monday blues for me. The bus ride spearheads a beautiful morning today.

.
.

Goodbye. Beautiful stranger.

Labels: musings

I have been constantly bullshitting to my sec one tuition kiddie about me and my girlfriend being Jolin Tsai. Hell will break lose if he ever believe it, though I could see that his confidence is marred by my convincing act.

If there were a possibility that I could ever connive with the real Jolin, I would surely destroy his faith that I am a mega liar. Heck, he thinks that I am seriously a good liar and I appreciate that tiny compliment. Though I may seem to always break down into hysterical laughter in front of certain people when I attempt to lie, I am a top actor when my skills are in serious need.

Enough of bragging. Anyway, my kid lent me a book titled "Study smart, not study hard". I am considering studying hard into this book so that I really could develop a intricate understanding with my "beloved" notes before I sink into oblivion and get drawn into battle with sneaky Mohr's circle, the crafty Navier-Stokes, and evil system response. (part of my notes).

...

Is that irony? Somehow life is pure irony. I sometimes find it hard to be myself. I really do want to be myself. Though, sometimes, nervousness, a need to lie, wanting to lie, makes me lie.

That's why I am a great liar.

Labels: friends, random, work

Peeps. Welcome to the emo club. (emotional for short).

Today, I am the chairperson for the emo club. Do not know exactly why I am being such a emotional wreck now. Well not exactly, I am just an emo baby.

I got to admit I like being an emo baby once in a while. It lets me get in touch with some of fears, my insecurities, and emotions. I am just afraid that I will fall hard one day, if I ever got too high.

Some days, I am just a happy fool. Fools have lesser worries.

I once wrote a quote during sec school. Or jc? Could not really remember, but I wrote a lot of quotes that time. One says " The idiot is the one who thinks too much."

Why be an idiot and make yourself unhappy, when you could opt to be a fool, and smile everyday. I guess people wants to smile for a reason.

Its either you are a fool, or an idiot.

Black and white. I do not like grey spots.

dots dots dots. .. ... .... ..... ...... ....... ........ ......... ..........

dots following a certain pattern.

Totally irrelevant.

Perhaps, it all started innocently. I just happen to browse through several of my previous posts. I really like my own creation " Fri nite is the mood for love".. yet I chose cruelly to stop it.

Or...
...

一个人傻笑，真的好傻。。

两个人一起傻笑的话，虽然傻，可是自己并不会觉得傻。

有朋友陪，真好！

...

I am just your normal guy.

emo.

Labels: The Emo Club.

Gosh. I am loving every minute of my life. This was the feeling that I got while I walked out of my tuition kiddie's house. Actually, I am always in a supremely good mood whenever tuition is over.

Come to think of it, I have never considered my cup to be filled to the brim, but that was not my intention in life. Content with life as it is, content with what I have.

I liked company of close friends, small talk or crap, be it a simple meal, or a strolling morning soccer. Taking time off for myself in a cosy afternoon or enjoying a quiet night doing what I like without restrictions makes me happy too. Mellow stuff. But I want things to remain as they are.

Unhappy memories and a forlorn past does not cut a sorry figure. Growing from strength to strength from past experiences takes time, but it should not knock a person out.

...

My mum showed me her scars yet again; the one which had me, and the rest which is also surgically crafted, yet had a darker overtone as contrasted to the joys of life. Physical pain is forgotten, but emotional pain left much more than stitched up scars.

Yet, that is life.

Labels: musings, random, The Emo Club.