Memories of the Wind.
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Try and shoot me!!!
I feel so good today. Yeah. I am starting to feel like the 江直树 in the show "恶作剧之吻". Haha. Nah just kidding or i may just be shot down by whoever is reading this post. I just suddenly feel smart. And the male lead 江直树 is darn smart.
Actually, that is exaggerating again. But today's a fine record for me. First time in my nus history that I ever finish an exam with 20 more minutes to go. I do not dare to say that I did well for the paper because the blatant fact is I DID not. However, as I start to doze off, there are still so many people writing. I am good.
Shoot me. I got an attitude problem.
Haha.
Now to start my engine revving again in preparation for my cup of tea, Thermodynamics. An A is in my pockets.
Darn it. Shoot me!!!!
*bangs* A shot is heard.
blood everywhere....
Morale of the story
The above teaches us to be diligent and humble at all times. Especially during the exam period, one should be blogging less often. LET the results do all the talking instead. Btw, when I say an A is in my pockets, my pockets most probably have holes. LOL.
*bangs*
A shot is heard from afar yet again.
Actually, that is exaggerating again. But today's a fine record for me. First time in my nus history that I ever finish an exam with 20 more minutes to go. I do not dare to say that I did well for the paper because the blatant fact is I DID not. However, as I start to doze off, there are still so many people writing. I am good.
Shoot me. I got an attitude problem.
Haha.
Now to start my engine revving again in preparation for my cup of tea, Thermodynamics. An A is in my pockets.
Darn it. Shoot me!!!!
*bangs* A shot is heard.
blood everywhere....
Morale of the story
The above teaches us to be diligent and humble at all times. Especially during the exam period, one should be blogging less often. LET the results do all the talking instead. Btw, when I say an A is in my pockets, my pockets most probably have holes. LOL.
*bangs*
A shot is heard from afar yet again.
Episode 22/?? - My life.
One more has left my house.
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Actually it was not a life and death separation for that matter, but I guess I would not see her most probably in my life anymore.
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Mixed feelings as my uncle's maid went back to Philippines. Though it was not really a happy experience living with her; simply because my mother alleged that she was a thief and other fundamental reasons, I could not deny that the house is going to be more empty without her around.
So who's going to do my dishes?
Nah, kidding. I do them myself on certain occasions, even if she's around.
Hmmm ...
Reasons why she's staying at my house as though it was a vacation are a tad complicated. An unfaithful husband, an unsound wife who rails, a 3rd party from China who's about my age and a couple of rebellious children are the major highlights. However, I would acknowledge the fact that the 2nd factor substantiates the maid's notable appearance into my life a few months ago.
Haix.
It is small wonder that I have a wild if not wonderful imagination due to my less than fortunate circumstances in life. I could have penned down a few of my life experiences and they would be your familiar scenes in drama serials.
If that's the case though, I wish to be the down to earth male lead who clears all obstacles, turns good, finds his love and Happy ending!!!
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Wei! NG! How many takes you want???
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In life, there is no NG though.......
Make it count.
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Actually it was not a life and death separation for that matter, but I guess I would not see her most probably in my life anymore.
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Mixed feelings as my uncle's maid went back to Philippines. Though it was not really a happy experience living with her; simply because my mother alleged that she was a thief and other fundamental reasons, I could not deny that the house is going to be more empty without her around.
So who's going to do my dishes?
Nah, kidding. I do them myself on certain occasions, even if she's around.
Hmmm ...
Reasons why she's staying at my house as though it was a vacation are a tad complicated. An unfaithful husband, an unsound wife who rails, a 3rd party from China who's about my age and a couple of rebellious children are the major highlights. However, I would acknowledge the fact that the 2nd factor substantiates the maid's notable appearance into my life a few months ago.
Haix.
It is small wonder that I have a wild if not wonderful imagination due to my less than fortunate circumstances in life. I could have penned down a few of my life experiences and they would be your familiar scenes in drama serials.
If that's the case though, I wish to be the down to earth male lead who clears all obstacles, turns good, finds his love and Happy ending!!!
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Wei! NG! How many takes you want???
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In life, there is no NG though.......
Make it count.
Labels: random
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Blog blog blog. SO many things to blog
如果与你的相遇是一场游戏的话，
我已深深地恋上这突如其来的恶作剧。
如果我起跑得太快的话，
我会毫不犹豫的回到原点，
小心翼翼的紧拉着你的小手不放。
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-_-
Eeee so 肉麻! Surely not I write one ba?
Tick tick tick.
*Sheepishly* Okay. I admit it is me.
Speaking about games, I feel that the exam is one big game. And I only know that I am one of the losers. The winners are too far in front, except that they do not fly the Singapore flag. Diaoz.
If it were the tortoise and hare game, I am the tortoise. And the hares are more cleverer than their ancestor.
So? No miracles.
我已深深地恋上这突如其来的恶作剧。
如果我起跑得太快的话，
我会毫不犹豫的回到原点，
小心翼翼的紧拉着你的小手不放。
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-_-
Eeee so 肉麻! Surely not I write one ba?
Tick tick tick.
*Sheepishly* Okay. I admit it is me.
Speaking about games, I feel that the exam is one big game. And I only know that I am one of the losers. The winners are too far in front, except that they do not fly the Singapore flag. Diaoz.
If it were the tortoise and hare game, I am the tortoise. And the hares are more cleverer than their ancestor.
So? No miracles.
Labels: Chinese Writes
Crap.
As stated, Sensors drew first blood in my every semester sacrifice. I got the feeling of being forcibly sent into a slaughterhouse.
However, It was a totally different feeling when I went to school. I was so so excited at the prospect of going back there. Of course I do not miss the lectures, nor the food whatsoever.
I was just thrilled at the thought of seeing all my friends. Friends who all play a very important aspect in my life. That was the only motivation, I guess, but that was enough to keep me crazy while I don my battle amour for the oncoming battle.
Sk gave me a call while I was on the way to school and I was pleasantly happy to hear his voice after a few days of absence. Reminds me of one of our recent duets "千里之外". He is the talented Jay and I am the exotic Fei Yu Qing. ~~~Lalala. countdown to next KTV!
And happy to see everyone. Kenny, Mingzhi, Mingyuan, Ah jun, Jow jow. Aiyo the lists go on.
Never ending crap.
Tired.. Just wanted to crap. Bear with me.
However, It was a totally different feeling when I went to school. I was so so excited at the prospect of going back there. Of course I do not miss the lectures, nor the food whatsoever.
I was just thrilled at the thought of seeing all my friends. Friends who all play a very important aspect in my life. That was the only motivation, I guess, but that was enough to keep me crazy while I don my battle amour for the oncoming battle.
Sk gave me a call while I was on the way to school and I was pleasantly happy to hear his voice after a few days of absence. Reminds me of one of our recent duets "千里之外". He is the talented Jay and I am the exotic Fei Yu Qing. ~~~Lalala. countdown to next KTV!
And happy to see everyone. Kenny, Mingzhi, Mingyuan, Ah jun, Jow jow. Aiyo the lists go on.
Never ending crap.
Tired.. Just wanted to crap. Bear with me.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Exams and bastards. Connection?
Just back from Sensors paper. I guess all the nutrients that I attempted to absorb these few days fail quite miserably as I manage only junk in the paper.
This enables me to apply what I have learnt. What comes in must go out as pointed out by the Principle of conservation of energy and mass. However, according to the 2nd law of thermodynamics, processes occur in decreasing quantities of energy.
Hee. Never mind if you do not understand that. I do not choose to understand that too. IN simpler terms, whatever you understand does not translate to what churns out in the paper in the end. Or even simpler terms. RUBBISH.
Tsk. My brain is full.
I guess the stress factor is reaching infinity. Someone knock a hole in me please (according to MOM, this reduces the stress factor) Eh I do not really mean my mom, but Mechanics of Materials, next up on my list. Wahaha.
...
The world is just full of bastards.
Guys, please.
How can you bed a girl who loves you with all her heart and then you can casually says: "I don't love her"?
Talk about casual sex.
I need to let fly a few loose punches.
And I need a tempting target.
This enables me to apply what I have learnt. What comes in must go out as pointed out by the Principle of conservation of energy and mass. However, according to the 2nd law of thermodynamics, processes occur in decreasing quantities of energy.
Hee. Never mind if you do not understand that. I do not choose to understand that too. IN simpler terms, whatever you understand does not translate to what churns out in the paper in the end. Or even simpler terms. RUBBISH.
Tsk. My brain is full.
I guess the stress factor is reaching infinity. Someone knock a hole in me please (according to MOM, this reduces the stress factor) Eh I do not really mean my mom, but Mechanics of Materials, next up on my list. Wahaha.
...
The world is just full of bastards.
Guys, please.
How can you bed a girl who loves you with all her heart and then you can casually says: "I don't love her"?
Talk about casual sex.
I need to let fly a few loose punches.
And I need a tempting target.
Monday, November 27, 2006
Gay, but thought provoking.
Just watched a depressing HK triad movie called 人海孤鸿, co-starring 莫少聪 and 刘德华.
Actually it was not that impressing, but some scenes left quite a deep impression on me.
1st scene:
It is 聪聪's wedding and he did not have enough money to pay for the dinner. Treated only 4 tables and he happened to be short of money for 2. Damn depressing.
Well what are brothers for? Andy conveniently robbed a guy to pay for the remaining expenses.
And they ended up in jail for that.
2nd scene:
While in jail, they were under 2 different and opposing gangs.
As luck would have it, they got subsequently chosen to fight each other to settle the gangs' dispute.
They got bruised and swollen, each beating the daylights out of each other.
As they sit down in their pathetic state after the fight, Andy offered his half smoked cigarette to 聪聪. And he accepted it as usual.
Sets me thinking. The things that we do not wish to do in life, yet forced upon us so cruelly sometimes.
Imagine beating your brother up.
3rd scene:
A particularly touching scene.
Andy was on his own deathbed.
Both of them were drowned by their own tears. Andy was putting his hand on 聪聪's cheeks and telling him how much he 'loves' him while the latter was holding on to Andy's hand tightly.
Gay, but touching.
As Andy finally breathed his last, Andy gave 聪聪 a death kiss and the latter hugged Andy.
Damn! True guys like me succumbing to gays?
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Brotherly love is so hard to comprehend. I guess we prefer to think lesser and act what just comes to our mind.
Actually it was not that impressing, but some scenes left quite a deep impression on me.
1st scene:
It is 聪聪's wedding and he did not have enough money to pay for the dinner. Treated only 4 tables and he happened to be short of money for 2. Damn depressing.
Well what are brothers for? Andy conveniently robbed a guy to pay for the remaining expenses.
And they ended up in jail for that.
2nd scene:
While in jail, they were under 2 different and opposing gangs.
As luck would have it, they got subsequently chosen to fight each other to settle the gangs' dispute.
They got bruised and swollen, each beating the daylights out of each other.
As they sit down in their pathetic state after the fight, Andy offered his half smoked cigarette to 聪聪. And he accepted it as usual.
Sets me thinking. The things that we do not wish to do in life, yet forced upon us so cruelly sometimes.
Imagine beating your brother up.
3rd scene:
A particularly touching scene.
Andy was on his own deathbed.
Both of them were drowned by their own tears. Andy was putting his hand on 聪聪's cheeks and telling him how much he 'loves' him while the latter was holding on to Andy's hand tightly.
Gay, but touching.
As Andy finally breathed his last, Andy gave 聪聪 a death kiss and the latter hugged Andy.
Damn! True guys like me succumbing to gays?
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Brotherly love is so hard to comprehend. I guess we prefer to think lesser and act what just comes to our mind.
Labels: musings
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Murder my own brain!
I feel that I have to stand out and address the concerns by Kkk. He sparked a controversy on my blog by starting a poll asking people who think I will flunk my exams. Surprisingly, there are rather interesting and varied answers from a group of close friends.
I am now here to put the debate to ease. This semester is really the worst and slowest possible start for me. However I am nonchalant to the nagging cries from my own angel Beni, by listening to the luring music from devil Xiao Ben (my alter ego) instead. Hurr Hurr.
Maybe I am growing too confident for my own little good. The head swells crazily when the brain thinks it is a clever little fellow. And now it is giving me attitude by absorbing things virtually at a snail's pace. Drat.
ALL right, since the stupid brain is so complacent, I shall punish it by making it work hard today. I mean it. It's going to GET it from me.
For now, the brain is still enjoying a whole load of "junk food". At this rate, it is going to rot.
I am going to get some nutrients from Sensors and Actuators today. Wish me good luck.
posted by xiao ben..
I am now here to put the debate to ease. This semester is really the worst and slowest possible start for me. However I am nonchalant to the nagging cries from my own angel Beni, by listening to the luring music from devil Xiao Ben (my alter ego) instead. Hurr Hurr.
Maybe I am growing too confident for my own little good. The head swells crazily when the brain thinks it is a clever little fellow. And now it is giving me attitude by absorbing things virtually at a snail's pace. Drat.
ALL right, since the stupid brain is so complacent, I shall punish it by making it work hard today. I mean it. It's going to GET it from me.
For now, the brain is still enjoying a whole load of "junk food". At this rate, it is going to rot.
I am going to get some nutrients from Sensors and Actuators today. Wish me good luck.
posted by xiao ben..
Labels: lame
Fetish.
I am in love with this Jay Chou's song 菊花台. Wonder if you peeps can hear the song with the blog or not?
This is a rare song that Jay actually sings with rather proper dictation. A change in style? OR to suit the movie? Anyway, this song is so 中国风. Wished that I would be able to write such lyrics too. It's beyond my current standard now. But who knows in the future?
My current3 minute fetish is to be a song writer.
Need to churn out all the "black ink" from my stomach to produce some decent lyrics now.
I suddenly want to write a poem for someone.
This is a rare song that Jay actually sings with rather proper dictation. A change in style? OR to suit the movie? Anyway, this song is so 中国风. Wished that I would be able to write such lyrics too. It's beyond my current standard now. But who knows in the future?
My current3 minute fetish is to be a song writer.
Need to churn out all the "black ink" from my stomach to produce some decent lyrics now.
I suddenly want to write a poem for someone.
The Sun rises.
You are The Sun
Happiness, Content, Joy.
The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.
Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.
The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.
Labels: quizzes
Saturday, November 25, 2006
Fish is the best.
Whee! Went to Fish's mini concert just now at expo The Max Pavilion.
As usual, she sang very well and throughout the whole session, I was overwhelmed by the touching effect the songs have on me. Well, she really brings out the message that the song is conveying. Listening to the lyrics flow brings me joy, yet sometimes sorrow to me.
A strange feeling coursed through me during the concert. Something even more powerful than what I feel during her previous concert "爱的大游行" and whenever I am listening to her songs. Her love songs take on a totally different meaning to me now. Guess this is really different from the previous times. I want to commit myself. I am not afraid.
Anyway, peeps, you gotta listen to her live. I think she brings out the true meaning of the song even more so on stage.
In addition, she's so super cute! Thought I was in heaven when I shake her hand. OMG!
I am definitely going for her concert next year. Please jump onto the bandwagon and join me in my craze!
Got her autograph.
I am going to have sweet sweet dreams today.
As usual, she sang very well and throughout the whole session, I was overwhelmed by the touching effect the songs have on me. Well, she really brings out the message that the song is conveying. Listening to the lyrics flow brings me joy, yet sometimes sorrow to me.
A strange feeling coursed through me during the concert. Something even more powerful than what I feel during her previous concert "爱的大游行" and whenever I am listening to her songs. Her love songs take on a totally different meaning to me now. Guess this is really different from the previous times. I want to commit myself. I am not afraid.
Anyway, peeps, you gotta listen to her live. I think she brings out the true meaning of the song even more so on stage.
In addition, she's so super cute! Thought I was in heaven when I shake her hand. OMG!
I am definitely going for her concert next year. Please jump onto the bandwagon and join me in my craze!
Got her autograph.
I am going to have sweet sweet dreams today.
Labels: fish leong, note
Friday, November 24, 2006
The adventures of Bubble ep2
Though Bubble is a bubbly, cheerful and sweet superhero, she leads an ordinary life like all the other kids of the same age, except they do not get to kick butt like her.
Therefore, as a kindergarten kid, she also needs to go to school, and like everyone else, takes the irritating exams.
Bubble hates exams. When they are here, she cannot get to play with her favorite soft toy, Walnut, read her favorite books and draw her favorite drawings.
She whee-ed Miss K:"Pweety please? Can I play?"
Miss K chided her:"Don't play play ah! Exams are not here to stay, Exams exams will go away! Just like the Rain. Oh Ya hor! Rain is really coming. Gaga!! "
Miss K gaga-ed, blushes and keep smiling to herself. She realised her momentarily loss of composure and quickly asserts herself by saying:"Wei. NOW, studies more important. Go and study, or I will smack your 七里香!"
Bubble went away feeling very vexed, thinking to herself."Evil Miss K. No wonder no one votes for her. Humph. She has not even treat me to my ice-cream. Eh by the way, what is 七里香? I shall find out."
Bubble turns back and see Miss K still laughing away. She is now on the phone with the Mayor's daughter, VV, another crazy woman like Miss K.
Miss K was saying to VV:"If I 七里香, you are 米田共!"
Bubble mutters, scratching her lil head:"Siao!!!"
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Meanwhile, Myojo jojo is planning another of his EVIL plans.
He smirks:"Bubble thwarted my plans that time. She's an eyesore that must be get rid of. Hohoho! I shall steal her famous and favourite soft toy, Walnut."
Myojo jojo laughs in glee yet again:"Hohoho. I cant wait to kiss Walnut."
原来 Myojo jojo is a sick bastard. Diao.
to be continued
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Bubble's Factfile
Name: Bubble
Age:5
height:unknown
weight:unknown
fav food: ice-cream
huggies:Walnut
Loves: Anything that is sweet and nice.
Made of: Anything that is sweet and nice.
Therefore, as a kindergarten kid, she also needs to go to school, and like everyone else, takes the irritating exams.
Bubble hates exams. When they are here, she cannot get to play with her favorite soft toy, Walnut, read her favorite books and draw her favorite drawings.
She whee-ed Miss K:"Pweety please? Can I play?"
Miss K chided her:"Don't play play ah! Exams are not here to stay, Exams exams will go away! Just like the Rain. Oh Ya hor! Rain is really coming. Gaga!! "
Miss K gaga-ed, blushes and keep smiling to herself. She realised her momentarily loss of composure and quickly asserts herself by saying:"Wei. NOW, studies more important. Go and study, or I will smack your 七里香!"
Bubble went away feeling very vexed, thinking to herself."Evil Miss K. No wonder no one votes for her. Humph. She has not even treat me to my ice-cream. Eh by the way, what is 七里香? I shall find out."
Bubble turns back and see Miss K still laughing away. She is now on the phone with the Mayor's daughter, VV, another crazy woman like Miss K.
Miss K was saying to VV:"If I 七里香, you are 米田共!"
Bubble mutters, scratching her lil head:"Siao!!!"
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Meanwhile, Myojo jojo is planning another of his EVIL plans.
He smirks:"Bubble thwarted my plans that time. She's an eyesore that must be get rid of. Hohoho! I shall steal her famous and favourite soft toy, Walnut."
Myojo jojo laughs in glee yet again:"Hohoho. I cant wait to kiss Walnut."
原来 Myojo jojo is a sick bastard. Diao.
to be continued
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Bubble's Factfile
Name: Bubble
Age:5
height:unknown
weight:unknown
fav food: ice-cream
huggies:Walnut
Loves: Anything that is sweet and nice.
Made of: Anything that is sweet and nice.
Labels: The adventures of Bubble
Vote!
Hee. People. Believed you have already read the story "Adventures of Bubble". I created a poll on the sidebar. Haa. Pls vote even if you find me and the story lame.
Labels: note
My dream this time.
睡了一觉过后，觉得心情好了很多。其实我也没什么啦。只是丑人多做怪而已。
那些不能改变的事实，想太多也没用。
我满脑子已经装满了太多的思绪和情感，如果太多的话一定会爆。遭了，我脑袋里的几根线条好像又短路了哦。
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像我昨晚就梦到Engine Canteen 有新店开张，所以就决定去试试看。那是 一摊卖上海小吃的，所以多数光顾的都不是“本地”的华人。意思浅浅。
哼。这梦是不是跟我过不去？竟然有个不知好歹的人敢跟我插队！她还不知道俺老子的脾气吗?一不小心就要她呆上好几天的医院呢！所以我在梦里把这不幸遇到我的人骂得狗血淋头。
“想要插我的队？门都没有！老师没教你吗？绝对不能得罪那些你惹不起的人！老大不能惹，孕妇不能惹，老人不能惹，还有像我这样的大帅哥你千万不能惹！”
Ok. 言重了。以上的画面其实都是我这时胡思乱想得来的。我对她非常的温和。只是叫她滚而已。
哈哈！其实骂人还真爽，心情不好时竟然还能通过梦舒解一下情绪。
而我点了菜后，突然发现排在我身后的竟然都是我一群马来朋友。别吓我啊！怎么了？我这梦会引起公愤的啊！然后转回头来，发现我的上海小吃都变成了一盘决对正宗的马来饭，还特别淋上我最爱的belacan. Hee hee. 这梦真好玩！
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我是一个不太喜欢伤心难过的人。悲伤只是不请自来的客人，如果我下了逐客令，它还死赖着不走的话，我一定会出动我的Hockey stick,给它一点颜色瞧瞧。
可是在有阳光的地方，都一定会有黑暗。我只是想不想输给黑暗。
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WHEEE!!!!!!!
那些不能改变的事实，想太多也没用。
我满脑子已经装满了太多的思绪和情感，如果太多的话一定会爆。遭了，我脑袋里的几根线条好像又短路了哦。
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像我昨晚就梦到Engine Canteen 有新店开张，所以就决定去试试看。那是 一摊卖上海小吃的，所以多数光顾的都不是“本地”的华人。意思浅浅。
哼。这梦是不是跟我过不去？竟然有个不知好歹的人敢跟我插队！她还不知道俺老子的脾气吗?一不小心就要她呆上好几天的医院呢！所以我在梦里把这不幸遇到我的人骂得狗血淋头。
“想要插我的队？门都没有！老师没教你吗？绝对不能得罪那些你惹不起的人！老大不能惹，孕妇不能惹，老人不能惹，还有像我这样的大帅哥你千万不能惹！”
Ok. 言重了。以上的画面其实都是我这时胡思乱想得来的。我对她非常的温和。只是叫她滚而已。
哈哈！其实骂人还真爽，心情不好时竟然还能通过梦舒解一下情绪。
而我点了菜后，突然发现排在我身后的竟然都是我一群马来朋友。别吓我啊！怎么了？我这梦会引起公愤的啊！然后转回头来，发现我的上海小吃都变成了一盘决对正宗的马来饭，还特别淋上我最爱的belacan. Hee hee. 这梦真好玩！
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我是一个不太喜欢伤心难过的人。悲伤只是不请自来的客人，如果我下了逐客令，它还死赖着不走的话，我一定会出动我的Hockey stick,给它一点颜色瞧瞧。
可是在有阳光的地方，都一定会有黑暗。我只是想不想输给黑暗。
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WHEEE!!!!!!!
Labels: Chinese Writes, dreams, lame
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Broken.
Sad to hear from tinG that Da Xiong is unwell. Really do hope that Da Xiong pulls through. Everyone, please help to pray and wish that Da Xiong will be well.
And I need time to convince myself something of that sort too.
Dreaded hearing "你以后要自己烫衣服，自己烧菜，知道吗?"
My heart breaks.
我站在陌生人潮之中，
仰着头，
呆呆的望着天空。
希望老天爷快快大发慈悲，
迅速招来一场倾盆大雨。
雨能含蓄地带走我眼里的忧伤，
让我麻木在忧忧的忧。
如果多愁善感的灵魂
不再这么眷恋，
我的生命
也许就不会带着多余的叹息。
然而，
我的笑容也会随着消失。
。。。
有东西碎了。
。。。
天空依旧阳光普照。
。。。
你是在戏弄我妈？
。。。
And I need time to convince myself something of that sort too.
Dreaded hearing "你以后要自己烫衣服，自己烧菜，知道吗?"
My heart breaks.
我站在陌生人潮之中，
仰着头，
呆呆的望着天空。
希望老天爷快快大发慈悲，
迅速招来一场倾盆大雨。
雨能含蓄地带走我眼里的忧伤，
让我麻木在忧忧的忧。
如果多愁善感的灵魂
不再这么眷恋，
我的生命
也许就不会带着多余的叹息。
然而，
我的笑容也会随着消失。
。。。
有东西碎了。
。。。
天空依旧阳光普照。
。。。
你是在戏弄我妈？
。。。
Labels: Chinese Writes, The Emo Club.
Her dream, not mine.
A friend told me a very interesting dream of hers today.
In her dream, I was interested in her. Hence, she dreamt that I tried ways and means to win her heart by writing her love poems, sending her smses to drop her hints.
However, back in reality, I told her she was dreaming when she related it to me. Yes, she's definitely dreaming.
*Laughs!*
When I asked her whether she got accept me in the dream, she said she did not remember doing so.
*Darn! After what my character in her dream do?*
She added jokingly that it is now her turn to be freaked out by me. Because, in normal days, her antics do affect me considerably.
*tears from the corner of my eye*
And I replied:"You traumatised me"
In her dream, I was interested in her. Hence, she dreamt that I tried ways and means to win her heart by writing her love poems, sending her smses to drop her hints.
However, back in reality, I told her she was dreaming when she related it to me. Yes, she's definitely dreaming.
*Laughs!*
When I asked her whether she got accept me in the dream, she said she did not remember doing so.
*Darn! After what my character in her dream do?*
She added jokingly that it is now her turn to be freaked out by me. Because, in normal days, her antics do affect me considerably.
*tears from the corner of my eye*
And I replied:"You traumatised me"
Been thinking.
"Death ends a life, not a relationship. "
This line constantly replays in my mind recently. In life, one will definitely come to a stage where we face death. Not just ourselves, but at the earlier stage, your elders and probably the premature death of friends, and the latter stage, people around you. No one wants that to happen, but just as certain as we are living at this particular moment, we are as certain that death would be waiting for us sometime later.
How I muse over the fragility and uncertainty of life. Perhaps that's why I do not kill. I avoid standing on ants, fuss over people who do, and say a silent prayer to those who died accidentally under my thunder feet. That sounds exaggerating but I respect life, no matter how small it can be.
Animals display an even more unyielding attitude to live, a stark contrast to humans who can easily jump off their buildings in a fit of anger. Though, I wonder. Do animals ever commit suicide?
When I heard the exact words "Be mentally prepared", as if it was straight off from your standard melodrama, I was already bearing the worst right from the start. Hence, that did not render me mute in my seat though it was inevitable that I ceded to a bit of my greatest innate fears. "Quit telling myself to be worried" was the message that was trying to get through to my brain and body.
...
People, please cherish what you have and the people around you. Because, nothing in this world is really forever, material or immaterial.
However, this is easily said than done.
Whenever one tries to mouth the words " I love you" , the sound either comes out distorted and muffled, or there would be some microscopic vibrations of the air due to the barely audible sound waves produced.
I really want to be more direct in my showing of love. Like, I want to tell the person I love that I love her, that I want to share her world, I want to take her hand for as long as I can.
And really do so.
Phew. Too many emotions would spoil this post. Love you peeps.
Night. Sweet ice-cream dreamies for everyone. Take your pick. Except sticky chewy choc ice dreamies. Thats mine.
And a NO NO for mint choc chunks. I reserved that too.
Whee! I am sure growing fat with all these sugar content. Hahaha
This line constantly replays in my mind recently. In life, one will definitely come to a stage where we face death. Not just ourselves, but at the earlier stage, your elders and probably the premature death of friends, and the latter stage, people around you. No one wants that to happen, but just as certain as we are living at this particular moment, we are as certain that death would be waiting for us sometime later.
How I muse over the fragility and uncertainty of life. Perhaps that's why I do not kill. I avoid standing on ants, fuss over people who do, and say a silent prayer to those who died accidentally under my thunder feet. That sounds exaggerating but I respect life, no matter how small it can be.
Animals display an even more unyielding attitude to live, a stark contrast to humans who can easily jump off their buildings in a fit of anger. Though, I wonder. Do animals ever commit suicide?
When I heard the exact words "Be mentally prepared", as if it was straight off from your standard melodrama, I was already bearing the worst right from the start. Hence, that did not render me mute in my seat though it was inevitable that I ceded to a bit of my greatest innate fears. "Quit telling myself to be worried" was the message that was trying to get through to my brain and body.
...
People, please cherish what you have and the people around you. Because, nothing in this world is really forever, material or immaterial.
However, this is easily said than done.
Whenever one tries to mouth the words " I love you" , the sound either comes out distorted and muffled, or there would be some microscopic vibrations of the air due to the barely audible sound waves produced.
I really want to be more direct in my showing of love. Like, I want to tell the person I love that I love her, that I want to share her world, I want to take her hand for as long as I can.
And really do so.
Phew. Too many emotions would spoil this post. Love you peeps.
Night. Sweet ice-cream dreamies for everyone. Take your pick. Except sticky chewy choc ice dreamies. Thats mine.
And a NO NO for mint choc chunks. I reserved that too.
Whee! I am sure growing fat with all these sugar content. Hahaha
Labels: musings, The Emo Club.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
The adventures of Bubble
One fine morning in TownsviLLLe, Bubble of PP gals was having a bubbly dream when she got a urgent call from Miss K.
Miss K was very anxious in the call. "My top secret assignment has been stolen by Myojo jojo. Please help me get it back by noon or the consequences would be disastrous."
"Okay! Count on meee!"
And Bubble threw her stuffed toys around in her frenzy, before flying out from the window to battle the myojo jojo.
"Wheee! Here I come!"
She found myojo jojo in his evil lab, and on his hands were definitely the top secret assignment that Miss K has spoke about.
"Givemee back Miss K's assignment or I will kickbutt you!"
"Oh No. You don't. With this top secret, I would be able to clone many many many myojo jojo and they would help me take over TownsviLLLe and most importantly the world. HOHOHO!"
"Ho simi ho? You think Christmas here already ar!!"
With that, Bubble engaged in a very serious fight with the evil myojo jojo.
Finally, she delivered a devastating blow to myojo jojo and myojojo fled in a hurry, leaving the top secret assignment untouched.
"Yeah! Just in time" Bubble whee-ed.
Hence, without ado, she flew back to Miss K, who was delighted to see her assignment back safe and sound!"
"Thanks Bubble! Treat you to ice-cream next time!"
AND Bubble saves the DAY!
THE END
_______________________________________________________________
What Powerpuff Girl are you?
You're Bubbles! You are the sweetest of sweets! The joy and the laughter, you act more like a kidergartener than your sisters. You're all sugar, you cute little thing!
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Miss K was very anxious in the call. "My top secret assignment has been stolen by Myojo jojo. Please help me get it back by noon or the consequences would be disastrous."
"Okay! Count on meee!"
And Bubble threw her stuffed toys around in her frenzy, before flying out from the window to battle the myojo jojo.
"Wheee! Here I come!"
She found myojo jojo in his evil lab, and on his hands were definitely the top secret assignment that Miss K has spoke about.
"Givemee back Miss K's assignment or I will kickbutt you!"
"Oh No. You don't. With this top secret, I would be able to clone many many many myojo jojo and they would help me take over TownsviLLLe and most importantly the world. HOHOHO!"
"Ho simi ho? You think Christmas here already ar!!"
With that, Bubble engaged in a very serious fight with the evil myojo jojo.
Finally, she delivered a devastating blow to myojo jojo and myojojo fled in a hurry, leaving the top secret assignment untouched.
"Yeah! Just in time" Bubble whee-ed.
Hence, without ado, she flew back to Miss K, who was delighted to see her assignment back safe and sound!"
"Thanks Bubble! Treat you to ice-cream next time!"
AND Bubble saves the DAY!
THE END
_______________________________________________________________
What Powerpuff Girl are you?
You're Bubbles! You are the sweetest of sweets! The joy and the laughter, you act more like a kidergartener than your sisters. You're all sugar, you cute little thing!
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Labels: The adventures of Bubble
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
距离
Ｉｎｓｐｉｒｅｄ ｂｙ ｍｙ ｐｒｅｖｉｏｕｓ ｐｏｓｔ．
手触键盘时，
＂我爱你＂
是不需要翻译的．
然而，
面对面时，
一切都变得太奢侈．
＂我爱你＂
变成了一种毒药．
原来我们的距离，
在近距离时，
拉得更遥远．
看得见的，
看不见了。
手触键盘时，
＂我爱你＂
是不需要翻译的．
然而，
面对面时，
一切都变得太奢侈．
＂我爱你＂
变成了一种毒药．
原来我们的距离，
在近距离时，
拉得更遥远．
看得见的，
看不见了。
Labels: Chinese Writes
Our real distance
I was 2nd time lucky yesterday night. I managed to call in yes933 during Jiahui's segment "Oh, yeah, 不想睡". The first time was during Peifen's dysfunctional radio show in the late night too. However, I was too nervous, and coupled with the fact that the call only lasted less than 2 minutes, I actually forgot to dedicate a song to my friends.
Never mind, I shall try again today. If you want to listen to my mesmerising voice, please tune in to yes933 and listen closely. Wahaha.
===
Pondering about a very serious topic now. I need to be very focused. The advancement in technology has definitely decreased the distance between people, because we are now able to communicate with one another conveniently through various devices like the net. This makes me realise:
the longest form of "verbal" interaction I had with my friends were actually when I was cooped up at home.
All right. My record is as stated below. Though I know that they are not going to be the global maximum, but for a person who is not that "out-spoken", it sure stands out.
I ever spoke on the phone for 4 hours with my friend. If you were wondering that might be the opposite sex, nope. It was a guy. Till now, I am still surprised at the inexhaustible stamina that I possessed that time to hold on to the earpiece. I could swear my ear is numb.
As for msn, I do not think I could ever break my record of being online for a crazy 7.5 hours. It was a marathon and a miracle that my fingers were not paralysed by the vicious typing action.
Finally, as for yesterday, I sent out 68 messages altogether. There may not be a lot relative to others, but if I throw in the fact that 60 were to the same person, that surely adds in a "wow" factor of 7. If I were to constantly send out 68 sms every day, I would amass 1980sms in a month. Pure madness.
Strange that I could spend so much time on non-living devices instead of really going out with my friends. The form of interaction is a bit unreal. I was like laughing at my phone and computer instead.
Haa. The pressing of a few buttons can easily mean "I love you" when it is in fact so difficult to spell out when you are really facing the person.
Shall not stress myself out even further. I need the brain to cramp up more relevant stuff.
Never mind, I shall try again today. If you want to listen to my mesmerising voice, please tune in to yes933 and listen closely. Wahaha.
===
Pondering about a very serious topic now. I need to be very focused. The advancement in technology has definitely decreased the distance between people, because we are now able to communicate with one another conveniently through various devices like the net. This makes me realise:
the longest form of "verbal" interaction I had with my friends were actually when I was cooped up at home.
All right. My record is as stated below. Though I know that they are not going to be the global maximum, but for a person who is not that "out-spoken", it sure stands out.
I ever spoke on the phone for 4 hours with my friend. If you were wondering that might be the opposite sex, nope. It was a guy. Till now, I am still surprised at the inexhaustible stamina that I possessed that time to hold on to the earpiece. I could swear my ear is numb.
As for msn, I do not think I could ever break my record of being online for a crazy 7.5 hours. It was a marathon and a miracle that my fingers were not paralysed by the vicious typing action.
Finally, as for yesterday, I sent out 68 messages altogether. There may not be a lot relative to others, but if I throw in the fact that 60 were to the same person, that surely adds in a "wow" factor of 7. If I were to constantly send out 68 sms every day, I would amass 1980sms in a month. Pure madness.
Strange that I could spend so much time on non-living devices instead of really going out with my friends. The form of interaction is a bit unreal. I was like laughing at my phone and computer instead.
Haa. The pressing of a few buttons can easily mean "I love you" when it is in fact so difficult to spell out when you are really facing the person.
Shall not stress myself out even further. I need the brain to cramp up more relevant stuff.
Labels: random
Monday, November 20, 2006
Me and moi 3 lil sis
Been thinking of one of ah chua's favourite ktv song called "我和我的四个妹妹".
Arggh. I really miss my ktv sessions. When would be the next time I am going to pick up the mike? The near future looks bleak. But thats beside the point. This post is about my 3 lovely mei mei instead. Short of one though. If not can play mahjong together. Haa!
My first mei is ironically the youngest among the 3. She would always be interested in trying new things. Loud and daring and crazy! She wants to try bungee jumping, she wants to go for extreme sports, she is going to live life to the fullest!
Most importantly, she shares the same undying passion as me. We are crazy football fanatics! She would go ga-ga upon seeing her christiano ronaldo. Actually, not just him. There are too many handsome footballers around.
My 2nd mei is the oldest of the 2 though she's still younger than me by a "mile". Haha. However, 她是我最放心不下的. Beyond her cheerful disposition and brave front, she is very emotional. She is blur most of the times and I can vouch that her directional sense is even worse than me. And do not ever try to scare her with haunted stuff. She would be freaked out.
Despite that, I think she can kill with her agressive style during play. i do not want to get onto her bad books. Wait she use her volleyball to spike me to death. Wahaha. Her level of craziness certainly extends beyond me.
My 3rd mei is a sensible gal and is able to think for herself. However, she can be as lunatic as me in her own ways, yet that is precisely what makes her so endearing too. She loves her mint choc chunks ice cream, she loves the idea of exercising minus the sweat, and she loves sending lil amusing personality tests.
Forgot to add that despite her petite frame, it would be the safest to be around with her simply because she's a brown belt. Her flying kicks are awesome, (that's what she says) except when some a-hem happens. Whee!
Hereby wishing them happiness. May the crazy and happy peeps unite!
Arggh. I really miss my ktv sessions. When would be the next time I am going to pick up the mike? The near future looks bleak. But thats beside the point. This post is about my 3 lovely mei mei instead. Short of one though. If not can play mahjong together. Haa!
My first mei is ironically the youngest among the 3. She would always be interested in trying new things. Loud and daring and crazy! She wants to try bungee jumping, she wants to go for extreme sports, she is going to live life to the fullest!
Most importantly, she shares the same undying passion as me. We are crazy football fanatics! She would go ga-ga upon seeing her christiano ronaldo. Actually, not just him. There are too many handsome footballers around.
My 2nd mei is the oldest of the 2 though she's still younger than me by a "mile". Haha. However, 她是我最放心不下的. Beyond her cheerful disposition and brave front, she is very emotional. She is blur most of the times and I can vouch that her directional sense is even worse than me. And do not ever try to scare her with haunted stuff. She would be freaked out.
Despite that, I think she can kill with her agressive style during play. i do not want to get onto her bad books. Wait she use her volleyball to spike me to death. Wahaha. Her level of craziness certainly extends beyond me.
My 3rd mei is a sensible gal and is able to think for herself. However, she can be as lunatic as me in her own ways, yet that is precisely what makes her so endearing too. She loves her mint choc chunks ice cream, she loves the idea of exercising minus the sweat, and she loves sending lil amusing personality tests.
Forgot to add that despite her petite frame, it would be the safest to be around with her simply because she's a brown belt. Her flying kicks are awesome, (that's what she says) except when some a-hem happens. Whee!
Hereby wishing them happiness. May the crazy and happy peeps unite!
Labels: random
Saturday, November 18, 2006
DEAD.
I feel terribly sick now. There is no sign of red in my face and my head is spinning at a dangerously high torque. I am sickeningly deprived of oxygen in this life threatening moment.
... ... ... ... ... ... ... _____________________
Pronounced dead.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
All right all right. I am exaggerating. But there is a huge amount of truth up there.
Actually, I had myself to blame. After a bruising battle with my notes in the evening, I decided to take a breather. Hence, I went downstairs to play soccer with the "saturated" mixture of kids and adults.
This was my first real exercise in 2 weeks. And my lack of inactivity is brutally exposed once I started to run. During the game, I was gasping for air as if the whole world was fighting with me for my fair dosage of oxygen. Today's real contribution is effectively a greater production of carbon dioxide.
And my battered body cries.
===
On a side track, I always notice this Japanese dad and his son while on the way to the field. They would play baseball together and it is evident that they are truly enjoying quality time together.
The kid beams while throwing the ball to his dad. It was an inaccurate throw but the dad managed to catch the ball and offered a reassuring smile as an intangible form of encouragement.
Love is in the air.
Actually it is the same while playing soccer with the kids and adults. The dads always favor their kids.
I wonder. So that's fatherly love?
Not that i care.
... ... ... ... ... ... ... _____________________
Pronounced dead.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
All right all right. I am exaggerating. But there is a huge amount of truth up there.
Actually, I had myself to blame. After a bruising battle with my notes in the evening, I decided to take a breather. Hence, I went downstairs to play soccer with the "saturated" mixture of kids and adults.
This was my first real exercise in 2 weeks. And my lack of inactivity is brutally exposed once I started to run. During the game, I was gasping for air as if the whole world was fighting with me for my fair dosage of oxygen. Today's real contribution is effectively a greater production of carbon dioxide.
And my battered body cries.
===
On a side track, I always notice this Japanese dad and his son while on the way to the field. They would play baseball together and it is evident that they are truly enjoying quality time together.
The kid beams while throwing the ball to his dad. It was an inaccurate throw but the dad managed to catch the ball and offered a reassuring smile as an intangible form of encouragement.
Love is in the air.
Actually it is the same while playing soccer with the kids and adults. The dads always favor their kids.
I wonder. So that's fatherly love?
Not that i care.
Oh!?
My eyes are all puffy. I did not really sleep well . In addition, I am feeling groggy and grouchy. Excuse me. I need to nurse the dark rings around my eyes too.
Do not mess around with me today. You will regret it. However, I do not think anyone has the chance to aggravate my rising moods today. I hereby announce that I am cooping myself up at home with my notes.
At the very least, I have them for company.
Spotted Walnut? Wahaha.
Actually, I am feeling quite positive now. Forgot to add that I won 2 tickets to Fish's concert last night.
Ok.
You can annoy me.
Wheeeeeeeeee. Haa. =)
Do not mess around with me today. You will regret it. However, I do not think anyone has the chance to aggravate my rising moods today. I hereby announce that I am cooping myself up at home with my notes.
At the very least, I have them for company.
Spotted Walnut? Wahaha.
Actually, I am feeling quite positive now. Forgot to add that I won 2 tickets to Fish's concert last night.
Ok.
You can annoy me.
Wheeeeeeeeee. Haa. =)
WHY
I had the entire image in mind already when she asked me whether she should call him because he asked. Ironically, I said yes though I was betraying myself. I was scolding myself that I got to be one of the stupidest dumb ass in the century when he obviously wanted a reconciliation.
It was with trepidation that I waited. Has her conversation ended? What would be the outcome? I was so afraid that that she might be hurt, again. My heart was close to tears. Why is it so?
When she finally announced that she had made a foolish decision, I supposed the verdict was out. A predictable outcome, but deep down in my heart, I was resisting the urge to come into terms with it.
Gosh. I don't think I should react so strongly. What has gone into me?
Perhaps?
快被自己烦死了。
我怎么又失常了呢?
是不是
睡眠不足？
营养不良？
生理失调？
精神紧绷？
都不是吧?
我也不知道。
I only know one thing. I stand by your foolish decision. Do not worry so much.
有沙跑进眼睛了。
是的。。
一定是有沙跑进眼睛了。
It was with trepidation that I waited. Has her conversation ended? What would be the outcome? I was so afraid that that she might be hurt, again. My heart was close to tears. Why is it so?
When she finally announced that she had made a foolish decision, I supposed the verdict was out. A predictable outcome, but deep down in my heart, I was resisting the urge to come into terms with it.
Gosh. I don't think I should react so strongly. What has gone into me?
Perhaps?
快被自己烦死了。
我怎么又失常了呢?
是不是
睡眠不足？
营养不良？
生理失调？
精神紧绷？
都不是吧?
我也不知道。
I only know one thing. I stand by your foolish decision. Do not worry so much.
有沙跑进眼睛了。
是的。。
一定是有沙跑进眼睛了。
Labels: note
Friday, November 17, 2006
你一定能
遗憾的事都来得多。
也许我们彼此都跟不上季节的变化，
只留下影子嘲笑我们的无知？？
收到了一个坏消息。这也许是意料之中的事，可是还是来得有点晴天霹雳。。
我也不懂得怎么去安慰人，因为我不善言词。当我语塞时，只能着急的说：“加油。”
而通过电话那头时不时传来的叹气声，令我更加手足无措。
想也知道电话那头的空气伤感多了一些些。。
也许是为了舒缓情绪吧。这是我第二次对别人唱“分手快乐”。
她总于笑了。
(^^)
哼。我们只是跟不上季节的变化，不代表我们走不出彷徨的街，到不了开心的地带。
把不开心都抛在后头吧。
做回一个开朗自信的自己。
你一定能。
也许我们彼此都跟不上季节的变化，
只留下影子嘲笑我们的无知？？
收到了一个坏消息。这也许是意料之中的事，可是还是来得有点晴天霹雳。。
我也不懂得怎么去安慰人，因为我不善言词。当我语塞时，只能着急的说：“加油。”
而通过电话那头时不时传来的叹气声，令我更加手足无措。
想也知道电话那头的空气伤感多了一些些。。
也许是为了舒缓情绪吧。这是我第二次对别人唱“分手快乐”。
她总于笑了。
(^^)
哼。我们只是跟不上季节的变化，不代表我们走不出彷徨的街，到不了开心的地带。
把不开心都抛在后头吧。
做回一个开朗自信的自己。
你一定能。
Labels: Chinese Writes
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Fish's concert on 25th Nov
I have been rather frequent in blogging nowadays which has probably raised the eyebrows of some. In actual fact, I do not have the luxury of time to be typing furiously in front of the evil computer.
The horrendous truth is that the exams are less than 2 weeks away and I am way behind in my work. "If only I have been more consistent and studying dutifully" - a moment of regret that occurs in a cyclic process every sem. I just hope that this chapter of life would pass quickly. Exams are not going to stay for long.
However, before this testing period comes to a disastrous end as envisaged, I dreadfully want to go for Fish Leong's mini concert on 25th Nov at the expense of my results. And luckless me could not secure the tickets.
Now, Kenny and my hopes rest firmly on Bryan's sister. My gosh, she's the vice president of Fish fan club if I did not remember wrongly. Pulling strings should help. I can only pray now.
The horrendous truth is that the exams are less than 2 weeks away and I am way behind in my work. "If only I have been more consistent and studying dutifully" - a moment of regret that occurs in a cyclic process every sem. I just hope that this chapter of life would pass quickly. Exams are not going to stay for long.
However, before this testing period comes to a disastrous end as envisaged, I dreadfully want to go for Fish Leong's mini concert on 25th Nov at the expense of my results. And luckless me could not secure the tickets.
Now, Kenny and my hopes rest firmly on Bryan's sister. My gosh, she's the vice president of Fish fan club if I did not remember wrongly. Pulling strings should help. I can only pray now.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
back, the rain, walnut.
My grandma is back! I have no intention of scaring anyone but I am telling the truth. Not just in my dreams, but she was spotted during the ghost month.
Would you be afraid if one of your deceased loved ones really come back and find you? I guess not for me because they would not mean me any harm. Death ends not a relationship.
~~
Today rained again. I do not know if it is mere concidence that it rained when I wore the pair of barcode sneakers but everytime I happened to wear it, it is destined to get wet. The soles are wearing off and I could feel the tingling sensation of the wet puddle against my brutally exposed toes. Oh dear, it is not mine. My brother is going to find out sooner or later.
Anyway, hope it would not rain tommorrow. I would be going to Queenstown library for some serious studying and it would be a chore to travel to and fro if it does. Though I would not complain if I am sheltering a pretty gal from the rain using my umbrella. Nah, I sheltered Sk over to the bus interchange today. Not my idea of a pretty lady, because he doesnt qualify as a lady in the first place. Bleahs. Please shoot me. "craps"
Certainly, studying at the library has its perks. It beats having the computer just a few metres away from my favourite studying postition. Why is it called a studying position? Because I glady lie down on the tiled floor of my own cosy room with walnut to accompany me. This makes appreciating the amazing fundamentals of engineering a bit tedious while fighting the ZZZ monster and keeping the computer on. This computer is a serious threat that must be eliminated if I wish to stop my rot.
This is walnut. Hee.
Would you be afraid if one of your deceased loved ones really come back and find you? I guess not for me because they would not mean me any harm. Death ends not a relationship.
~~
Today rained again. I do not know if it is mere concidence that it rained when I wore the pair of barcode sneakers but everytime I happened to wear it, it is destined to get wet. The soles are wearing off and I could feel the tingling sensation of the wet puddle against my brutally exposed toes. Oh dear, it is not mine. My brother is going to find out sooner or later.
Anyway, hope it would not rain tommorrow. I would be going to Queenstown library for some serious studying and it would be a chore to travel to and fro if it does. Though I would not complain if I am sheltering a pretty gal from the rain using my umbrella. Nah, I sheltered Sk over to the bus interchange today. Not my idea of a pretty lady, because he doesnt qualify as a lady in the first place. Bleahs. Please shoot me. "craps"
Certainly, studying at the library has its perks. It beats having the computer just a few metres away from my favourite studying postition. Why is it called a studying position? Because I glady lie down on the tiled floor of my own cosy room with walnut to accompany me. This makes appreciating the amazing fundamentals of engineering a bit tedious while fighting the ZZZ monster and keeping the computer on. This computer is a serious threat that must be eliminated if I wish to stop my rot.
This is walnut. Hee.
Labels: note, The Emo Club.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Birthdays
Today's my birthday. Yes. Again. My Chinese birthday. Not that it meant a lot to me. It's only a day where I get to eat "mee sua" and offered 2 hard boiled eggs, to which I would only eat one.
To me, neither of my birthdays meant much since I could not really figure out the exact significance that it holds though. However, I have the innate gift of being able to remember my friends' birthdays with perfect ease. I guess friends' birthdays mean much more to me than my own.
Somehow, that day becomes special. I do wish that they they enjoy their day and that they grow wiser with age too. Seeing their happy faces make me realise how much we should treasure life. Isn't birthdays a celebration of life itself? Which means I am not able to figure the exact significance of my life. HA.
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Random writings
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今天是我的生日。
大家频频祝我生日快乐。
今天是我的生日。
可是我偏偏少了快乐。
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当我欣喜地吹灭蜡烛时，
到底是谁把我的头推进蛋糕里？
今天果然是我的生日，
却是你的快乐。
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To me, neither of my birthdays meant much since I could not really figure out the exact significance that it holds though. However, I have the innate gift of being able to remember my friends' birthdays with perfect ease. I guess friends' birthdays mean much more to me than my own.
Somehow, that day becomes special. I do wish that they they enjoy their day and that they grow wiser with age too. Seeing their happy faces make me realise how much we should treasure life. Isn't birthdays a celebration of life itself? Which means I am not able to figure the exact significance of my life. HA.
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Random writings
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今天是我的生日。
大家频频祝我生日快乐。
今天是我的生日。
可是我偏偏少了快乐。
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当我欣喜地吹灭蜡烛时，
到底是谁把我的头推进蛋糕里？
今天果然是我的生日，
却是你的快乐。
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Labels: Chinese Writes, musings
Live for the smaller, saner things
Its really hard for DJs on air when they are having bad days. Besides having to conceal their pissed mood, they have to act as if it is a pretty and fine day. Because they know that they would affect their audience if they bring their personal feelings to work.
For example, Yes933 Jiahui is really a morale booster sometimes. She can always be so mad on radio. Despite her lame jokes on air, I never fail to laugh along. Her laughter is so affecting that my mouth would subconsciously crease to form a big wide smile.
Hmm.. I guess everyone has their own bad days. However, there is no point in keeping that frown on your face. Instead think of the little things that bring back your cheery smile. A sweet little nap, perhaps? Or your favourite chocolate bar?
I have been known to keep a constant smile on my face. It is aptly shown in an epigram that my JC GP teacher once wrote for my class. My part: "Yes, my horny oversexed hockey boy, quit that lecherous grin and try producing a decent distinction essay for me in the exam." Despite that quip, my smile still brings me to sleep from rise and shine till now.
Spotted: Laugh and the whole world laughs with you. Cry and the whole world laughs louder.
Quick fact: Dolphins are homosexuals and are such undying lovers that they would search far and wide for another partner if their companions die.
For example, Yes933 Jiahui is really a morale booster sometimes. She can always be so mad on radio. Despite her lame jokes on air, I never fail to laugh along. Her laughter is so affecting that my mouth would subconsciously crease to form a big wide smile.
Hmm.. I guess everyone has their own bad days. However, there is no point in keeping that frown on your face. Instead think of the little things that bring back your cheery smile. A sweet little nap, perhaps? Or your favourite chocolate bar?
I have been known to keep a constant smile on my face. It is aptly shown in an epigram that my JC GP teacher once wrote for my class. My part: "Yes, my horny oversexed hockey boy, quit that lecherous grin and try producing a decent distinction essay for me in the exam." Despite that quip, my smile still brings me to sleep from rise and shine till now.
Spotted: Laugh and the whole world laughs with you. Cry and the whole world laughs louder.
Quick fact: Dolphins are homosexuals and are such undying lovers that they would search far and wide for another partner if their companions die.
Twins
It did not take me long to figure out that my brother and me looked very alike when everyone around us has been pointing out that blatant fact to us. However, I could not quite share the notion that we shared a really uncanny resemblance to the point where we were seen as twins.
Today morning, I shared the lift with one of my not so close neighbours. She initiated a conversation during this brief period of time.
"Not working today?" was her first line.
"Er.. I am still studying." a fact that I am trying to associate myself with though it often get detached sometimes.
"Oh, I thought you were your brother. Both of really looked very alike."
Blah.
She must have seen my brother a few times during this time interval when they were both rushing for work. Seeing my pinkish top today, she must have thought my brother was going MIA from work today. Except that she got the wrong person.
Speaking of my pink tee today, I was hoping it might bring me some needed luck for today morning's modelling quiz which consists of 50MCQ questions in 25min. Well it sort of did. I suppose I did pretty all right.
For now, I really need some divine help and some of my star powers to complement and brush off on me during the upcoming exams. Or maybe I shall start studying now?
Today morning, I shared the lift with one of my not so close neighbours. She initiated a conversation during this brief period of time.
"Not working today?" was her first line.
"Er.. I am still studying." a fact that I am trying to associate myself with though it often get detached sometimes.
"Oh, I thought you were your brother. Both of really looked very alike."
Blah.
She must have seen my brother a few times during this time interval when they were both rushing for work. Seeing my pinkish top today, she must have thought my brother was going MIA from work today. Except that she got the wrong person.
Speaking of my pink tee today, I was hoping it might bring me some needed luck for today morning's modelling quiz which consists of 50MCQ questions in 25min. Well it sort of did. I suppose I did pretty all right.
For now, I really need some divine help and some of my star powers to complement and brush off on me during the upcoming exams. Or maybe I shall start studying now?
Labels: random
Monday, November 13, 2006
wings
The rain dampens my mood again. Or rather, I would say it gives me a melancholic feeling. However, I like the rain. It reminds me of a new song sang by Penny called 窗外。 Click on this link to see the lyrics.
Under the seeping influence of the brisk rainpour, I thought of a boring story thats not so original. Got the idea from 几米。"Mr Wing"
《Clipped wings.》
十月十日
一个神秘的晚上，我在一个神秘的小巷口，遇到了一个神秘的老婆婆。她摆了一个神秘的地摊，卖着神秘的事物。而我看上了一双神秘的翅膀。
“当你插上翅膀时，你就能在天空自在的翱翔了。可是，你必须付出相等的代价。翅膀是跟你的身体连接的，所以它受伤时，你也自然会感到痛楚。。切记。。”
十月十一日晴
Under the seeping influence of the brisk rainpour, I thought of a boring story thats not so original. Got the idea from 几米。"Mr Wing"
《Clipped wings.》
十月十日
一个神秘的晚上，我在一个神秘的小巷口，遇到了一个神秘的老婆婆。她摆了一个神秘的地摊，卖着神秘的事物。而我看上了一双神秘的翅膀。
“当你插上翅膀时，你就能在天空自在的翱翔了。可是，你必须付出相等的代价。翅膀是跟你的身体连接的，所以它受伤时，你也自然会感到痛楚。。切记。。”
十月十一日晴
兴奋的我终于飞上天空了！我在云霄里，快乐地跟一群小鸟玩捉迷藏，跟飞机比赛看谁飞得较快。我飞上埃菲尔铁塔的塔顶，聆听着城市的喧闹，和瞭望陌生的人群。我从这一刻获得自由了！
十月十一日 雷阵雨
我跌伤了。我左边的翅膀被闪电击伤，从十三楼的高处跌下来。奇迹的是，我并无大碍。我拖着满身是血的自己，每一步都像是费了九牛二虎之力。我无法再挥动翅膀了。然而，受伤的翅膀被无情的雨水淋湿，像是两只隐形的手不停地把我向后拉。
众人纷纷以奇异的眼光投向我背后那不幸的奇观。这时，老天爷又在作祟了。。雨下得更大。
zzz....
Off to study. Go go go!!!
Labels: Chinese Writes, The Emo Club.
Sunday, November 12, 2006
Waliau lame eh
Christine's recent email about a ridiculous essay was darn funny. Haa I was renowned in sec school last time for writing thrash essays like the one in the email. Though I am not goin to show the one sent by her, I am gg to show u peeps one of my interesting works. Hee. I am lame.
Hee thats all. Pls dont throw rotten eggs at me. WAaa. Orite goin to enjoy a lame sleep now. gooD nitey! Have a lame dream!
Hee thats all. Pls dont throw rotten eggs at me. WAaa. Orite goin to enjoy a lame sleep now. gooD nitey! Have a lame dream!
Labels: lame
Saturday, November 11, 2006
我只想再叫你一声姐
I am really getting old, too old for comfort. Failing memories, familiar but unrecognisable faces, friends walking out of my shadows and becoming distant strangers are a common scene. I am dwelling a lot into my past, all the past events coming back to my mind like a replay of soccer highlights. Wahaha. All the exciting moments are flooding my memory gates. Today, I am goin to blog about someone who I consider dear to my heart. Shes my "姐".
When I was 16, and O levels just ended, which was around end 2000, I went to work as a promoter, manning a small promotion store for Watsons at White Sands. What a bother, the pay was peanuts, and the distance from my house was obscencely far. However, I am glad, for I managed to know this 20 year old gal called Tan Li Na. Well, her name certainly invokes some vulgar thoughts; I wonder if u readers are well schooled enough in the university of life to spot the distinct similarity to a famous swear word.
Ok. should not trail off again. She was manning a ZA store (cosmetics) just beside my store. We got along well and I felt a sense of closeness to her. When i was really young, I always imagined and dreamt about having a big sister. Haa maybe brotherly love isnt enough. And it wasnt just me. My brother who is 3 years older also dreamt regularly about having a elder sister.
Therefore, to me, I see her as my sister already. Besides we got the same surname and we are both Hokkien. Hmmm maybe we got along well because of the magic of our horoscope. We are both librans. And i managed to guess correctly her horoscope due to my superb six sense. Call mi spidey tan or wadeva la. Haha. Actually, we got along well because we are similar in some ways. We are great fans of starsigns, and she would confide in me with her love problems. For example, she told me she like this guy who was ugly as described by her yet was really really a nice guy. I guess nice guys does win sometimes.
Hence, i told her that i wanted her to be my 姐 and she agreed. Yeah!! That was one big chapter in my life. Hence, she gave me a slamdunk keychain which was one of her treasured collections. In return, I gave her a bomberman keychain. Hee I would not want to work if not for her. She was my only motivation that time. Yet, good things have to end as always. I stopped working about one month later and I failed to keep in contact with her. I got no handphone at that time and I did not want to take down her number. Why? Cuz i got this childish hope that if we were fated to meet again, I shall see her once more. Bah!
I really want to meet up with her. Dear someone above, please show me a miracle. Or people, if u happen to know someone who may be her, please please let me know.
The slamdunk keychain. She gave mi 2 but i lost e other one.. Always losing things dear to me. I guess I am sick in the heart. I only cherish what has been lost..
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Side story: During that time, I bought a huge Tare Panda (dunno if spelt correctly)cuz it was rather famous that time and planned to give one to xq on Christmas eve. She was workin at Jurong Point Coffee Bean. She wasnt working that day though.. The soft toy's still gathering dust at home.
When I was 16, and O levels just ended, which was around end 2000, I went to work as a promoter, manning a small promotion store for Watsons at White Sands. What a bother, the pay was peanuts, and the distance from my house was obscencely far. However, I am glad, for I managed to know this 20 year old gal called Tan Li Na. Well, her name certainly invokes some vulgar thoughts; I wonder if u readers are well schooled enough in the university of life to spot the distinct similarity to a famous swear word.
Ok. should not trail off again. She was manning a ZA store (cosmetics) just beside my store. We got along well and I felt a sense of closeness to her. When i was really young, I always imagined and dreamt about having a big sister. Haa maybe brotherly love isnt enough. And it wasnt just me. My brother who is 3 years older also dreamt regularly about having a elder sister.
Therefore, to me, I see her as my sister already. Besides we got the same surname and we are both Hokkien. Hmmm maybe we got along well because of the magic of our horoscope. We are both librans. And i managed to guess correctly her horoscope due to my superb six sense. Call mi spidey tan or wadeva la. Haha. Actually, we got along well because we are similar in some ways. We are great fans of starsigns, and she would confide in me with her love problems. For example, she told me she like this guy who was ugly as described by her yet was really really a nice guy. I guess nice guys does win sometimes.
Hence, i told her that i wanted her to be my 姐 and she agreed. Yeah!! That was one big chapter in my life. Hence, she gave me a slamdunk keychain which was one of her treasured collections. In return, I gave her a bomberman keychain. Hee I would not want to work if not for her. She was my only motivation that time. Yet, good things have to end as always. I stopped working about one month later and I failed to keep in contact with her. I got no handphone at that time and I did not want to take down her number. Why? Cuz i got this childish hope that if we were fated to meet again, I shall see her once more. Bah!
I really want to meet up with her. Dear someone above, please show me a miracle. Or people, if u happen to know someone who may be her, please please let me know.
The slamdunk keychain. She gave mi 2 but i lost e other one.. Always losing things dear to me. I guess I am sick in the heart. I only cherish what has been lost..
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Side story: During that time, I bought a huge Tare Panda (dunno if spelt correctly)cuz it was rather famous that time and planned to give one to xq on Christmas eve. She was workin at Jurong Point Coffee Bean. She wasnt working that day though.. The soft toy's still gathering dust at home.
Labels: random, The Emo Club.
Friday, November 10, 2006
Lousy feel
Wahaha. Superstar 2006 is absolutely hilarious. The auditions are again filled with many aspiring young and duh the old who wanted to fufil their singer dreams. It is funny to see so many people who cant really hold a tune yet going for the auditions. I am not mean but some have a constipated look while singing whereas some I dun even noe what they are singing de. However, I really salute them for their die hard courage. I am sure i wont fare any better than them. Thats why you wont ever see me gg for such auditions.
-_-
On a more depressing note, i wonder whether I have the courage to even identify and chase whatever i want in life. I only want to go with the flow and I lack the will to pave my own defined path. How will i achieve my goals in life when I am not sure what i want? Success is defined in different states and it is a path-dependent process. In order to change my current state, i have to put in hard work. Aduh.. Trailing off. Too many thermo concepts. Lousy post. Lousy feelings.
-_-
On a more depressing note, i wonder whether I have the courage to even identify and chase whatever i want in life. I only want to go with the flow and I lack the will to pave my own defined path. How will i achieve my goals in life when I am not sure what i want? Success is defined in different states and it is a path-dependent process. In order to change my current state, i have to put in hard work. Aduh.. Trailing off. Too many thermo concepts. Lousy post. Lousy feelings.
Labels: random
Thursday, November 09, 2006
boo
I am hooked on 大头芬的世界. Pls go and take a look! Or listen to yes933. If u wanna listen to the previous posts, can go and download the podcast. It is really food for thought.
~I~
Anyways, this is BOO and frenz. Actually the onli fren is the voodoo mini. I cant think of any name for it now. Just call it Mr “会读书”for now.
~I~
Anyways, this is BOO and frenz. Actually the onli fren is the voodoo mini. I cant think of any name for it now. Just call it Mr “会读书”for now.
Labels: lame
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Its in the air
I wanted to hit him today. The grievance I felt for mum, the sense of injustice boiling beneath my skin and his crazy antics could have easily reduced him to a pulp. Clutching my fists, face turning absolutely red, and veins popping out from my suface of my skin, I swore i could have given him a neat uppercut. He deserved nothing better than that. However, rationality took over. No son could ever do that.
He is a harsh nightmare of reality, one that i could not shake off even in the expense of morality. And I naively thought he would slowly fade off from the radius of my life after he left. Alas, no one could went poof like that. And like cheap and dirty rum that emanated a foul smell, he came back again to intoxicate us. He's one sour memory I could do without, yet unrelentlessly haunt very nook and corner of my life.
....
Again i retook the searing path towards the uncertain mists of time, seeking for the rainbow that awaits me at the end of the trail~
He is a harsh nightmare of reality, one that i could not shake off even in the expense of morality. And I naively thought he would slowly fade off from the radius of my life after he left. Alas, no one could went poof like that. And like cheap and dirty rum that emanated a foul smell, he came back again to intoxicate us. He's one sour memory I could do without, yet unrelentlessly haunt very nook and corner of my life.
....
Again i retook the searing path towards the uncertain mists of time, seeking for the rainbow that awaits me at the end of the trail~
Labels: anger
Monday, November 06, 2006
U ROX.
Hohox. Was listening to "大头芬的世界” in yes933 by peifen. Those who wants to noe more can go under moi links and access the link. The story is realli realli nice and interesting. Peifen rox!! Whoohoo
Somehow, the story "transports" mi back to my sec sch days where puppy love is rampant.. It has been almost a decade since i first stepped into my sec sch. However, some memories are still fresh in my mind, juz like MENTOS..
There were 2 gals that i realli like in sec sch, one is buddy and the other is xq. However, it was a bit saddening that both didnt take a interest in mi. Thats why i find it a miracle if u like someone and the person reciprocates ur love. For mi, it was tough luck all the way. Do not be fooled by my current frivolous ways. I truly believe in staying faithful.
And this post shall be about xq, a gal that i liked since sec 1 (we were classmates in lower sec), and i still hav a bit of feelings for her, though not realli in the romantic sense. I juz wan her to be forever happy, as that would gladly console me. Even till now, one simple sms from her would clear up any lightning thunder days that i have to endure..
I still remembered the day when i first talked to her. Minor details, i have already forgotten, but i cant forget dat day cuz we had 3 short conversations, all lil childish quarrels. That somehow left a searing impression on mi, and the seeds of love have been firmly planted in even though i took scarce notice of it.
I only started to like her when she cried in class once because another classmate had cheated in a test and looked at her answers. I juz hav a soft spot for gals who tear in front of mi. But, as most boys at my age dat time, we would just keep our feelings to ourselves ba. Haa. If not, we may act strange, do stupid things in front of the gal we like so much. We will act nonchalant or even treat them poorly juz to cover our childish puppy intent. Wahaha..
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A pity she got together before with 2 of moi best frenz. That somehow left a bitter aftertaste in my heart, but i was never unhappy with them at all. I confessed my feelings to her the day after she got together wif one of moi fren whose bdae happened to fall tml. So an advance bdae greetin to u now haha.
She said" 你真的爱得很深情。。 谢谢你。”
And to tink she once said "有毛的人才会专情" becuz she got plenty of hair on her hands. Her dad told her dat juz to pacify her ba haha. I was juz e exact opp cuz i got veri lil hair even on my legs.
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There was once she called mi on the phone. Last time where got wat msn? Besides, i got no internet connection dat time. It was a thursday.
“好无聊哦！！”that was the first thing she said after a few informal greetings of hello.
I was probably ramblin. What to expect from a immature 13+ boi at that time when the gal of her dreams gave him a call? There wasnt much content to it. The duration of the call was only 5min.
"buai buai" from her.
I became Ronald Macdonald after dat. I was practically grinning from ear to ear.
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I made her cry not once, but twice. Once for copying her english summary wholesale.. I was quite a rebel during sec sch..
2nd time was a really quite heated up argument wif her. It really pained my heart to see her precious tears drop because of my foolhardy actions. I was probably pmsing myself dat day to get into such a temper. My sorry came too late..
From then on, i swore never ever to make a gal cry anymore..
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Haa. I was so foolish that i once told myself, " I shall wait 10 years for her.. " Cuz i made a wish that time if 10 years have passed and i still love her, i would be wif her.. Wishful thinking. Thats why its a wish ba. Hmmm dats about 10 years for you oredi.
2007 is the magic tenth year.
Bleahs.
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Thanks XQ for entering my life!! U ROX!!!
十年有如昙花一现，
奈何我无法莫顾往流水。。
Somehow, the story "transports" mi back to my sec sch days where puppy love is rampant.. It has been almost a decade since i first stepped into my sec sch. However, some memories are still fresh in my mind, juz like MENTOS..
There were 2 gals that i realli like in sec sch, one is buddy and the other is xq. However, it was a bit saddening that both didnt take a interest in mi. Thats why i find it a miracle if u like someone and the person reciprocates ur love. For mi, it was tough luck all the way. Do not be fooled by my current frivolous ways. I truly believe in staying faithful.
And this post shall be about xq, a gal that i liked since sec 1 (we were classmates in lower sec), and i still hav a bit of feelings for her, though not realli in the romantic sense. I juz wan her to be forever happy, as that would gladly console me. Even till now, one simple sms from her would clear up any lightning thunder days that i have to endure..
I still remembered the day when i first talked to her. Minor details, i have already forgotten, but i cant forget dat day cuz we had 3 short conversations, all lil childish quarrels. That somehow left a searing impression on mi, and the seeds of love have been firmly planted in even though i took scarce notice of it.
I only started to like her when she cried in class once because another classmate had cheated in a test and looked at her answers. I juz hav a soft spot for gals who tear in front of mi. But, as most boys at my age dat time, we would just keep our feelings to ourselves ba. Haa. If not, we may act strange, do stupid things in front of the gal we like so much. We will act nonchalant or even treat them poorly juz to cover our childish puppy intent. Wahaha..
---
A pity she got together before with 2 of moi best frenz. That somehow left a bitter aftertaste in my heart, but i was never unhappy with them at all. I confessed my feelings to her the day after she got together wif one of moi fren whose bdae happened to fall tml. So an advance bdae greetin to u now haha.
She said" 你真的爱得很深情。。 谢谢你。”
And to tink she once said "有毛的人才会专情" becuz she got plenty of hair on her hands. Her dad told her dat juz to pacify her ba haha. I was juz e exact opp cuz i got veri lil hair even on my legs.
---
There was once she called mi on the phone. Last time where got wat msn? Besides, i got no internet connection dat time. It was a thursday.
“好无聊哦！！”that was the first thing she said after a few informal greetings of hello.
I was probably ramblin. What to expect from a immature 13+ boi at that time when the gal of her dreams gave him a call? There wasnt much content to it. The duration of the call was only 5min.
"buai buai" from her.
I became Ronald Macdonald after dat. I was practically grinning from ear to ear.
---
I made her cry not once, but twice. Once for copying her english summary wholesale.. I was quite a rebel during sec sch..
2nd time was a really quite heated up argument wif her. It really pained my heart to see her precious tears drop because of my foolhardy actions. I was probably pmsing myself dat day to get into such a temper. My sorry came too late..
From then on, i swore never ever to make a gal cry anymore..
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Haa. I was so foolish that i once told myself, " I shall wait 10 years for her.. " Cuz i made a wish that time if 10 years have passed and i still love her, i would be wif her.. Wishful thinking. Thats why its a wish ba. Hmmm dats about 10 years for you oredi.
2007 is the magic tenth year.
Bleahs.
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Thanks XQ for entering my life!! U ROX!!!
十年有如昙花一现，
奈何我无法莫顾往流水。。
Labels: The Emo Club.
Friday, November 03, 2006
我不是我。
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Before and after
Hee. went to cut moi hair cuz it was realli unkempt and getting too thick for comfort. This was a photo taken on the day before i went for a haircut.
And dis was taken after the haircut. Haa. No one seems to notice dat i hav cut my hair.
The common reaction is "Got merhs?"
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And dis was taken after the haircut. Haa. No one seems to notice dat i hav cut my hair.
The common reaction is "Got merhs?"
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