Memories of the Wind.

I loved to write quotes a few years back. I remembered writing hundred plus quotes throughout the years, some nonsensical, some rather quirky. However, I have misplaced this precious book of quotes.

Most I have forgotten, but I still remember one or two.

Two~

1. Never give a beggar money. They will take your money to buy a bigger tin.

2. The idiot is the one who think too much.



I penned one recently.

Nothing is too difficult to handle if you get the better of time.

And I do believe one can be a master of time. - beni.


...

But I feel like a slave to time now.

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每个人的步伐都不一样。

像瘦子，步伐自然较轻， 而胖子的步伐自然重些。

高的人，步伐往往是矮子的一倍有余。

然而，有些人还是能肩并着肩，手牵着手，以同样的速度前进。





这是因为他们已经习惯彼此的依靠了。

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I start exercising early in the morning everyday..

when I run to the bus stop to wait for my bus to work. Haa. It is do or die for me. It was a lunging dash right from the point where the lift door threw open and I propelled forward and every ounce of my muscle was called upon in a mad frenzy.



I am a true sprinter. All the scenery flew past me like I was a bullet train. I personally believe I am breaking records everyday.

...



...

All right. Bull shit. I enjoy rushing like mad though I know I could have avoid doing so if I leave house earlier. This is due to the fact that the bus always arrives at a stipulated timing and if I miss that particular bus, I would have to wait 20min for the next bus and I will definitely be late. However, I am just one of those who never learn their lesson.

Well. Never mind.

I love running in familiar grounds, watch familiar faces and familiar sights wheeze past me. Somehow, even the Bangladeshi who lives in the rubbish dump downstairs warms my heart too.

=)

If one day, I shall leave this neighbourhood, it will be with a heavy heart. Much less leaving Singapore permanently if I work overseas one day. No wonder the song "I do not want to live on the moon" by Kermit the frog keeps on playing in my head.

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Meeting up with my Buddy has been great, especially so after a long period of absence. We have both been tied down by commitments, bogged down by work and enslaved by a punishing schedule that time for each other is rare. However, all these factors ensured that I relish her company more than ever.

We got a lot to catch up on. Mostly on our love lives?

~~

It seems like we got a lot to agree on and wow, the things we agreed on have actually been discussed with Sk while on the little Friday's night ride back after Yishun volunteering session. *Yishun Reading Stars*~~~ Yeah

Hmm. "Why cant everyone be friends?" ~ inspirational quote from sk.


** **

And I realise that the things that guys shrug off, girls remember them far more than we ever imagine. This was amplified in the show "mars vs venus" too.

Intricate details and small incidents stay rooted in their memories. A thoughtful comment that I made to Buddy has actually created a lasting impression on her. However, I had never thought of it as something very great and it just flew off my mind.

^^

Ahaa. But I remembered the incident now. And I will remember it forever.

****
Yesterday's incident.

The night breeze made a great companion as we strolled towards the Happy valley cafe in tiong bahru after a mild talk at a coffeshop. Buddy was on my left but she preferred standing on my right instead and wanted a change.

I mentioned nonchalantly that I was simply walking on the right because I did not want the shrubs that are present on my side to irritate her legs.

Well, thats what a guy should do, isn't it?

Hmmm..

We continued to walk for a short while before she suddenly asked if I still remembered the particular thing that I said to her.

Actually the thing that I said is really nothing special..

Some years back, we took a bus together and I told her I want to sit on the window seat instead of giving it to her simply because I do not want the sun to shine on her.

I would not have remembered that if you do not jolt my memory.

__________________________

*Yawns.* Sleeping soon. A nasty bout of sleepiness is infiltrating my defence and I am not so stupid as to fight it anymore.

The rule is " if u cant beat them, join them"

Bye and night. =)

Labels: friends, musings

Knock Knock~~

Whos there?

No one's there.

果然是没人.


*****
不爱喝咖啡的人，
爱上了它．

而爱喝咖啡的人，
却厌倦了．

Labels: Chinese Writes, The Emo Club.

^^　Yoooo, happy birthday Chai Yan~~ A small "animal" picture for your birthday!!



And plus a naruto pic too. Wahaha.

Labels: friends, happiness, random

After going vegetarian, it seems that I always do not have enough to eat. I am constantly starving.

好饿哦~~

-_-

However, my colleagues are great. As if sensing my malnutrition, one of them actually took the effort to buy me breakfast today.

Oooh vegetarian roti prata~~Thanks Carol!!

The ones who give and make another person happy ends up feeling happy themselves. I smiled to her for her thoughtful gesture and she returned with an appreciative smile. Quite unlike her. She does seem a bit shy with that smile. Who will expect that from a married mum though?

=p

I guess a smile does warm people up a bit. She's one straightforward person who can be rather blunt with her words, and I seldom see her smiling so radiantly. Hmmm, I must have been quite a positive influence around the office?

All right, that's all folks. Stay tune as I bring u the latest updates of my other colleagues. Gee. I am so boring. Who will want to read about my working life?

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Back to the emo club, not before I realise that blogger posting is finally normal.

Well..

Haven't fall in love with a drama serial for a long long time. This is especially so since the shows that I have been watching are only inclusive of documentaries ranging from elephants' murderous streak to ants' vicious attack on its own kind to animals' sexual instincts. Watching soccer games are another exciting part of my otherwise bland choice on the remote control.

So what is this drama? Does it possess magic?

:)



The show that has crept into my hectic and mundane life is channel 8's 9pm romantic comedy, "Mars vs Venus". I love the show for its light ways, yet poignant enough to tug at my heartstrings. It shows the life of 2 contrasting marriages. One is a newly married and super loving couple, and the other a stagnant marriage of 7 years.

Huang Bi ren acts as a convincing auntie in the show (the wife of the 7 years marriage) who has grown haggard throughout the years as she toiled as a housewife for the family. On top of that, she has to bear with her conniving mother-in-law who never fails to produce enough verbal poison for her son and grandchildren.

Despite Huang Bi ren's efforts towards this family, her marriage is on the rocks. Lack of real communication between her husband (played by Tay Ping Hui) and both self-righteous side has resulted in their relationship souring. Add in the husband's ex girlfriend and you get more than enough gunpowder to blow off an entire island.

~~

It is rather inspiring to see how much Huang Bi ren's character in the show loves the family and her heart-wrenching sacrifices that she made even though she is also at fault that her marriage is so strained.

Yes Sk, I said that I do not really believe in undying love, but I admire people for their selflessness love and the willingness to put love before themselves. No matter what kind of relationships, the willingness to sacrifice is something that is evident in great love. However, trust, commitment, communication are other important ingredients that must be present before true love can stand strong against the trickery of time.

.... ..

I finally dreamt of my mum for the first time since she passed away. It was a strange thing that none of us has yet to dream of her though.


The dream

Everyone was brought back to the past through a time portal when my mum was still alive. However, we knew that we can only be there for one day..

The only scene that I could vividly remember was me kneeling down on the floor before my mum. Her hands were tightly in my grasp and they felt warm. I was crying bitterly and telling her that I have been a unfilial boy and regretting the things I have done and not done. I promised to be a good boy, to do my chores, to take care of myself and not to make her worry anymore.

She was calm and gave me a reassuring look. Despite not talking to me, she consoled with her eyes that spoke of wisdom. However, her eyes looked distant, as if she was preparing for a long journey, never to return..

~~

I cannot remember most of the details in the dreams, but I know I will forever miss my mama. I will live on well and make good my promises. The things that I said in this dream are exactly what I said on my mum's death bed. I was holding her hands too and desperately crying out for her to respond to me and trying ways to revive her, but to no avail.

I am sure she has heard me. =)

I love mama.

******

ps: a sms today made me super happy. I hope to see you soon. =)

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I woke up today morning feeling strange and erratic. Events that happened years ago seemed to be fleeting before my eyes. And I wonder if that is a curse inflicted upon by the sleeping monster to those who hurt their body by confining themselves to limited quality time in lala land. I think i need to find a sanctuary in lala land soon..

~~

It is a misery that events of yesteryears just flashed across my mind like it was a blockbuster movie screening, the audio loud and clear, and the scenes intense and fiery sometimes. Beautiful and happy scenes came and go, and the sad stories continue. Though I want to go through them again physically, they stay as memories,and just like the stars in the skies, I cant reach them even if I tip-toe and stretch my hands high up.

Just paint my memories in a safe little box, and keep them safely in a safe place where safe people guard it. I do not want them to leave...

*Yawns.*

I am erroneous again. No interesting posts. Crappy. Just like my life and me.

Aieee... anyway, talking about boredom, I am listening to the same song over and over again. "The rainbow connection" is really nice.


~~~Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection, the lovers, the dreamers and me.~~


Let me end it off with a rainbow pic, guys and gals, we will find the rainbow connection, believe me, believe yourself.

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I am sesame, you are green bean.

我是芝麻，你是绿豆。

~~

Been pondering over my non-existent yet highly interesting love life. It must be boredom that has induced such a intoxicating effect on me. I was asking myself this question.. Which one do I love most?

A certain person popped out in my mind. Gosh, that's impossible. I am resigned to it already. Breaking my heart is not something I enjoy doing. However, I am so so scared that I may not be able to see her again in my life...

However, the only little thing that I can do for her is to devote a few minutes of my life thinking of her everyday and wishing her happiness though she might not be able to feel it.

~~

I am sesame, you are green bean.

我是芝麻，你是绿豆。

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你跟我那么一样，却又那么的不一样。

We are so similar, yet totally different...



The Me in the mirror prefers to do things with his left hand..

@@@


为什么简单的牵手，会看起来那么的幸福甜蜜呢？


(ps: this pic came out in my previous post 1 yr ago)







~~~crap.



Tired.. My legs are shaking and I cant take it anymore.

Really? I can come down?

But how do i come down?

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Slacking off at work. I am a hardworking chap, but sometimes, you do hit a lazy streak once in a while. Hence, I did some doodling on my fishy diary during work yesterday. Besides, I had nothing to do at that period of time, which gives me the unofficial license to take a breather.



Crappy and ugly. As expected from me.
~~~

Gosh, look at the time now. I need to sleep.

Night guys, night gals, night moon and stars, and night to the little kid having that frown on his face.

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我就是神。

There's this line in the show "Initial D" by Jay Chou that goes ~~＂神也是人，只是人做不到的．．．bla bla bla.. cant remember the line. But well, those who watched the show will know. So I am god. Show u why if u read on. Anyway, this show really showcased Jay's acting.

There~ he did superbly well to keep this stoic expression for most of the show. Remarkable. =)




But this is not the point.

Back to my point. ~~~

Last time in Jc, Sk's class coined me a nick, "Soccer God" Stupid but it is super flattering. People just like to hear good stuff, despite the pathetic element of truth in it.

LOL!!!! It is apparent that my skills remained stagnant for a good 6 years.




Why did I want to post something tat is already so ancient?

Because yesterday, while at work, they called me 神.

I solved a minor problem and they jokingly called me that.

Hehe. That's all. Now guys n gals, you must be wondering why I wan to tell u that, right?

I just want to brag and inflate my already bloated ego.

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TT has set up a shopping webbie called therarashop with her friends. As a nice chap (unbashfully), I decided to help by placing an advertisement on my blog. The little ad can be found on the side bar, just below my "cool" profile.

The pictures shown below are the various designs that therarashop offers. I think they are quite nice and I will absolutely adore my gal if she were to wear them, provided I have one first.

Rararararararara~~~~~

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Magic and miracles.

I am starting to really believe in magic and miracles. If you really put your heart into something, no matter how difficult the task at hand can be, things will improve even if it means a minute step each time. (repeating the same thing again and again)

I found myself reacting more and more positively to household chores. I pacify myself that it is a great deal to keep the place neat and clean for living. And I realise it is not at all difficult to sway my mind. I now do them enthusiastically and it is a great satisfaction when you see the place all spick and span. I am sure my mum will be pleased with my positive showing. In fact, I do believe that she is quietly watching over me, hence the change in me.

~~~

And she must be conjuring some magic over the family too. My auntie actually praised me today. She was commenting how great it was to walk on the floor after I have mopped it. I took the extra effort to mop an area twice and it certainly shows. Yeah *shows the V sign*.

..anyway, my cousin came over to live with us again. again again again.. She was not on the end of a very well received reception as expected since she did not bother to attend my grandma and mama's funeral..

However, I am pretty sure both of them will not hold it against her. They will watch over her, and will show their magic in her. They are telling me to take good care of her and I will, out of my own accord. I just wish that she grows up to be a person who values family ties, as they are really important. They provide a strong shelter and temporary respite in the torrential storm out there in the real world.

Though, I will not give any advice. It is her life and she decides how she is going to live it.

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I wrote the little stone story on impulse. Well, there is more to follow, provided I have the time and interest to continue. Hmm.. inspired to write due to certain people. I know it's kinda crappy and boring, but if you have the time and want to humour me, please read it. =)

Inspired by Miss K too. Indirectly. Thanks. Really thanks. The 左贺的超级阿嘛 is really very nice. I do not really want to admit it, but the story touched me a lot. And the things inside have a big influence on me. Especially during this trying period.

Anyway, 陈曼惠~take good care of moi book k? have fun reading it. any words u do not know, dun be shy to ask haha! Btw, I got spell wrongly or not? I bet you have trouble recognising your chinese name when you read this.

LOL

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小石头的故事

小石头不知道自己是从何时开始有了自己的意识。是星期一吗？还是星期二？

也许是星期三？

没有人懂，它自己也不知道。当它惊觉自己存在这世上时，它已经乖乖的坐在一个不知名的公园里。牵牛花，含羞草，和毛毛虫都是小石头的好邻居。

而 ~~~~

小石头就是小石头。。没有人会注意到它的存在。不管是悠闲地在公园里漫步还是带狗散步的人们，都忽略了这一颗呆在小路旁的石头。这是理所当然的嘛。根本没有人会去留意这完全毫不起眼又颜色灰暗的石头。可是，小石头也不知从哪里来的歪道理。它认为只要自己意识到了自己的存在，不理别人的看法的话，就觉得自己活得好开心。

哼。石头果然是单纯的。都没有我们人的智慧。。哪来的开心吗？

唉

。。。

其实，小石头活得挺精彩的。公园里集聚了各种各样的人，所以它时常观察人们来消磨大把的时间。其中一件事情令它充满了无限的好奇。

每个傍晚，熟悉的铃声会响起，而那代表着卖冰淇淋的老公公已来到公园。因为附近有所小学，所以老公公的生意很不错。哈。可是令小石头在意的是另一码事。小朋友们手上的冰淇淋才是它最终的目标。看着他们那兴奋和高兴的表情，小石头对这叫冰淇淋的事物感到万分的好奇。

这一天，小石头终于逮到机会了。一个7，8 岁的女童，一手牵着妈妈，另一只手拿着小石头的“猎物”，慢慢的接近了小石头。也不知怎么的，女童突然失去平衡，往前摔了一跤。“猎物”就腾空飞了起来，眼看越来越接近小石头。它祈祷着，：“往这里飞来吧！！”

它如愿了。

然而，它从自己妄想的天堂，直接走进了地狱。

“好冰冷哦！”

真是哑巴吃黄连，有苦说不出。它只能在心里连连叫苦。而霎时间，女童也哇哇的哭了出来。

“别哭别哭，有伤到哪里吗？” 还好，女童并没受伤，只是受到轻微的惊吓。女童接着嚷嚷还要冰淇淋。

“好，好。妈妈这就买多一个给你。”

。。。

这时，冰淇淋也尽融化了。小石头只觉得自己整身粘粘的，好不自在。但是，它从头到尾都没太失落。它还自满地告诉自己。

“我好坚强哦。比起脆弱的人，我强多了。我都不会哭。”

现在，小石头只希望来一场舒服的雨，让它冲个好凉。就在这当儿，雷声从不远处响起。

老天爷还是眷顾小石头的。 =)

有些人失去了，始终还是可以再次拥有。

可是对一些人，他们根本都没办法拥有。

那要怪谁呢？

别发牢骚了。毕竟是自己的人生嘛~~

Labels: Chinese Writes

It is a fact that I am not a product of love..

I cant shrug off the irony that my biological father is still out there cramping under the void decks, yet I do not regard him as a father at all. and yet.. mama will not be able to talk to me again, but I know I will always be a mama's boy.

*shrugs it off*

Not going to get too emo here. I have to look forward. Or rather I need to sleep soon. Haa.

...

Seriously..

Because I know I will always be a quotient of love.

I am loved by so many, naturally I will not be loved by some. Haa~~`

=)



稻草人笑盈盈地迎接大自然，

他想拥抱小鸟，天空，大地，蝴蝶．

他认为，

大家都是好朋友．

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Searching for things has made me weary and grudingly, teary..

东西不会跟你玩捉迷藏的，只要用心去找一样东西，

它始终都在。

~~~

Some updates about me.

1. Last saturday, I received a comment from a kiddie friend that I lost most of my tan.

*Shrills*

2. Going vegetarian for a period of time till june. I am hungry most of the time now.

*Stomach growls*

3. Started work today and my boss commented that I fatter than before. OH NOOOO!! He last saw me about 2 years ago. I am FAT!

4. Panda eyes. Incurring too much sleeping debt. Well. great. I am going bankrupt soon.

5. Things do not seem the same anymore. Sweet things do turn sour too. Erm.. but I am finally growing up.

6. I realise the best way to show concern for someone is not to say it out loud but rather keep things quiet. Thanks people.

*Bows*

7. It is tough, but at least I am paving a road for myself. I decide what I want with my life, and I am going to live without too many regrets. I have been a bad boy.

8. Dreamt a strange dream last night and I never really slept much. Dreamt about lots of stuff and people. I dreamt about people I care about, I dreamt about things that are wonderfully crafted from my weird imagination, and my heart ached.

9. Received a big surprise. Thanks Miss postgal!

10. Want to meet a lot of my friends. AND no. I am not feeling insecure.



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