Memories of the Wind.
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Tittled "Happiness"
What a hot day again. Dry and crackling. Arrrggghhh. . . My skin is practically peeling after being under the intense sun last saturday. I am just like a piece of unappealing bbq meat, and i am suffering a pimple outbreak now. Haha i am such a wimp, complain and complain.
Sometimes, some things we cant change. We cant change the weather, rules, norms, regulations, and a hell lot of things. Its difficult to change the way pple feel and think about something too. Ahhhh. . but we can change our own outlook towards life. Always look to the positive side, laugh something off, clown around in a realistic and practical mode. Yeah smilez, smile to even ur enemy. Sometimes a much needed hi and smile can open the door to happiness.
Have u found ur key to happiness yet? Be like me, continue to search for it. hahaha, but dun do it to the expense of being a flirt. This is juz a reference anyway. Wat i mean is to find happiness without hurting anyone, without harming urself too.
(ps: i duno why i am called a flirt by frenz???)
Sometimes, some things we cant change. We cant change the weather, rules, norms, regulations, and a hell lot of things. Its difficult to change the way pple feel and think about something too. Ahhhh. . but we can change our own outlook towards life. Always look to the positive side, laugh something off, clown around in a realistic and practical mode. Yeah smilez, smile to even ur enemy. Sometimes a much needed hi and smile can open the door to happiness.
Have u found ur key to happiness yet? Be like me, continue to search for it. hahaha, but dun do it to the expense of being a flirt. This is juz a reference anyway. Wat i mean is to find happiness without hurting anyone, without harming urself too.
(ps: i duno why i am called a flirt by frenz???)
Beni's Dating Strengths and Weaknesses
Took a test at dating diversions. Here are the results. dunno wat others feel about the results here. hahaha.
| Dating Strengths | Dating Weaknesses |
|---|---|
| 1. Flirtiness - 87.5% 2. Appearance - 75% 3. Friendliness - 75% 4. Sense of Humor - 71.4% 5. Confidence - 66.7% | 1. Vanity - 75% 2. Lack of Essentials - 58.3% 3. Pessimism - 50% |
| Dating Strengths Explained |
|---|
| Flirtiness - Flirting is a good way to break the ice, and you are a pro at it. Being flirtatious will open up many dating opportunities. Appearance - Despite what some will say, appearance matters in dating. You get high marks on appearance. Just make sure you balance it out with other qualities. Friendliness - Your friendliness makes you approachable and fun to be around. A wide circle of friends also works to your advantage on the dating scene. Sense of Humor - Girls are attracted to people with a good sense of humor. Be sure to put yours on display! Confidence - You are sure of yourself and confident of your abilities. Displays of confidence go a long way when attracting a date. |
| Dating Weaknesses Explained |
| Vanity - Learn to put a lower priority on looks. Appearance is, of course, important, but vanity is undesireable. The only people you will attract are the superficial. Lack of Essentials - Dating is difficult for you because you lack certain key things, which may include private space, a car, money, or a nice wardrobe. Work toward obtaining these essentials! Pessimism - Too much cynicism can be a turn-off. Try to see the brighter side of things and people will be attracted to your positive outlook. |
| What Are Your Dating Strengths and Weaknesses? |
Hahaha. Gotta suppose this test is quite accurate. EVERYONE is starting to say i am a flirt, a playboy, and a beast at worst. Dunno wat happened to me. Have to reflect on my actions and thoughts. And anz was spot on by pointing out previously that i place quite a lot of emphasis on looks. I retorted by saying noooo, but this test speaks volumes thou. Haa. watever la, the accuracy of the test is also subjective to the person taking it too.
Monday, February 27, 2006
Beni's search for the prefect galf
Your dating personality profile:
| Your date match profile: Shy - You are put off by people who are open books. You are drawn to someone who is a bit more mysterious. You want to draw her out of her shell and get to know what she is all about. Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps her body in top shape. |
Your Top Five Traits 1. Athletic 2. Outgoing 3. Adventurous 4. Practical 5. Romantic | Your Top Five Match Traits 1. Practical 2. Shy 3. Athletic 4. Funny 5. Adventurous |
Take the Online Dating Profile Quiz at Dating Diversions
Sunday, February 26, 2006
an hour of running and thinking
Ran again todae in the evening for an hour. dunno where i was headin to. Started out with my familiar route to republic poly. but decided to deviate from my normal routine enroute to rp. ran further down the long straight stretch of tanglin road that seems never ending. turned back den went the other way till the junction before redhill mrt and made a right turn down back to queenstown mrt. .
anyway, went to a lot of places in the queenstown area. even had time to run to queensway shoppin centre. dunno wat i am searchin for in my midst of running. searching for stuff, things to reflect on, or pple? i dunno. haha thot queensway quite near to rp liao, but it takes so infinitely long for me to reach there lor. hmmm... wat seems so near, but yet so far. .
i dun mind runnin long distances or takin the wrong route as long as i can reach the place i wan, but can anyone tell me how to bridge the distance between two hearts? Breaking mine into pieces wun help. so near yet so far. . .
anyway, went to a lot of places in the queenstown area. even had time to run to queensway shoppin centre. dunno wat i am searchin for in my midst of running. searching for stuff, things to reflect on, or pple? i dunno. haha thot queensway quite near to rp liao, but it takes so infinitely long for me to reach there lor. hmmm... wat seems so near, but yet so far. .
i dun mind runnin long distances or takin the wrong route as long as i can reach the place i wan, but can anyone tell me how to bridge the distance between two hearts? Breaking mine into pieces wun help. so near yet so far. . .
Labels: runs, The Emo Club.
25th feb an eventful dae
Gotta blog on yesterdae's events cuz it was sooo sooo eventful for me.
Got to a flyin start in soccer for me yesterdae. Yesterdae's passing movement was crisp, the off the ball movements were present, and the understanding impeccable. Scored 3 goals, and the first one was really quite wonderful. Just over the half way line of the court, i released a curling shot that went into the top left hand corner of the goal tat left the opponents dumbfounded. But wat i wanted to comment on was my new found ability in soccer.
When i gave a killer pass to melvin yesterdae, i felt time almost halting to a stop. Everyone seemed to be crawling. I could see everyone's movement clearly and i could observe the ball tricklin to the feet of melvin with everyone fooled by my feint. It was exactly wat i had planned. My sudden stop in my tracks when i had received the ball directly to my feet had my two markers stoppin momentarily. from there i managed to give a low instep ball to melvin with ease and glee. Square the ball i commanded to melvin in my mind and he did so to my bro, who made no mistake with an unstoppable shot into the corner of the goal. Haa i could feel and sense wat would happen a few moments after a pass in recent soccer games. It was the exact picture of wat i want to paint. Every pass can give different signals to ur teammates, wat u wan him to do can be sensed thr a pass and thr eye contact made.
For intance, a ball into space infront of ur teammates indicate that that is empty space infront for him to make a run, or when he receive a ball to his left foot, dis means that there may be a marker on his right and vice versa. There are many different cases and types of passes that can be varied instead of juz getting the ball to ur team mate. This is what makes an effective pass, and something that i am enlightened in recent games.
OTher than the mornin soccer, evenin was a fun dae too. Went to my sec sch class gathering 2B. Had dinner at swensens at suntec. It was a long wait for this gathering, at least 5 long years have passed b4 we met up again. And to think we were able to have a class gathering if not for cokty's suggestions (i am part of cokty. i make up the t. t for tan, which is my surname.)
Glad to meet up wif old frenz. They never realli change much thou. it was great to see the camaraderie among some even thou we havent meet one another for so long. For example, when we wanted to find pple to help us take photos of us, me and jac echoed 路人甲 together. and we simultaneously said eh. hahaha. so funny lor. and hee. . . dunno how come i took a photo wif a waitress at swensens. I mentioned to weiting tat she was cute, and weiting got jac to help me ask her for a photo. hahaaaa. okok. the photos are below.
Me and Kai Kiang. I wasnt lookin at the camera at all. Haha.
Got to a flyin start in soccer for me yesterdae. Yesterdae's passing movement was crisp, the off the ball movements were present, and the understanding impeccable. Scored 3 goals, and the first one was really quite wonderful. Just over the half way line of the court, i released a curling shot that went into the top left hand corner of the goal tat left the opponents dumbfounded. But wat i wanted to comment on was my new found ability in soccer.
When i gave a killer pass to melvin yesterdae, i felt time almost halting to a stop. Everyone seemed to be crawling. I could see everyone's movement clearly and i could observe the ball tricklin to the feet of melvin with everyone fooled by my feint. It was exactly wat i had planned. My sudden stop in my tracks when i had received the ball directly to my feet had my two markers stoppin momentarily. from there i managed to give a low instep ball to melvin with ease and glee. Square the ball i commanded to melvin in my mind and he did so to my bro, who made no mistake with an unstoppable shot into the corner of the goal. Haa i could feel and sense wat would happen a few moments after a pass in recent soccer games. It was the exact picture of wat i want to paint. Every pass can give different signals to ur teammates, wat u wan him to do can be sensed thr a pass and thr eye contact made.
For intance, a ball into space infront of ur teammates indicate that that is empty space infront for him to make a run, or when he receive a ball to his left foot, dis means that there may be a marker on his right and vice versa. There are many different cases and types of passes that can be varied instead of juz getting the ball to ur team mate. This is what makes an effective pass, and something that i am enlightened in recent games.
OTher than the mornin soccer, evenin was a fun dae too. Went to my sec sch class gathering 2B. Had dinner at swensens at suntec. It was a long wait for this gathering, at least 5 long years have passed b4 we met up again. And to think we were able to have a class gathering if not for cokty's suggestions (i am part of cokty. i make up the t. t for tan, which is my surname.)
Glad to meet up wif old frenz. They never realli change much thou. it was great to see the camaraderie among some even thou we havent meet one another for so long. For example, when we wanted to find pple to help us take photos of us, me and jac echoed 路人甲 together. and we simultaneously said eh. hahaha. so funny lor. and hee. . . dunno how come i took a photo wif a waitress at swensens. I mentioned to weiting tat she was cute, and weiting got jac to help me ask her for a photo. hahaaaa. okok. the photos are below.
Me and Kai Kiang. I wasnt lookin at the camera at all. Haha.
Me and Weiting. Where are my eyes??? arrggghhh. . .
Earthquake. A great sin but yummy!!! Yam is my fav!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Candid shot. only me, runxin and jaxing noticed tat we were being shot.
The other section of our class. haa. y is runxin all over the place??? (from left: runxin, hanyi, tini, and kavitha)
Jac seems so tickled.
haha juz when everyone is soo happy smiling at the camera. i decided to wink again.(from left: jiaxing, huiyu, xiaoqi, jac and me)
The cute waitress. She got a very glum look thou. haa, the reason is so obvious.
The guys! (from left: yanzhang, weiting, walter, kk, wang, me, bryan, jiaxing, yongqiang, and hanyi)
Saturday, February 25, 2006
Dear Blog
Dear Blog,
did i upset u with all my negative feelings? I knew i have done so actually. Did not want to burden you with my unsettled thoughts, my private troubles and all these unpleasant stuff. But i did so anyway. Needed someone to save a drowning man from his dark thoughts. Almost drowned u instead. Not that i wanted to stay unhappy, or i am sick enough to wallow in self-pity, but i am really sad. sad. For so many reasons. U knew them, and i am glad that u have been so patient in acceptin my shortcomings.
Did u noe that i entered u in a blog competition recently? It was so ironic. I entered u in the categories, most creative and funniest blog. And i now i have made u to be so infallible, so imprefect, so sombre. Because of me, u are the way tat u are now. But silently, and reassuringly, u still put ur invisible arms over my shoulders to give me that distinct human touch. The warmth and comfort that i have been seeking for.
I would try to be more encouraging in my posts, and to stay happy. But i cant give u promises. I do not want to lie to u. For now, please bear with me as i try to pick myself up again.
From ur avid blogger, Benny. Wishing u
endless bounds of creativity.
ps: hope u like ur layout. feel free to give me honest feedbacks about my posts. we are good frends right? =)
did i upset u with all my negative feelings? I knew i have done so actually. Did not want to burden you with my unsettled thoughts, my private troubles and all these unpleasant stuff. But i did so anyway. Needed someone to save a drowning man from his dark thoughts. Almost drowned u instead. Not that i wanted to stay unhappy, or i am sick enough to wallow in self-pity, but i am really sad. sad. For so many reasons. U knew them, and i am glad that u have been so patient in acceptin my shortcomings.
Did u noe that i entered u in a blog competition recently? It was so ironic. I entered u in the categories, most creative and funniest blog. And i now i have made u to be so infallible, so imprefect, so sombre. Because of me, u are the way tat u are now. But silently, and reassuringly, u still put ur invisible arms over my shoulders to give me that distinct human touch. The warmth and comfort that i have been seeking for.
I would try to be more encouraging in my posts, and to stay happy. But i cant give u promises. I do not want to lie to u. For now, please bear with me as i try to pick myself up again.
From ur avid blogger, Benny. Wishing u
endless bounds of creativity.
ps: hope u like ur layout. feel free to give me honest feedbacks about my posts. we are good frends right? =)
Labels: musings, random, The Emo Club.
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Saw 3 little girls who were probably around 4 years old returning home from nursery. I was walking beind them. Their parents were walkin in front of them, a chinese mother, a chinese father, and the other a caucasian mother. The girls were walking in a lesiurely pace, holding hands together and having a light conversation. Nothing seems to deter dem as they walk happily together, their hands swinging side by side as they sashayed down the walk. Haha. .
the caucasian girl was walkin in the middle, her golden hair brushing against the light breeze. to her left was the one of the chinese gal with a little pony tail tied with blue strings whereas the one on the right of the caucasian girl had her hair tied with 2 strings, one blue and one yellow. They looked so innocent and cuteEEEE. . . They suddenly halted to a stop, and stooped to observe a paper bag on their left with great fascination. On closer srutiny, i realise that the paper bag was filled with ants.
How easy to get children wowed and stumped? As we grow older, nothin realli catches our attention anymore. (How do i seek to get ur attention and to bring across my feelings? i dunno. . .) and seeing them holding hands, observing the ants, and oblivious to their surroundings got me emotional again. Emo emo benny. Haha u wun ever see guys of my age holding hands with one another ba. Soo disgustin or gay u would say. Societal norms. Hump! But i cant really envisage holding hands with my friends at all. How i wish to turn back the time? but i cant. i gotta make good use of my time and look to the future. I can be emo for a while, but after tat, i gotta move on.
the caucasian girl was walkin in the middle, her golden hair brushing against the light breeze. to her left was the one of the chinese gal with a little pony tail tied with blue strings whereas the one on the right of the caucasian girl had her hair tied with 2 strings, one blue and one yellow. They looked so innocent and cuteEEEE. . . They suddenly halted to a stop, and stooped to observe a paper bag on their left with great fascination. On closer srutiny, i realise that the paper bag was filled with ants.
How easy to get children wowed and stumped? As we grow older, nothin realli catches our attention anymore. (How do i seek to get ur attention and to bring across my feelings? i dunno. . .) and seeing them holding hands, observing the ants, and oblivious to their surroundings got me emotional again. Emo emo benny. Haha u wun ever see guys of my age holding hands with one another ba. Soo disgustin or gay u would say. Societal norms. Hump! But i cant really envisage holding hands with my friends at all. How i wish to turn back the time? but i cant. i gotta make good use of my time and look to the future. I can be emo for a while, but after tat, i gotta move on.
Labels: random
Chores are no longer chores!
Did window cleaning and washing of bedsheets todae morning and completed it by 1030am. Hahaha. Gettin more and more adept and efficient in such mundane household chores. Accustomed to such a routine, i got into my thinkin mechanism again. My dark humour conjures up the plausible wonders that some typical household chores can do to the body and spiritual self and here i am goin to share wif everyone. . When u have tested and tried it out, and found it really beneficial, spread it around. Hahahaha.
1st. Sweeping the floor.
When u sweep the floor, remember to use a broom that allows u to straighten ur back comfortably. If it's too short for ur liking, better get a new one. Sweeping actually improves ur dexterity and adroitness in ur hands. And if done correctly, it helps to improve ur upper body co-ordination with ur waist. Trust me, i am in the hocky team durin jc.
2nd. Mopping the floor.
Done best if u kneel down and use a cloth instead. Potential side effects would be strainin of the back too. Take care not to exert too much force. Use appropriate force and let the floor absorb the impact of ur force. In doin so, u would be shifting 30% of ur centre of gravity to ur hands and that would be enuf to make the floor clean. So wat benefits would it bring? U r trainin ur hands to take the partial weight of ur body and when maneuvering from one place to another, u would be training ur quadriceps too. Great work out.
3rd. Doing the dishes.
Hmmm. . Wat benefit can it do to the body u would ask? It is not gruelling and physical about it. Haa, but doin the dishes has its wonders. Lemme enlighten everyone. Doing the dishes means takin up responsiblilty when the fun in eating is over. Hahaha who likes to stay around when gluttony me has been satisfied. But when u are willin to do the dishes, u are makin a sacrifice and understand the need to be there to wash up the mess. This shows a person's character in adversity too. And a person washing the dishes cannot afford to have a concentration lapse. He or she must be meticulous and take care not to smash the dishes. Hahaha true? This naturally trains a person to be attentive to detail and willin to take up responsibility. And this trait can actually be trained by such a inconspicuous task. So next time, offer to do the dishes!!
4th. Washing clothes and bedsheets.
When i am talkin about washin of clothes here, i dun mean the convenient machine that churns when u have the absolute simplicity and luxury of juz pressing a few buttons here and there. I am talking about manual washing. Washing clothes require endurance. When washing clothes, adopt a squatting postion with ur back straightened. Remember, it is always important to keep ur back straight when performing chores to minimise any potential hurt u can cause to ur back. this trains ur quadriceps. This trains isometric contraction of the quad muscle and it helps to develop static strength - the strength you need to push or pull a heavy object or hold it up. Ur hand also does work when lifting the clothes up, especially bedsheets, which are much heavier. This contracts ur hand muscles concentrically and isotonically and trains muscular strength in ur arms. However, use ur abs to assist u in lifting the clothes up so as not to strain ur back muscles. This also tightens the upper abdominal muscles and give u a more toned body in time to come.
5th. Ironing clothes.
Ironing clothes do not really have any physical benefits juz like watching tv or yakkin away on the phone. But it works wonders psychologically. When u wear clothes free of creases and ironed by urself, u would have a sense of satisfaction. Cool. . U feel confident and easier to relate and communicate with other people. The world is made for u! U would tell urself.
Haaaaa.. . . . . feelin not realli happy but still laughin my head off anyway. throbbing headache. too much household chores?? No la. HOPE anyone who read this would find from my post the extra motivation to do household chores. Listed above is only 5 normal chores. There are plenty more and if u wish to discuss wif me wat other added values other household chores or this 5 may hav, feel free to approach me. =)
1st. Sweeping the floor.
When u sweep the floor, remember to use a broom that allows u to straighten ur back comfortably. If it's too short for ur liking, better get a new one. Sweeping actually improves ur dexterity and adroitness in ur hands. And if done correctly, it helps to improve ur upper body co-ordination with ur waist. Trust me, i am in the hocky team durin jc.
2nd. Mopping the floor.
Done best if u kneel down and use a cloth instead. Potential side effects would be strainin of the back too. Take care not to exert too much force. Use appropriate force and let the floor absorb the impact of ur force. In doin so, u would be shifting 30% of ur centre of gravity to ur hands and that would be enuf to make the floor clean. So wat benefits would it bring? U r trainin ur hands to take the partial weight of ur body and when maneuvering from one place to another, u would be training ur quadriceps too. Great work out.
3rd. Doing the dishes.
Hmmm. . Wat benefit can it do to the body u would ask? It is not gruelling and physical about it. Haa, but doin the dishes has its wonders. Lemme enlighten everyone. Doing the dishes means takin up responsiblilty when the fun in eating is over. Hahaha who likes to stay around when gluttony me has been satisfied. But when u are willin to do the dishes, u are makin a sacrifice and understand the need to be there to wash up the mess. This shows a person's character in adversity too. And a person washing the dishes cannot afford to have a concentration lapse. He or she must be meticulous and take care not to smash the dishes. Hahaha true? This naturally trains a person to be attentive to detail and willin to take up responsibility. And this trait can actually be trained by such a inconspicuous task. So next time, offer to do the dishes!!
4th. Washing clothes and bedsheets.
When i am talkin about washin of clothes here, i dun mean the convenient machine that churns when u have the absolute simplicity and luxury of juz pressing a few buttons here and there. I am talking about manual washing. Washing clothes require endurance. When washing clothes, adopt a squatting postion with ur back straightened. Remember, it is always important to keep ur back straight when performing chores to minimise any potential hurt u can cause to ur back. this trains ur quadriceps. This trains isometric contraction of the quad muscle and it helps to develop static strength - the strength you need to push or pull a heavy object or hold it up. Ur hand also does work when lifting the clothes up, especially bedsheets, which are much heavier. This contracts ur hand muscles concentrically and isotonically and trains muscular strength in ur arms. However, use ur abs to assist u in lifting the clothes up so as not to strain ur back muscles. This also tightens the upper abdominal muscles and give u a more toned body in time to come.
5th. Ironing clothes.
Ironing clothes do not really have any physical benefits juz like watching tv or yakkin away on the phone. But it works wonders psychologically. When u wear clothes free of creases and ironed by urself, u would have a sense of satisfaction. Cool. . U feel confident and easier to relate and communicate with other people. The world is made for u! U would tell urself.
Haaaaa.. . . . . feelin not realli happy but still laughin my head off anyway. throbbing headache. too much household chores?? No la. HOPE anyone who read this would find from my post the extra motivation to do household chores. Listed above is only 5 normal chores. There are plenty more and if u wish to discuss wif me wat other added values other household chores or this 5 may hav, feel free to approach me. =)
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Who's there crying,
in the lone darkness?
Do not be afraid.
U are not alone.
Tears are nothing to be ashamed of.
Do not cry just because u feel dejected,
Do not cry just because u feel down.
Cry just because u need to be.
Because tears do not make u weak,
its ur heart that let u down.
Strengthen ur heart and make it strong,
walk through ashen and gray.
Let the memories fade away.
The sky's gonna turn better,
so for now, let us cry together.
Hey is that u again?
Laughing, with a band of merry brothers?
Let me join u,
for i am alone. .
in the lone darkness?
Do not be afraid.
U are not alone.
Tears are nothing to be ashamed of.
Do not cry just because u feel dejected,
Do not cry just because u feel down.
Cry just because u need to be.
Because tears do not make u weak,
its ur heart that let u down.
Strengthen ur heart and make it strong,
walk through ashen and gray.
Let the memories fade away.
The sky's gonna turn better,
so for now, let us cry together.
Hey is that u again?
Laughing, with a band of merry brothers?
Let me join u,
for i am alone. .
Labels: poetry, The Emo Club.
Running with my thoughts flying
Went for a run around my neighbourhood todae in the evening. My thoughts went amok as my engine went faster and faster. Was wondering what would it be like to be able to run as fast as a car. Hahaha. I would probably need a license, insurance and coe too.
Whatever la, but running is an integral part of my life. Started to run since primary 5, when that was the year that i swore upon myself that i should slim down. Tipping the scales at 49kg when i was primary 4 was unthinkable. So it became attached to me since then. Felt great whenever i run, the wind blowing against my cheeks, the welcoming sights and scenery that greet me is a mind blowing sensation. As a lesiure runner, nonsensical thoughts help me to keep in tune with my running rhythm. (nonsensical rthythm) Great way to keep fit too. Or else i would have still be stuck with a not so pleasant body. Hee. .
I may not be a terrific runner, but i can still cover reasonable ground. It's just that this few months, i havent been really running a lot. However, my post chinese new year's resolution is to get back on track in running. Haha, but this is only my third run since CNY. Tsk tsk. . i need to be more determined. Passion is burning dim. Let the fire burn with sparks again. Amber fire is not enough for me. I command my spirit here, glow!!!! HAaaaaaa. Nonsensical. And this was wat i exactly thot about during my short 20min run.
Whatever la, but running is an integral part of my life. Started to run since primary 5, when that was the year that i swore upon myself that i should slim down. Tipping the scales at 49kg when i was primary 4 was unthinkable. So it became attached to me since then. Felt great whenever i run, the wind blowing against my cheeks, the welcoming sights and scenery that greet me is a mind blowing sensation. As a lesiure runner, nonsensical thoughts help me to keep in tune with my running rhythm. (nonsensical rthythm) Great way to keep fit too. Or else i would have still be stuck with a not so pleasant body. Hee. .
I may not be a terrific runner, but i can still cover reasonable ground. It's just that this few months, i havent been really running a lot. However, my post chinese new year's resolution is to get back on track in running. Haha, but this is only my third run since CNY. Tsk tsk. . i need to be more determined. Passion is burning dim. Let the fire burn with sparks again. Amber fire is not enough for me. I command my spirit here, glow!!!! HAaaaaaa. Nonsensical. And this was wat i exactly thot about during my short 20min run.
To compromise 2. .
Here in this minute i am being scolded by my mum for being stupid. She does that all the time. Never ever fail to get on my nerves everytime she mentioned that word to me. Does this cursed word rings a bell to all, if not some?
And the reason was so stupid. My fren returned me 10rm yesterdae for a few weeks of drinks that i have bought for him wifout getting any money back during our frequent breaks when playing soccer at NUS. I took the money since he did not have any spare cash or Sing dollars wif him. I compromised and took the 10 rm since tat was the only money he had. Was i stupid? I did not want to make a big fuss of it. I dunno. . Recently the things i have been doin was often met with strong disapproval from my mum. I dunno. . I dunno. . I dunno. . I dunno. . I . . dunno. . dunno. . dunn. . no.
And the reason was so stupid. My fren returned me 10rm yesterdae for a few weeks of drinks that i have bought for him wifout getting any money back during our frequent breaks when playing soccer at NUS. I took the money since he did not have any spare cash or Sing dollars wif him. I compromised and took the 10 rm since tat was the only money he had. Was i stupid? I did not want to make a big fuss of it. I dunno. . Recently the things i have been doin was often met with strong disapproval from my mum. I dunno. . I dunno. . I dunno. . I dunno. . I . . dunno. . dunno. . dunn. . no.
Labels: musings
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Love in the cards
Got inspired by Jimmy's "Love in the cards". Really quite a nice and touching piece of artwork and writting from him. Would recommend it to anyone who's able to read chinese and want to get touched. .
Below is a work by me that was my own version of Love in the cards. The words are original. As for the 2nd pic, it was an excerpt from the original work.
Below is a work by me that was my own version of Love in the cards. The words are original. As for the 2nd pic, it was an excerpt from the original work.
The little dog story
{One day, a little dog called floss asked his mother where can he find happiness? His mother replied that happiness is on his tail. Excited, floss chased his tail and round and round he went. But in his pursue of happiness, he juz could not get it. He went back to his mum and asked her how come the more he chased his happiness, the more it seemed to evade him. And his mother juz replied:" Juz look to the front, walk ahead in life. Happiness would naturally follow after you.}
This was quite a inspiring story on how to achieve happiness. Originally got it from a fren who fowarded it as a sms texted in chinese. Cute rite? But hope everyone can get the intended meaning. .
This was quite a inspiring story on how to achieve happiness. Originally got it from a fren who fowarded it as a sms texted in chinese. Cute rite? But hope everyone can get the intended meaning. .
NO more Mr Melancholy and Mr Gloomy
Mr Sunny and Funny is back after recuperating from a series of thunderstorms. HAaaaa. . JUz wan to post 2 poems that would hav been apt in describing my feelings yesterdae.
The first one is not really a poem but rather a few lines. It is a chinese one written by Mr Sunny, who wasnt really feelin real at tat point of time.
我的心碎了.
我勇敢的把碎片拼圖式的拼回去.
一片一片的拼.
可是當我高興的把最後的一片拼上去後,
我發現原來有一片始終都在你身邊.
我的心再度碎了.
The second one is one that i happened to see on a book. Penned by someone called Ly.
Dear Happiness,
You were once in my heart.
Silently, lightenin up everydae of my life.
But u left me.
Taking away even memories of u.
Silently, i count the days of my life alone.
How i wish it ends todae.
Hmmm. . . but i am happy again! ! ! Thot happiness has left me. But todae, i realised i was the one who betrayed happiness first. It hasnt left me yet. It was juz beckoning me to get ahead in life. I did, and it was wif me again. Smilez. . Haa, and even thou my heart is incomplete, who saes one cant be happy wif a hole in the heart?
The first one is not really a poem but rather a few lines. It is a chinese one written by Mr Sunny, who wasnt really feelin real at tat point of time.
我的心碎了.
我勇敢的把碎片拼圖式的拼回去.
一片一片的拼.
可是當我高興的把最後的一片拼上去後,
我發現原來有一片始終都在你身邊.
我的心再度碎了.
The second one is one that i happened to see on a book. Penned by someone called Ly.
Dear Happiness,
You were once in my heart.
Silently, lightenin up everydae of my life.
But u left me.
Taking away even memories of u.
Silently, i count the days of my life alone.
How i wish it ends todae.
Hmmm. . . but i am happy again! ! ! Thot happiness has left me. But todae, i realised i was the one who betrayed happiness first. It hasnt left me yet. It was juz beckoning me to get ahead in life. I did, and it was wif me again. Smilez. . Haa, and even thou my heart is incomplete, who saes one cant be happy wif a hole in the heart?
Labels: random, The Emo Club.
Monday, February 20, 2006
又是陰天
Tears in my heart
Sunday, February 19, 2006
I escaped hell. . .
Haa. . I am repenting. Cuz I Believe. .
The Dante's Inferno Test has sent me to Purgatory!
Here is how I matched up against all the levels:
Take the Dante's" Inferno Test
The Dante's Inferno Test has sent me to Purgatory!
Here is how I matched up against all the levels:
| Level | Score |
|---|---|
| Purgatory (Repenting Believers) | High |
| Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) | High |
| Level 2 (Lustful) | Low |
| Level 3 (Gluttonous) | Low |
| Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) | Low |
| Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) | Very Low |
| Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics) | Very Low |
| Level 7 (Violent) | Low |
| Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers) | Moderate |
| Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous) | Low |
Take the Dante's" Inferno Test
幸福
心情ㄖ記 一
哈哈!! 畢竟我也是華人, 所以這一次我就完全用華文來發表我這一次的提文. 雖然, 這對我來說, 可是一個艱難和具有挑戰性的一次任務. 可是人就一定要勇敢的嘗試, 臥薪嚐膽, 即使是屢戰屢敗也要告訴自己不能輕言放棄. 只要明白勝者不驕,雖敗於榮的道理, 人就能更一步的往前衝. 俗語說,水往低處流,人就要往高處爬.
我是否有太多感觸了呢? 感覺就好像回到了中學和高中時期, 那時隨意揮筆的日子. 但是時間是不能倒回的, 現在的心情和往日的心情已有大大的落差. 時間彷彿如白駒過隙, 不知不覺我就已經是成年人了. 那時的無優無慮已經被一塵憂愁蓋上了. 但是, 也因為這樣, 人也變得更成熟了. 經過大大小小的挫折, 我再也不是以前的我, 因為我已經是更完整的我.
快樂與不快樂我都接受, 可是它們必須先接受我.
我是否有太多感觸了呢? 感覺就好像回到了中學和高中時期, 那時隨意揮筆的日子. 但是時間是不能倒回的, 現在的心情和往日的心情已有大大的落差. 時間彷彿如白駒過隙, 不知不覺我就已經是成年人了. 那時的無優無慮已經被一塵憂愁蓋上了. 但是, 也因為這樣, 人也變得更成熟了. 經過大大小小的挫折, 我再也不是以前的我, 因為我已經是更完整的我.
快樂與不快樂我都接受, 可是它們必須先接受我.
Labels: Chinese Writes
Saturday, February 18, 2006
To compromise. .
I ｔｈｏｔ ｏｆ ａ ｑｕｉｒｋｙ ｔｒａｉｔ ｔｈａｔ ｉ ｈａｖｅ ｗｈｅｎ ｉ ｗａｓ ｉｎ ｓｅｃ ｓｃｈ． Ｈａａ． ． Ｌａｓｔ ｔｉｍｅ ｗｈｅｎｅｖｅｒ ｉ ｈａｄ ａ ｈｅａｔｅｄ ａｒｇｕｍｅｎｔ， ｉ ｗｏｕｌｄ ａｌｍｏｓｔ ａｌｗａｙｓ ｂｅ ｔｈｅ ｆｉｒｓｔ ｔｏ ｃｏｍｐｒｏｍｉｓｅ ｅｖｅｎ ｔｈｏｕｇｈ ｂｏｔｈ ａｒｅ ｐａｒｔｉａｌｌｙ ａｔ ｆａｕｌｔ． Ｉ ａｌｗａｙｓ ｄｏ ｔｈａｔ ｂｅｃｏｓ ｉ ｎｏｅ ｉｔｓ ｔｈｅ ｆａｓｔｅｓｔ ｗａｙ ｔｏ ｇｅｔ ｂａｃｋ ｉｎ ｇｏｏｄ ｔｅｒｍｓ ｗｉｆ ａ ｆｒｅｎ． Ｉ ｄｕｎ ｗａｎ ｔｏ ｗａｉｔ ｆｏｒ ｔｈｅ ｏｔｈｅｒ ｐａｒｔｙ ｔｏ ｓａｙ ｓｏｒｒｙ ｆｉｒｓｔ ｊｕｚ ｂｅｃａｕｓｅ ｉ ｍａｙ ｆｅｅｌ ｓｈｏｒｔｃｈａｎｇｅｄ． Ｉｆ ｉ ｗａｉｔ ａｎｄ ｗａｉｔ ｆｏｒ ｔｈｅ ｏｔｈｅｒ ｐａｒｔｙ ｔｏ ｓｔａｒｔ ｔｈｅ ｂａｌｌ ｒｏｌｌｉｎｇ， ｈａａ ｉ ｐｒｏｂａｂｌｙ ｈａｖｅ ｔｏ ｗａｉｔ ｔｉｌｌ ｔｈｅ ｓｕｎ ｒｉｓｅｓ ｆｒｏｍ ｔｈｅ ｗｅｓｔ． Ａｌｗａｙｓ ｂｅａｒ ｉｎ ｍｉｎｄ ｔｈａｔ ｐｒｉｄｅ ａｎｄ ｄｉｇｎｉｔｙ ｗｏｕｌｄ ｈａｖｅ ｔｏ ｂｅ ｄｉｓｐｌａｃｅｄ ｉｎ ｆａｖｏｕｒ ｏｆ ｈｕｍｉｌｉｔｙ ａｎｄ ｓｉｎｃｅｒｉｔｙ ｗｈｅｎ ｏｎｅ ａｃｋｎｏｗｌｅｄｇｅｓ ｈｉｓ ｆａｕｌｔ．
Ｈｍｍｍｍ． ． ． ｌｏｎｇ ｐｅｒｉｏｄ ｓｉｎｃｅ ｉ ｒｅａｌｌｙ ａｎｔａｇｏｎｉｓｅ ｓｏｍｅｏｎｅ ｌｉａｏ． Ｄｕｎ ｒｅａｌｌｙ ｎｏｅ ｗｈｅｔｈｅｒ ｓａｙｉｎｇ ｓｏｒｒｙ ｆｉｒｓｔ ｓｔｉｌｌ ｗｏｒｋｓ ａｎｏｔ． Ｈａｖｅ ｂｅｅｎ ａｄｖｉｓｅｄ ｂｙ ｐｐｌｅ ｎｏｔ ｔｏ ｂｅ ｔｏｏ ｃｏｍｐｒｏｍｉｓｉｎｇ ｓｉｎｃｅ ｐｒｉｍａｒｙ ｓｃｈ ｃｕｚ ｐｐｌｅ ｎｏｒｍａｌｌｙ ｊｕｚ ｔａｋｅ ｕ ｆｏｒ ｇｒａｎｔｅｄ ｉｆ ｕ ａｒｅ ｔｏｏ ｎｉｃｅ ｔｏ ｄｅｍ．ｅｒ． ． ． ｉｔｓ ａｌｌ ａｂｏｕｔ ｄｒａｗｉｎｇ ｔｈｅ ｌｉｎｅ ｌａ．
Ｈｍｍｍｍ． ． ． ｌｏｎｇ ｐｅｒｉｏｄ ｓｉｎｃｅ ｉ ｒｅａｌｌｙ ａｎｔａｇｏｎｉｓｅ ｓｏｍｅｏｎｅ ｌｉａｏ． Ｄｕｎ ｒｅａｌｌｙ ｎｏｅ ｗｈｅｔｈｅｒ ｓａｙｉｎｇ ｓｏｒｒｙ ｆｉｒｓｔ ｓｔｉｌｌ ｗｏｒｋｓ ａｎｏｔ． Ｈａｖｅ ｂｅｅｎ ａｄｖｉｓｅｄ ｂｙ ｐｐｌｅ ｎｏｔ ｔｏ ｂｅ ｔｏｏ ｃｏｍｐｒｏｍｉｓｉｎｇ ｓｉｎｃｅ ｐｒｉｍａｒｙ ｓｃｈ ｃｕｚ ｐｐｌｅ ｎｏｒｍａｌｌｙ ｊｕｚ ｔａｋｅ ｕ ｆｏｒ ｇｒａｎｔｅｄ ｉｆ ｕ ａｒｅ ｔｏｏ ｎｉｃｅ ｔｏ ｄｅｍ．ｅｒ． ． ． ｉｔｓ ａｌｌ ａｂｏｕｔ ｄｒａｗｉｎｇ ｔｈｅ ｌｉｎｅ ｌａ．
I not stupid too.
Watched the show "I not stupid too". It was really a touching show with many underlying meanings behind it. I would give it a rating of 5 stars. For those who havent watch it, wat r u waiting for?
Haha, i wun be givin the show a review at all because i may be too opinionated liao. But i would like to share with everyone a quote that i find it quite meaningful.
"世界上沒有教不會的孩子, 只有不會教的父母."
hmmmm. . . . does pple wif overproductive sweat glands tend to be more teary? Overflow. . .
Haha, i wun be givin the show a review at all because i may be too opinionated liao. But i would like to share with everyone a quote that i find it quite meaningful.
"世界上沒有教不會的孩子, 只有不會教的父母."
hmmmm. . . . does pple wif overproductive sweat glands tend to be more teary? Overflow. . .
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Clipped. .
I felt like i am dragging a 20kg load through the unrelenting desert under the scorching sun. I felt so wearied. . i dunno whether i am searching for an oasis, mere water to quench my thirst, or simply the will to live.
Yes, my inner world is raining, but alas, the rain fell everywhere in wicked glee except my trodden path.
Where are my wings when i need u?
Yes, my inner world is raining, but alas, the rain fell everywhere in wicked glee except my trodden path.
Where are my wings when i need u?
Labels: musings
Inner peace.
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
night sea
Finding the way. .
Ha. . I got to admit that i am a total idiot when it comes to finding directions. I wonder how i went through NS unscathed. I remembered there was a instance during my army days when i sprained my ankle during a life run on a Sat morning. A kind warrant officer who lived in Tampines offered to send me home in his car even though i lived far away from him. When he drove me near queensway, which was quite near from my house, he needed directions from me as he wasnt familiar with the road. I gave him the wrong directions. Haha. That was how bad I am in finding directions.
Then on tue, it was a case of the blind leading the blind. Enjoyed my dae thou. Great fun at the arcade even thou i wasnt really there for long. Quite a funny feeling steppin into one since 1 or 2 years ago. Ha. .
Hope my road sense would improve. This would be my wish for todae.
Then on tue, it was a case of the blind leading the blind. Enjoyed my dae thou. Great fun at the arcade even thou i wasnt really there for long. Quite a funny feeling steppin into one since 1 or 2 years ago. Ha. .
Hope my road sense would improve. This would be my wish for todae.
Labels: note
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
You
I just wanted to say that there are few friends quite like you. . .
You say things that i care about. . .
You do things that matter. . .
You make a difference to me. . .
You make a difference to other people, too. .
and i know for a fact that if you were not here. . .
I wouldn't like the world quite as much as i do now. . .
You say things that i care about. . .
You do things that matter. . .
You make a difference to me. . .
You make a difference to other people, too. .
and i know for a fact that if you were not here. . .
I wouldn't like the world quite as much as i do now. . .
I know the difference when i care about other people and when i say i like you.
Labels: note
nite witch pic
Labels: pictures
Sunday, February 12, 2006
Give them a chance
Watched a show called "Give them a chance" yesterdae nite starring Andy Hui. Andy Lau was the guest star in the show who acted himself. The show was based on a true story about problem kids with a love for dancing who overcame a series of struggles to prove themselves and realise their dreams.
In society, we always see and label problem kids as no good doers, trouble makers who have constant shaves with the law. They generally grow up to be gangsters and waste their whole life languishing in vice. . . But this is not necessarily true. In this show, the kids never commit any crimes. They just love to dance. Due to the fact that they do not have a proper area to dance and their problems at home, they choose to stay out late with their friends and spend their time dancing.
In the show, it showcased a few examples on how society chooses to view them. Of cuz, there are pple who choose to believe in them too. Andy Hui acted as a previous problem kid turned good. He spotted the kids' love for dancing. Hence, together with his younger bro, he started a dance studio for the kids and went around tryin to secure dancing jobs for them. They were eventually spotted by Andy Lau and was invited to dance in his 2001 concert at the Hong Kong coliseum.
If pple do not give this kids a chance to prove themselves, and choose to be critical of them, they would never be able to stand up and make it big in life.
Deviance is not a crime. The only crime is viewing deviance as a crime.
In society, we always see and label problem kids as no good doers, trouble makers who have constant shaves with the law. They generally grow up to be gangsters and waste their whole life languishing in vice. . . But this is not necessarily true. In this show, the kids never commit any crimes. They just love to dance. Due to the fact that they do not have a proper area to dance and their problems at home, they choose to stay out late with their friends and spend their time dancing.
In the show, it showcased a few examples on how society chooses to view them. Of cuz, there are pple who choose to believe in them too. Andy Hui acted as a previous problem kid turned good. He spotted the kids' love for dancing. Hence, together with his younger bro, he started a dance studio for the kids and went around tryin to secure dancing jobs for them. They were eventually spotted by Andy Lau and was invited to dance in his 2001 concert at the Hong Kong coliseum.
If pple do not give this kids a chance to prove themselves, and choose to be critical of them, they would never be able to stand up and make it big in life.
Deviance is not a crime. The only crime is viewing deviance as a crime.
Labels: musings
Friday, February 10, 2006
Make urself happy!
If u think that u are very stressed out, depessed and do not know what to do in ur life, the below advice is for u. ITs something that i would like to share with everyone so that they may be happier in life. Its not really an expert's opinion so do not be critical in a negative sense. By that, i mean that u do not go and bang ur head onto the wall if the methods that i am goin to share are not able to help u. Cuz u may have to get pple to repair the wall and to clear off the blood stains and that cost u a jolly good old buck, which in turn churn out another pile of problems. Oh, not to mention that u would have gotten a serious head injury. =)
Okie, wat to do to make urself better?? Below is a list which may be helpful.
1. Pick up something new.
Thought of pickin up a new skill? Something that u want to learn since ur high school daes, but u never have the courage to do so. Well, this is the time to do it! Whether its music, sports, or some other stuff, do something that engages u and keep u focused. It helps to fill ur mind wif positive thoughts because u r doing something u like.
2. Spill ur unhappiness to a close fren.
DO NOT ever bottle up ur feelings. IF u do that, the 'toxic wastes' in ur body would accumulate and gradually reach a pressure point where everything juz explodes. Confiding helps. Even if ur fren is unable to help u, u hav made a point and let off some undue steam.
3. Convince urself to smile more.
Smiling is a good way to relieve stress. One of the nicest things you can give to someone else is a beautiful smile. So when u smile to someone, u r likely to get a smile in return. . This in turn makes u happy and u feel lighter and better. U would only realise how beautiful the world still is when u smile.
4. Sing.
"In the beginning was the voice. Voice is sounding breath, the audible sign of life."--Ibid.
Singing helps to express urself and assists in letting off steam. Because in singing, one can show their emotions without inhibition and vent their frustrations through their voice. Just make sure u do not hurt ur vocal cords.
5. Crack a small little joke to ur frenz.
It doesn't matter whether ur joke is a low grade one, juz make an effort. They would appreciate ur effort and laugh along wif ur silly joke. Hmmm?? U may ask me why u are the one makin pple laugh, but trust me, makin pple happy lightens ur mood too. U would realise that u r not alone as there are pple who are willin to laugh wif u. This keeps u goin.
6. Do something that deviates from ur routine.
Instead of goin to work or sch in ur usual manner, take an alternate route. If u drink coffee, try tea instead. Just attempt something different. This can help show u that are still many aspects in life that u probably havent explore yet. NOw may be a trying period but u gotta hav the conviction that u can get over it.
7. A silly but useful mtd.
Haa. . This method was imparted by a fren. FOund it effective and would like to share it wif everyone. Every morning and nite, look at urself in the mirror and smile. Then u laugh urself silly and tell urself everything's gonna be all right. Trust me, it may seem silly, but its a tried and tested method.
Okie, felt i crap too much liao. Guys and Gals outta there. Stay happy. NO ONE owes u happiness!! U gotta work hard for it. =)
Okie, wat to do to make urself better?? Below is a list which may be helpful.
1. Pick up something new.
Thought of pickin up a new skill? Something that u want to learn since ur high school daes, but u never have the courage to do so. Well, this is the time to do it! Whether its music, sports, or some other stuff, do something that engages u and keep u focused. It helps to fill ur mind wif positive thoughts because u r doing something u like.
2. Spill ur unhappiness to a close fren.
DO NOT ever bottle up ur feelings. IF u do that, the 'toxic wastes' in ur body would accumulate and gradually reach a pressure point where everything juz explodes. Confiding helps. Even if ur fren is unable to help u, u hav made a point and let off some undue steam.
3. Convince urself to smile more.
Smiling is a good way to relieve stress. One of the nicest things you can give to someone else is a beautiful smile. So when u smile to someone, u r likely to get a smile in return. . This in turn makes u happy and u feel lighter and better. U would only realise how beautiful the world still is when u smile.
4. Sing.
"In the beginning was the voice. Voice is sounding breath, the audible sign of life."--Ibid.
Singing helps to express urself and assists in letting off steam. Because in singing, one can show their emotions without inhibition and vent their frustrations through their voice. Just make sure u do not hurt ur vocal cords.
5. Crack a small little joke to ur frenz.
It doesn't matter whether ur joke is a low grade one, juz make an effort. They would appreciate ur effort and laugh along wif ur silly joke. Hmmm?? U may ask me why u are the one makin pple laugh, but trust me, makin pple happy lightens ur mood too. U would realise that u r not alone as there are pple who are willin to laugh wif u. This keeps u goin.
6. Do something that deviates from ur routine.
Instead of goin to work or sch in ur usual manner, take an alternate route. If u drink coffee, try tea instead. Just attempt something different. This can help show u that are still many aspects in life that u probably havent explore yet. NOw may be a trying period but u gotta hav the conviction that u can get over it.
7. A silly but useful mtd.
Haa. . This method was imparted by a fren. FOund it effective and would like to share it wif everyone. Every morning and nite, look at urself in the mirror and smile. Then u laugh urself silly and tell urself everything's gonna be all right. Trust me, it may seem silly, but its a tried and tested method.
Okie, felt i crap too much liao. Guys and Gals outta there. Stay happy. NO ONE owes u happiness!! U gotta work hard for it. =)
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Xiao Bai at St Luke!
Went to visit xiao bai at St Luke Hospital todae evening. She was thinner than before. . She managed to recognise me todae, an atonishing feat that have almost welled up my tears in the corners of my eyes. Tucked them away neatly. She told me to concentrate on my studies and work hard. IT was something that i have seriously not done so, not in dis sem. Felt quite bad lo. . . She was constantly holdin my hand and even when i was about to leave, she held my hands tightly and repeated the same thing again. . Xiao bai cant bear to see us leaving her alone.. something she would hav to endure for at least 1 month.
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Miracles
This is not goin to be a long post about creating miracles, but its juz an opinion on wat i feel about miracles. In life, one is never ever goin to be contented with what he or she has. Everyone has their wants and desires, its juz the different level and attainabiltiy. Some things juz seem to be unattainable, it seems so unrealistic.
Then there are the minority who manage to defy all odds and they create wat others called a miracle. Den they would be heralded as miracle workers, extraordinary people.
However, to me, they are juz ordinary ppple like us. and they do ordinary things. But its the most ordinary things tat make dem stand out from others. Cuz not everyone can choose to do the ordinary things that these ordinary pple opt to do. Its only through conviction and determination tat serve to see these pple through testing times that would have cracked even the toughest nuts. In the face of adversity, where others should fail, grit and resolve should see these people through.
U do not need to be extaordinary, u juz need to believe.
Then there are the minority who manage to defy all odds and they create wat others called a miracle. Den they would be heralded as miracle workers, extraordinary people.
However, to me, they are juz ordinary ppple like us. and they do ordinary things. But its the most ordinary things tat make dem stand out from others. Cuz not everyone can choose to do the ordinary things that these ordinary pple opt to do. Its only through conviction and determination tat serve to see these pple through testing times that would have cracked even the toughest nuts. In the face of adversity, where others should fail, grit and resolve should see these people through.
U do not need to be extaordinary, u juz need to believe.
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Tuesday, February 07, 2006
blue xmas
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ai and cha
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Monday, February 06, 2006
Something mundane
Cant help by noticing tat different pple use different spellings in their sms or msn to express the same thing. Here, i should talk about haha.
For example, a normal haha can be expressed by different pple as ha, haa, haha, hahaha, hah, hahas and hee, hehe, heehee, heh, heh heh. . I think this probably can tell wat character the person is like ba.
I should give my 5 cents worth of opinion here about the following terms: ha, haha, haa, hahaha, and hah
According to my not so professional observation( without any empirical data to back me up) pple who use ha, haha are the majority of the population. They seek confirmation from the majority by being the majority. They probably wun even notice that they are using such a conventional term to express themselves. Or other than tat, they are juz plain bored to even notice and change. Who would care anyway except a idiot or lunatic who has enuf free time to take notice? because its definitely not anything wrong. its juz goes to show tat they may tend to be less meticulous in daily or intricate details tat do not require much attention.
As for pple who like to use hahaha haa and hah, they are more deviant in a sense. bUT pple who uses dis 3 are deviant in different manners. now i should examine in a closer fashion.
Hahaha are used by pple to accentuate the fact that they find a particular subject very humourous. From this, we can actually deduce tat they are not afraid to show their feelings to people and they are daring in their endeavours too. they are not afraid to take the plunge into black holes bacause they are very confident of themselves.
As for pple who use haa, they are pple who are veri imaginative. They are sensitive and pple who are comfortable being alone. Neverthless they enjoy the company of close frenz and they tend to be emotional beings too. .
For hah, they left out the a with an intention. they do not want to complete the haha, because they are are pple who have a higher den normal ego and do not like to be classified under the normal big group. However, dis doesnt mean that they are pple who has an attitude. In fact, most get along well with people and they can be outstanding leaders who pull no punches.
Haa. . tats wat i feel. Feel free to share wif me wat u feel. . .
For example, a normal haha can be expressed by different pple as ha, haa, haha, hahaha, hah, hahas and hee, hehe, heehee, heh, heh heh. . I think this probably can tell wat character the person is like ba.
I should give my 5 cents worth of opinion here about the following terms: ha, haha, haa, hahaha, and hah
According to my not so professional observation( without any empirical data to back me up) pple who use ha, haha are the majority of the population. They seek confirmation from the majority by being the majority. They probably wun even notice that they are using such a conventional term to express themselves. Or other than tat, they are juz plain bored to even notice and change. Who would care anyway except a idiot or lunatic who has enuf free time to take notice? because its definitely not anything wrong. its juz goes to show tat they may tend to be less meticulous in daily or intricate details tat do not require much attention.
As for pple who like to use hahaha haa and hah, they are more deviant in a sense. bUT pple who uses dis 3 are deviant in different manners. now i should examine in a closer fashion.
Hahaha are used by pple to accentuate the fact that they find a particular subject very humourous. From this, we can actually deduce tat they are not afraid to show their feelings to people and they are daring in their endeavours too. they are not afraid to take the plunge into black holes bacause they are very confident of themselves.
As for pple who use haa, they are pple who are veri imaginative. They are sensitive and pple who are comfortable being alone. Neverthless they enjoy the company of close frenz and they tend to be emotional beings too. .
For hah, they left out the a with an intention. they do not want to complete the haha, because they are are pple who have a higher den normal ego and do not like to be classified under the normal big group. However, dis doesnt mean that they are pple who has an attitude. In fact, most get along well with people and they can be outstanding leaders who pull no punches.
Haa. . tats wat i feel. Feel free to share wif me wat u feel. . .
Sunday, February 05, 2006
These are some photos take during and after 2 long and dry hours of electrical engineering lecture.
Me and Shih Kwang. NOticed how i take advantage of him from behind.
Freed from the keypad in recent daes, but stuck to the keyboard. . .
Got quite intrigued with how the magnet works. Its princples are quite fundamental, but the idea of attracting and repeling juz gets into me. Wonder how sometimes pple get attracted to one another?
Got quite intrigued with how the magnet works. Its princples are quite fundamental, but the idea of attracting and repeling juz gets into me. Wonder how sometimes pple get attracted to one another?
Saturday, February 04, 2006
No Haiing anymore
I am enlightened. . No more haii for me now.
Was torn between J and S. Now i have given it a serious thought. What mindset did i have when i tell myself that i have an interest in them? Is it real love, infatuation, or a mere crush? Or am i as shallow as a dirty well, taking physical appearance as first priority? Well, i told myself that it was a no for me, even though i got to admit that looks do count. . .
However, what attracts me to them is definitely beyond looks.
Let's talk about J first.
J is a very sweet gal. She is sensitive to people, and she is very observant to the surroundings even though she may rarely comment on stuff. She is also intelligent, a good listener, have a sense of humour and draws well. She is one whom i can relate to comfortably.
S. . .
S is a very friendly gal. She got an inquistive mind and possesses a level of maturity and deep thinking that i could neva match. She is active and outgoing, a filial gal who values kinship. She could set me thinking with her comments and advice.
Well, both are nice gals in their own rights. But i have not known them well enough to declare any love for them. Well, the 好感 is definitely there, but it's not love. Love is something more complex than a mere infatuation, even though love has lesser letters. Haa. . . Mere simplicity is the truest form of complexity. We got to understand what we want first, look into our heart and do some thorough soul-searching before we decide on what we want. If i have plunged myself straight in, and commit myself, i would have caused myself and the other party hurt. Haa sui yuan lo!! My fav term also!!!
Was torn between J and S. Now i have given it a serious thought. What mindset did i have when i tell myself that i have an interest in them? Is it real love, infatuation, or a mere crush? Or am i as shallow as a dirty well, taking physical appearance as first priority? Well, i told myself that it was a no for me, even though i got to admit that looks do count. . .
However, what attracts me to them is definitely beyond looks.
Let's talk about J first.
J is a very sweet gal. She is sensitive to people, and she is very observant to the surroundings even though she may rarely comment on stuff. She is also intelligent, a good listener, have a sense of humour and draws well. She is one whom i can relate to comfortably.
S. . .
S is a very friendly gal. She got an inquistive mind and possesses a level of maturity and deep thinking that i could neva match. She is active and outgoing, a filial gal who values kinship. She could set me thinking with her comments and advice.
Well, both are nice gals in their own rights. But i have not known them well enough to declare any love for them. Well, the 好感 is definitely there, but it's not love. Love is something more complex than a mere infatuation, even though love has lesser letters. Haa. . . Mere simplicity is the truest form of complexity. We got to understand what we want first, look into our heart and do some thorough soul-searching before we decide on what we want. If i have plunged myself straight in, and commit myself, i would have caused myself and the other party hurt. Haa sui yuan lo!! My fav term also!!!
Hai..
Hai... Hope that todae would be a sunny day
The above term has been used so particularly often in my life, especially recently. Of course i agree it's best to let nature takes its course, somethings are sui yuan one. NO hurries for things that cant be rushed. But what got me confused is the way i choose to handle things. The level of maturity and the depth of thoughts that i show is totally absurd. I cant believe that i am already 21+ dis year. And a hai again. . . I would have been convinced by that i am a 17 or 18 monkey boy. . .
The above term has been used so particularly often in my life, especially recently. Of course i agree it's best to let nature takes its course, somethings are sui yuan one. NO hurries for things that cant be rushed. But what got me confused is the way i choose to handle things. The level of maturity and the depth of thoughts that i show is totally absurd. I cant believe that i am already 21+ dis year. And a hai again. . . I would have been convinced by that i am a 17 or 18 monkey boy. . .
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Called in 933
Yesh! Got in to 933 at 1 plus am 3 days ago. Got it at the second attempt at dialin the number. First time that i called through 933! And the best thing is the dj is Pei Fen. She's my fav dj!! My heart thumps at an unbelievable rate when she answered my phone. So fun talking to her. .
Dedicated the song Yong Qi to all my friends out there. Haa try to call in another time.
Dedicated the song Yong Qi to all my friends out there. Haa try to call in another time.
Friday, February 03, 2006
Be content with wat u have
One has to be contented with wat he or she has. .
Very often, u hear pple striving to climb up the corporate ladder, pursuing lavish stuff, driving flashing cars, getting hold of all the riches in the world.
First, u started out as a beggar. U got a tin that earns u not much, not less. U r comfortable wif it but one dae, u realised that u earned much more than u spent. "Yes" u say to urself, i should save it for a rainy dae.
So u had a stable income and a stable bank account. After some time, u decided to get a bigger tin. U believe it can earn u more money. Haa, and a wise investment it seems. Ur profit doubled. ITs rakin in the money. U shouted, "Big Money, Big Money' , inspired by the tv show that the house opp the street where u held ur daily business blared.
Fatter profits proportional to ur body now. U decided its time to make it big. U started a begging business called "Begging Pte Ltd" A prosperous name and u had 3 workers under u. one's ur secretary, one's ur accountant and the other ur assistant. U still begged personally but wif ur assistant now and despite it being hard work, u adored the satisfaction that that u derived from ur job. its not juz a job, it is passion encompassed wif ur ideals. so far so good. (u neva realise the white hairs spoutin from beneath ur scalp).
ahh.. turnovers r good! Fat bonuses dished out to ur workers, keepin them smiling all the way to the bank. Hmmm... Time to make it even bigger..
5 years down the road, and u r successful, drivin a porsche to keep up ur status.. Money literally spinning. U throw away the old tin that has been wif u throughout the years, forgetting the nostalgia that has kept the rusty tin with u during your testing period. In place is a gold plated tin beffiting of ur status. U stand on the 24th storey of ur grand office, declaring to make beggin
(ps: continue dis boring story another time, gotta drive in the issue of being contented here)
Very often, u hear pple striving to climb up the corporate ladder, pursuing lavish stuff, driving flashing cars, getting hold of all the riches in the world.
First, u started out as a beggar. U got a tin that earns u not much, not less. U r comfortable wif it but one dae, u realised that u earned much more than u spent. "Yes" u say to urself, i should save it for a rainy dae.
So u had a stable income and a stable bank account. After some time, u decided to get a bigger tin. U believe it can earn u more money. Haa, and a wise investment it seems. Ur profit doubled. ITs rakin in the money. U shouted, "Big Money, Big Money' , inspired by the tv show that the house opp the street where u held ur daily business blared.
Fatter profits proportional to ur body now. U decided its time to make it big. U started a begging business called "Begging Pte Ltd" A prosperous name and u had 3 workers under u. one's ur secretary, one's ur accountant and the other ur assistant. U still begged personally but wif ur assistant now and despite it being hard work, u adored the satisfaction that that u derived from ur job. its not juz a job, it is passion encompassed wif ur ideals. so far so good. (u neva realise the white hairs spoutin from beneath ur scalp).
ahh.. turnovers r good! Fat bonuses dished out to ur workers, keepin them smiling all the way to the bank. Hmmm... Time to make it even bigger..
5 years down the road, and u r successful, drivin a porsche to keep up ur status.. Money literally spinning. U throw away the old tin that has been wif u throughout the years, forgetting the nostalgia that has kept the rusty tin with u during your testing period. In place is a gold plated tin beffiting of ur status. U stand on the 24th storey of ur grand office, declaring to make beggin
(ps: continue dis boring story another time, gotta drive in the issue of being contented here)
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